♧ reminiscent of our love; it's like having a secret rendezvous with nostalgia.

Read this - There are 7.79 billion and counting ways to love, and one of it is not to be dumb. Love has a lot of idle speculations that may cause a collateral damage in one person's life; Have you ever wonder what others feel while you acted so dumb because of love? Have you ever think how you acted just because you love someone? Does it affects anyone? or more importantly, how does that affects your attitude and morale towards someone who's been there for you at the very start? When you wake up It's either you think of yourself or think of someone else. Loving... what's worse about it? It's onerous, if you won't handle it carefully or more specifically, if you can't even handle it properly. Are you ready? What if one day you woke up and realized he was nowhere to be found? That he was just a part of your dream, giving a temporary bliss and a permanent discontentment. You are slowly wasting time rather than making it productive. What have you done with your time as you await for someone without a fit assurance? Have you gotten any credential? Or are you just sittin' right there, waiting for a stone to become gold? There are 7.8 billion and counting ways to love, one of it is to think of yourself and those who loves you with assurance. Got that?

Numb “Grief and sadness bestowed upon the innocent Gigantic fears flung farther thee Thus her intelligence comes no boon Something naive started to lose Rumors, gossips and flase-saying ricochet As emotions started to fade Loneliness a part of her best solace Uneasiness begun at crowded places Hence, poetry lulls her to sleep No music enters her ears Nor screaming and pain She just felt plain. A secret rendezvous of her reminisce No question or metaphorical words being asked Criticism and discrimination made no sense She, whom the fear have spoken, never blast She has had bear the pain At last. ”

Sex Dedicated: Sapphiere Crédo “ A deluxe sensation of the worst frustration Comes the arouse fear of loneliness dedication Everything changes,the first sexual intercourse Addicting and confusing like the code Morse. A tempting attempt, begin and you can't stop The unusual cravings- unbearable pain and pleasure go and ask for more Delivered by moans and groans of love unsure And when done, either hopes high or hopes gradually drain and drop Lust or Love? Losing dignity and criticized by humanity A simple concupisence and you gave up easily The knocking conscience of the fearful consequence What hurts more, the never-ending pain and pleasure Or the life sentence of being unmindful? ”

She,Her, I. “A rolemodel with an important reputation A goddess that should hold her title The perfect emblem of serenity and etiquette The best description of intelligence and morale But I am more than just a girl. I can be delinquent or elegant. I can flirt or study at the same time. I can show the world my own shit and do some crime. I can curse, I can sugar coat words I'm more than what people gossip about. I'm weak, I stand. I'm strong, I cry. Expectations are my greatest fucker for life. I am pretty, I can be ugly. Discrimination and critics can stop me. When I show, guys go crazy. Others fill this slut with jealousy. I smirk and give them no fuck. I shout and whisper their shits on their ears. I'm more than a slut and a geek. I'm a girl with a mixture of intelligence and fleek. I'm no ordinary than what stereotypes usually think. I am your girl. I am the Girl. And I'm ready to make your world whirl”

«7th entry» “There's a song I never wanted to hear But it kept me in the goodness of its harmony. There's a feeling I always fear Though It binds me to its soothing yet bitter symphony. If I stayed Would you still love me the same Or maybe we'll just both be playing this nonsense game And making our love a simple token that's well-played? What if you waited any longer Or what if I came back much earlier? Would we not be hurt Or would we just lost our own worth? Why did everything fade? Why did I left my word unsaid? Why did you give up? Why instead of making everything work, You let everything drop? Was I the one who left you alone Or was it you who just moved on? Was the only person who's hoping is me Or you're already drifting from my sight and I'm just too blind to see? Im sorry for leaving you I didn't mean to hurt the person I value the most. But now that the person who has my heart was already lost I just wanna tell you I love you, and it's true. This will be my last hi, And my saddest good-bye This might our day But my love for you would stay ”

《2nd Entry》 Let's start with our very own story. When you and me Despised each other. How our two different worlds Collided with a work of a simple letter Under this chair Where we sat on. When the art of music Interwined with a piece of paper By a pen and ink. Where our first history of catastrophe Began in a simple glimpse of the word 'We' How you gather the harmony and symphony of my best sympathy Such a nice destiny for a sweet tradegy. How I realized that I'm falling for my penpal Which I didn't know was may greatest rival. A blast of impossibility, The playful laughter of destiny. Such deceitful For a fool. But then I realized, Words are poetry, Poetry are music. Boredom is what our hearts and soul long for. Your pen keeps jotting, My strings keep strumming, Together we sing, Together we composed. Two beautiful disasters Ended as a joyful lovers. Our words were kept, P.S I like you. -P.S I like you by Katie West. |Highschool students who despised each other and became penpals. Yet- they didn't know that they are sending a secret message to each other. Find out how they would react once they who are they falling to. Romance fiction. |

