i think that's honestly what scares me most about the idea of ever going back to school, if money, desire, and time weren't all problems, im worried it would just make everything worse again. I had to have friends write and send emails for me because i would reread them over and over all day and get stuck. Thats a tame example but kind of harrowing to me to think about from an outside perspective

thinking about jediaiah martins ocd

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OKAY HERE IT IS. LOOOOK LOOK LOOK LOOK HOW AWESOME IT IS SHE'S PLAYING FIDDLE!!!!

art by the wonderful @/coochiekrab (sabanya_smiles on twitter)

unfinished AJ art because i don't show him off enough!!!

learning how to fiddle btw. friendship ended with playing classical music if im being real

my favorite part of her design is the tufts of fur around her hands and feet its so fucking good i felt like a genius for that. I also like that i made her vest a do it yourself thing i think its fun for ppl who want to just get fun with it while also leaving room for people who'd rather just draw it plain

might give AJ a new ref just for shits and giggles... this one is too good though like this is staying the official i think

might give AJ a new ref just for shits and giggles... this one is too good though like this is staying the official i think

I once fought against someone who referenced gecs in their r-code and I really hope they realized that "20puppy" is a take on "100gecs" because I pointed and yelled "GECS SOLIDARITY"

There are ten trillion pictures of flowering trees to the point where they sometimes seem trite and overdone. But then you see a tree in full flower and go holy shit this rules and I've gotta show this to everyone so they can experience the same magic and wonder and there are ten trillion and one pictures of flowering trees

I need to (remembers to not make casual suicide jokes in order to encourage a more outwardly positive mindset and healthy conversational environment in my day to day life) kill myself

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I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”

I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.

It’s not not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.

it costs zero dollars to be niceys, and friendly. it costs two dollars fifty sense for a ice pop from the ice cream truck. do you want me to spot you? im happy to because i love ypu

they should invent a place you can live that your parents also arent living at

Save me, smiling Sol Badguy... save me...

are we almost on the other side of the death metal tunnel?

nooope curse of 100000000 metal bands forever sorry