People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.
I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.
I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.
There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me
in celebration of bobby’s birthday soon (april 14) i wanted to share my mega link to several bobby projects on here. i’ve already shared it on tiktok but i want as many people as possible to be able to see his work. i’m constantly updating it with more projects of his i can get my hands on, but if you have any requests let me know.
unfortunately they’re not all in the best quality but they’re the best i can get right now.
link to robert carlyle projects
description key is svvtlkYEn-p4q_LQD27zUA if the link won’t work on its own.
current uploaded projects under the cut.
movies;
- angela’s ashes (1999)
- black and white (2002)
- born equal (2006)
- california solo (2012)
- carla’s song (1996)
- eragon (2006)
- face (1997)
- go now (1995)
- looking after jojo (1998)
- marilyn hotchkiss ballroom and dance school (2005)
Benedict is my favourite sibling hands down! And I had NOT noticed that was Facilier!
The way I AM READY for season 3 Bridgerton!!! also Eloise isn’t being very mature right now and it hurts they made her pair up with the bully…
Yeah, I hope the Eloise/Cressida thing doesn’t last too long. Not because I think Eloise needs to forgive and forget about the Lady W stuff, but because Eloise does not like Cressida. Hanging out with her is just going out of her way to do something mean to Pen, not because she just found a new friend. Unless they give Cressida a personality overhaul or some hidden depth or something I just can’t see it. Eloise transforming into a vapid mean girl to own Penelope is just not where I’d like to see her story going.
Very excited for the return of my fantasy regency soap opera though! Married Kanthony! Francesca getting a storyline! Polin glow ups! Dr. Facilier from OUAT showing up to water Mama Bridgerton’s garden! BENEDICT my love! I need more Benedict and for his season to be next! If they skip him again I will be so tired.