《First Entry》 When I sleep I heard a noise, Such a sweet and graceful voice, Mother's emotion, Her human storm, Her little angle, Her child; Me. Her sleepless nights, My brighter days. Her wishful thoughts, My never-ending rants. "Twinkle Twinkle little star" "Baa Baa black sheep" "Round the mother's arms are folding" Say to you, My mother dear, Your words I always want to hear. Sweeping all away my fears, Sorry for bringing you so much tears. One more time I want to lay, As the night passes by, As my eyes start to cry, Please let me hear your soothing poetry under your lovely lullaby. Even just one more time. -Brile.

|| Her story || 6th. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Gabriella, Yes. it's you! Remember when you thought we forgot about your special day? Nah-ah. We didn't. You hugged me, remember? And what did you say? "This looks like just a dream" You thought everything that happened to you was just a dream because you didn't expected it. But no! Honey, It's all real. Like the time when you saw me, Slowly dying. Did you see how my eyes were widened? Because I wished that it was just a dream. I never thought of dying. At least not now. You really think that I won't die, didn't you? The weather was perfect. It was still and suddenly, boom! I was gone. It was not a dream it was real. Your actions strikes more than the thunder I saw in my own eyes. That time, be real, did you wished that everything was only just a dream? Or did you already expected it?

|| Her story || 5th Dreaming was our favorite thing. Maybe because we both knew that we can be someone in our dreams. Have you feel the connections? Or is it me who only felt that way? Huh, Keena? But why did you stopped dreaming with me? Is it because, finally, Finally, you found the solace we ever dreamt before? you think, words can save you, so you can survive this shitty life? Come on, Keena. We, We both knew that words are just words. Survival is not for life. Living. You should live rather than just survive. Why? Why did you just let me survive. Why didn't you let me live? Is it because you thought I was hallucinating when I said I got no time? Then why are you crying right now? Because of the guilt. Or because you can't dream alone like what I did before? My last dream was you and I, Under same stars, Looking and dreaming, Hoping that time didn't passed by. Words do stung. But don't live with just it.

|| Her story || 4th. "S-she wok-e up!" your eyes were teary and her voice was shaking. 'Don't cry, Aella' I wanted to say, but I can't. all I can do was to move my eyes around memorizing every detail of your face. but then my heart line went straight, my eyes became blury and my lungs were tightening. I feel hopeless though I'm still fighting because I thought, you were fighting for me too. The doctor tried to revive me, "No, Let her be. She need to rest" and you agreed. I smiled. You saw that, didn't you? You saw how my tears streamed down my eyes as I slowly closed it. Aella, Why didn't you tell them that I was still fighting? That I AM still fighting? Do you think that I would give up? You pretty much knew that I won't, I'm sure. But why? I thought you believed in me. Why didn't you believed me? Why did you let me go without us fighting for me? Was I that easy to gave up? Am I? I thought finally, someone would believe and fight for me. But I was wrong. I am wrong.

|| Her story || 3rd. Serene. Serenity. "I fell in loved to somebody who would never fall back for me" you cried. You liked his cousin. A boy under his black cap and Brunette hair. You were mesmerized by how he looked with those simple things hanging around his wrist. But were you aware of these things that were hanging on my neck? The knives that were stabbed on my heart whenever I see you cry. "Don't worry, Rene. I won't let you go. Even if death would touch you" I kidd' but I'm serious. But then, death touched me first. But you freed me with him. With the black color that invades my eyes the moment you and the doctor removed those tubes in my body, because you thought I won't make it. You didn't trust me, do you? You thought I was kidding. I'm dead serious. I can get you away from death, But you can't do that to me. You freed me. You let go of the grip that I was holding unto. You kissed me, Tears flowing from your eyes, and then you make me see the dark with your hands on my eyes. I was there, wondering, What I did wrong for you to gave up easily on me?

|| Her story || 3rd. Serene. Serenity. "I fell in loved to somebody who would never fall back for me" you cried. You liked his cousin. A boy under his black cap and Brunette hair. You were mesmerized by how he looked with those simple things hanging around his wrist. But were you aware of these things that were hanging on my neck? The knives that were stabbed on my heart whenever I see you cry. "Don't worry, Rene. I won't let you go. Even if death would touch you" I kidd' but I'm serious. But then, death touched me first. But you freed me with him. With the black color that invades my eyes the moment you and the doctor removed those tubes in my body, because you thought I won't make it. You didn't trust me, do you? You thought I was kidding. I'm dead serious. I can get you away from death, But you can't do that to me. You freed me. You let go of the grip that I was holding unto. You kissed me, Tears flowing from your eyes, and then you make me see the dark with your hands on my eyes. I was there, wondering, What I did wrong for you to gave up easily on me?

|| Her story || 2nd "I wasn't the best person but I can be the realest" I said. Did you here what I said, or are you busy to listen to me? Tell me, Abrielle, were you there when I need a real person to mend my heart? You were one of the best person I ever had. Thank you for that. Wait- Did I ever have you? Because I'm sure, I was there for you not giving up on any circumstances we encounter. "Ate Cy, Thanks for everything. Rest now" You gave up easily. Maybe because you didn't want me to feel the burden anymore. But no, You gave up. The sharpest knife of a short life. I thought you would want me to stay. I wanted too. But you let go. Is it me who gave up my life? Or is it you who gave up my life? I saw it. I saw how you cried, but still, you never stopped the doctor for pulling the oxygen in my body. You gave up, so my body does. I can have so much time with you, guys. Specially you, Abrielle. But you gave up. Why?

