IN ANOTHER EPISODE OF SELF LOVE BY PORSH

so i started to work out today??? HAHAHAHA GRABE THIS QUARANTINE REALLY CHANGED MEEE AHHHH hahahaha but yeah!!

I exercised for 1 and a half our not bad for a first day. But yeah i did arms, abs, inner thigh and the ZUMBA BEYBeh 💪🏻🤪 HAHAHA ITS KINDA FUN AND SATISFYING to see all that sweat ya know 🥵

and yeaaa after that i drank teaa and then had a bomb ass shower!!!! shaved and conditioned AHHHHH sml for this day ❤️🤩

trust d process bitches HEHEHE

THINGS LIKE THIS KEEPS ME GOING AHHHH ❤️ To my recent, I met you when i wasn’t even looking so I trully believe that we are not meant to be for each other. SOMEEONEEEEE SOMEWHERE out there is the one that is meant for me.

No more rushing and I wont be looking anymoree ahhhhhh and i can’t wait for the day HUHU 🥺

ITS UP TO YOU LORD 👆🏻❤️

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grabe wala lang it’s already 7 am and i remembered something from last year

feb 2 2019 i think the night we went to yats’ place “the talk” with ren 🥴 of all the questions na meron sa mundong to tinanong ko sya “masaya ka ba?” he said oo naman and i continued saying “yung totoong masaya?” he then again said “oo, ikaw?” i remember saying “buti ka pa haha” 🥺

Hindi ko alam na umabot pala sa point na ganto na na feel ko sa buhay ko?? grabe awang awa akoo sa self ko 🥺 im so sorry self for letting this shit happened to u HUHUHU grabe umabot pala talaga sa point na ganto, tatanong mo nalang sarili mo kung masaya ka ba talaga? yung TOTOONG masaya 😔

grabe.

I’ve been remembering and analyzing everything about myself these past few days! and hindi ko na hahayaan na madi-disregard yung na fefeel ko. Kase yes it is possible, with everything that is happening to you each and everyday dadating yung point na mababalewala yung nararamdaman mo. Which is not good. It’s okay to cry, to be sad, to be happy, to be mad, to be anxious but you have to know how to take care of what you feel. DO something about it. Hindi pwede yung balewala nalang.

If your sad and want to cry. CRY IT ALL OUT!! Crying is good for the soul. You need to let it all out first and then after, you think about it, what’s making you sad? what can you do about it? what are the reasons? Do you need to act on something to make it go away? EVERYTHING you can possibly do. Try to think of it.

If your happy? Laugh and smile. Do something about it. Tresure every moment because you’ll never know kase lahat yan pwede mawala ng isang iglap.

SELF LOVE is the key. Apply it to everything that you do.

I’m inlove with the relationship that i have with my own self now. I’m loving the process and progress THAT i myself is making. I won’t let this shit happened again. Never. ❤️

March 16 2020

MY LOLA COOKED NUGGETS FOR US but sadly i only ate one HUHU FUCKING HURTS SO BAD 🥺

I only ate one then drank lots of water huhu it’s olredi day 2 of my fucked up diet?? kuno?? HAHA

for day 1 i ate only bread and soup for lunch then sky flakes for dinner 🥺🥺🤮

for today?? 1 pc of nuggets for lunch?? and water then for dinner YAY i cooked tuna pasta so yea i kinnda ate carbs padin but yeah then i ate skyflakea for midnight snack AND I HAD cloud coffee with splenda hehe

IT HUrts so bad BUT IZZ GONN BE WORTH IT IN D END SO we gotta trust d process 🤪 LEZGAW

WALA NG IIYAK 2020!!!!! SELF HELLO PLS LANG HAHAHAHHAAHA

SOBRANG fucked up kase na re-real talk ko yung sarili ko??? dahil to sa NCOV na to eh so yeah nasa bahay lang me always because bawal lumabas so yea nakapag isip isip ako lalo na tuwing galing and as in LIKEEEEE puta grabe pala din pala mga nagawa ko before kaya siguro nangyare sakin to now siguro this is my karma ??? ewan ko ah BUTTTT I dont wanna be to hard on my self. I know for a fact that sa part ko I gave my VERY best as in! i gave my all and my best to them at that time?? (wow dami) but yeah AND KNOW i know that I GAVE MY ALL but putangina kinulang pero yea this is my karma. and i’m not mad i’m happy that i was able to see THIS. to realize every thing that is happening. So yeah WITH these realization i learned a lot.



•putangina mag mamahal lang pag ready na ah?! wag gagamit ng iba para maka move on!! ANDDDD PORTIA PUTANGINA MAG MAMAHAL KA LANG PAG KAYA MO NA BIGAY LAHAT AS IN LAHAT pero mag titira KA sa sarili MO TYAKA BIBIGAY KO LANG SA MAY DESERVE ?!?? sa kaya din pantayan??? HA?? self?? puta ah KA STRESS Eh.