|| Her Story || Intro "I'd rather be dead than alive" His words still stung in my heart. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside with all the different forces around me. I'm bloated. By all means, he meant that he'd rather be dead than being here beside me, so he left. He didn't die, but it felt like that, and here I am, standing, in front of my own grave. I died.Yes, I did. Or at least I thought I did. Tears started to fall from my eyes, The wind blew as my heart sank. This is where I'll be buried. Soon, I guess? I was given enough time to show life, but I didn't succeed living it to its fullest. Soon my sisters would lay me down above those roses in a boat where I would sink with my heart. They would sing a ballad on their hearts as the waves embraces me. And he, he would see how my premonition were true. Tears would be saved today, but as soon as I pass away, they would have enough. In addition, every dawn, You would look at the window and touch the sweetest rose of its facade. Remembering me as my whole, Asking yourself, "Why did I let you go?"

|| H E R S T O R Y || Cyrex's Nagising ako sa aking kwarto at tumingin sa palagid. Nakita ko ang mga kapatid kong parang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa. A sudden reminiscent flows in my head. "Axanna?! Asan siya?!?" Everyone looked at my direction like I was a ghost. And there, on my side, was Axanna. Looking at me with her tears falling from her cheeks. My heart sank seeing her wrist. I held it trying to remove the scar. "I'm-orry, Ate was-'t a-ble to co-ptely he-you" I was crying. I had this glitching thing and I won't last any longer.Why o Earth everything happens so fast? Axanna pulled her wrist from me. Like I was some kind of a disease. "Ate, Masyado ka ng maraming nagawa. I can take this scar just to see you full. Not fading" 'If only...' I was crying not because of what she said, but because of the what ifs that were lingering on my head. 'What if that day would come, would they bear my extinction? ' "Axanna.. Wag mo na ulit iyong gagawin. We can't bear seeing you like...like..that" I said. "I'm so sorry... It's just th-at" "Stop, You are not a failure. You may be fired all the way. We are still here for you. You had proven so much thing you could ever Imagine. We, The Alphas, Bravos and Charlies, We are proud of you" I said with full of passion. "Ate. Sorry." I hugged her tight and everyone joined. Anyhow, we are still siblings. No matter what happened, we are still together as one.

|| H E R S T O R Y || "Ate Cy! Si Axanna, She slit her wrist!" Cyrex world stopped in a split second. 'No, This can't be' she said to herself. She ran as fast as she could to reach her sister's room. Everyone was there, shaking, unmoved and crying. "Ax...Bakit?" Hindi malaman ng kanyang nga kapatid ang kanilang gagawin. Even Axanna's twin, Axanne, didn't know what to do. "Ate, Ayumie... Si Axanna.." she murmured. "She's still breathing. Pero nahihirapan na siya" Henrietta said. "Kausap ko lang siya kanina..." Tugon ni Louise "Kaya pala parang ang sweet niya. Inayos pa niya yung higaan namin. We had a 'sister' talk" Axanne said tearing up. "May problema ba siya?" Cyrex was only stading near Axanna. She can feel her sister in pain and barely breathing. She can't help it. "She got fired sa recent work niya.. She felt like she's a failure" Serene answered. Hinilot ni Cyrex ang kanyang sentido at huminga ng malalim. "Sh sh-dn't f-il t-that" Again, she's glitching. Everyone looked at her. "Dapat hindi niya iniisip na failure siya. we're here not to discriminate or criticize her. " Cyrex said. Naubusan na siya ng hangin sa pagpilit niyang hindi mag glitch. "NAWAWALA NA YUNG PULSO NIYA!" Sigaw naman ni Gabriella. "Move!" Cyrex ran towards Axanna who has tears in her eyes. "Fight with me, Ax. You don't need to prove something. You try. You already had proven something. " Cyrex was crying so much. "A-ate Cy.. You're..fading" Cyrex didn't mind the particles of her being. She held Axanna's hands kahit na nahihirapan na rin siya. Slowly, the particles touched Axanna's open wrist and cleanse it until her slits were completely cured. Lumalabo na ang mga mata ni Cyrex. "Ate Cy! YOU'RE COMPLETELY FADING" They shouted but Cyrex didn't hear them. She opened her eyes. Nagulat sila sa nakita nila. Her eyes are colored in blue,green and brown like it was a kaleidoscope. They were raging. Bewitching. Biglang bumangon si Axanna at Huminga ng malalim. Sinunggaban nila ito ng yakap.Ngunit sabay noon ay ang paghulog ni Cyrex sa sahig. She was half fading. "ATE CYREX!" And everything went black in her vision.