• know. your. mother. fucking. worth!!! GIVING YOUR EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE IS NOT ENOUGH FOR THE WRONG PERSON!! U GOTTA PICK THE RIGHT PERSON... pls lang ha.

• LOVE YOURSELF !! FIRST !!! PARA PAG INIWAN KA NILA HINDI MASYADONG MASAKIT KASE NAG TIRA KA!!! DIBA!! HINDI PUro sila nalang!!! ha!! “you deserve better” PWEEEE SILA NANAMAN??? LAGI NALANG SILA EH IKAW SELF Ano?? tao ka din deserve mo din naman!! ok!!!

• ENJOY LIFE this is not a race!! UMIBIG LANG PAG HANDA NA diba!! + MADAMING LALAKE SA MUNDO SUre naman ako na nag laan yung dyos ng 1 man lang para sakin!!! HA???

• TULOY LANG ANG LIFE!!! MASARAP mabuhay. Imagine the best feeling that you felt sa wrong person.... what more pa kaya kung right person na?? yon pwede na q mamatay non CHAR. PERO SERYOSO DIBA!!!! excited na ako huhu

I MADE THIS FOR ME! This is in no way bragging or being a bitch to my past self BUT sometimes u gotta be straight up with yourself to face reality with your best self. I am not comparing all of them but analyzing all that have happened based on what i truly feel. SO YEA NO HATES, just love char BUT YEAH HAHAHAHAHA

3/11/2020 - NCOV

tangina eto lang ba deserve ko? yun na yon? putangina after everything lahat lahat ng “pinagsamahan” putanginaaa yan lang deserve ko???? wala man lang reason, explanation or what. PUTANGINAAA TALAGA buti sana kung nag cheat ako or ginago ko sya or what eh kaso hindi eh putangina loyal as fuck ako never ko syang ginago pero puta ewan ko ba. IM SO FUCKING TIRED and onti onti na akong nagiging okay kase kahit papano tanggap ko na na kahit wala nalang closure eh, MAS OKAY pa nga yun eh. Kesa to. Sorry? puta hindi man lang sinabi why the fuck ka nag sosorry?? Bukang bibig pang “matanda na ako di na ako bata” PERO PUTA DI MAN LANG ANO MABIGYAN NG MAAYOS NA CLOSURE OR KAHIT MAG MAN UP MAN LANG PARA MAG EXPLAIN???? PUTAAAAA WEAK SHIT KA GAGO gusto mo pa maging okay tayo pag nag kikita?? FUCK NO AFTER nyan?? PUTANGINA YAN LANG NASABI MO!!!! TANGINAAAA. yan nalang nasasabi ko eh. Nung nag away tayo ng halos 1 month I FUCKING MADE THIS FUCKING TUMBLR ACCOUNT just TO FUCKING TELL YOU EVERYTHING I WANTED TO SAY and to have a proper closure PUTANGINAAA in-express ko lahat ng saloobin ko dito kase sabi ko THIS IS WHAT U DESERVE, TO FUCKING hear man lang YUNG SIDE KO PUTANGINA SANA DI KO NALANG GINAWA!!! fucking message TANGINA YAN LANG TALAGA? YUNG TAONG NAG CHEAT NA SA BF nya HINABOL HABOL PA NG BOYFRIEND NYA putangina tas ako hindi? kahit explanation wala? PUTANGINAAAA NG MUNDO ANG UNFAIR GAGO!! PUTANGINA TALAGAAAA I GAVE MY HEART TO SOMEONE WHO DIDNT REALLY GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME PUTANGINA!!!!!! PUTANGINA TRINATO KA NG MGA EX MO NG SOBRANG PARANG BASURA KA NALANG NAG CHEAT SILA LAHAT SAYO SINASAKTAN KA PHYSICAL PUTANGINA PINAPARIWARA BUHAY MO DINADALA KA PA SA MASAMANG LANDAS PERO PUTANGINA AKO NEVER KO GINAWA SAYO YON HAYUP SINUPORTAHAN KITA sa abot ng makakaya ko PUTAAA NAG INARTE LANG AKO PUTANGINAAAAAAAAA TAS GANYAN NA PUTANGINA TALAGAAAA PUTANGINA YAN NALANG MASASABI ko. This time di na ako mag papaka tanga putanginaaa putangina talagaaaa!!!! I DONT GIVE A FUCK kung makita mo man to pero putangina hindi ko to deserve!!!! SOBRANG HINDI PUTANGINAAAAAA!!!!! ANG SAMA NG UGALI NYOOO PUTANGINA LALO NA YANG PRIDE NYO PUTANGINAAAA!!!! PUTANGINAAA TALAGA!