Lust is a strong sexual desire.

Love an intense feeling of deep affection.

Which one made you like me for me?

I realize as I continue to keep repeating myself over and over things that bother me I have to protect my peace from you. I keep reacting out of my character for you; I went out of my way to make you happy. But you don't deserve my energy. I must prioritize my inner wellness and activate my mindset of peace and happiness.

I was blinded, but I am happy you taught me how I should not be treated...

So Thank You.

Crazy or Growth?

Now I know I can't be crazy but Have you ever felt that you are, for certain numb to anything that you come across?. For example, you can come across a situation that can badly hurt you mentally and physically, and it eats you inside.

This past month, I have been feeling down, but I present myself so well-put and happy that it makes me forget everything and feel good. (I always make sure to put myself first) Now with the situation that I came across, I have walked away and simply said "okay" because that is how the person feels and I can't change that. But inside my head, I wanted to do so much such as scream, tell my feelings, throw things, and simply just fight.

BUT,

I couldn't because I know karma does its own thing in life, so I breathe and leave.

But How about me and my feelings?

Today I woke up on a great side of the bed. That is a good thing because I have been feeling down lately and so I meditate, journal, and walk. I had started doing my daily skin care routine, took an errand run to Starbucks and treated myself to lunch. I have done things that makes me happy.

Later that day, I attended a financial class that has opened my eyes and for sure I have left with knowledge.

And happily I have ended my day by buying myself flowers.

A reminder...

Everything will be okay in the end.

If it is NOT okay,

It is NOT the end.

Since November, this is how I have been feeling, and this is a kick in the butt.

I have been STRESS!!!

Why is something that I am paying for giving me so much stress...

Lately, I have been feeling alone and going through a strange rough patch mentally due to school and my personal life. Certain things in life have turned me into a different person, and I have been coping with them so negatively that I think it's positive. I feel like I am fighting this battle alone, and it is hard to explain my situation, and nobody really understands me.

Gloomy Day

Today was the day I stayed in bed and binge-watched "Wednesday." I had a banana and hot tea for breakfast, and I journaled my daily affirmations.

For Example:

Selfish or Selfless

"What can you say to someone who cares so much in this world and for everyone but barely cares for themselves?" They do everything for family and friends but not for themselves.

A thought in my head that I would ask myself about every day. It is crazy because I ask my peers once in a blue, and they all say something that aligns.

RECIPROCATE !!!

I understand It is okay to feel for others, and it is okay to be that person that makes sure others are okay, but how about me. I realize I pour so much into people's care that I don't pour any into mine or put my feelings first, and it's sad. It's sad because how can I be there for somebody and give advice on something when I did not receive all that love when I needed somebody.

My THOUGHTSSSSSS!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Dark Cloud

I started my day with a lavender hot tea. I made a small breakfast of avocado toast and started writing my affirmations and journal for about thirty minutes.

My morning started off good and calm, but I somehow started to be in my head a lot and started to deeply go into a mood that made me feel alone. It was like.. my mind went into a black hole. I began to feel as if everything I am doing, I am all in and keeping it pushing, but at the same time, I feel discouraged. I think everything I do is for something but nothing because something doesn't feel right in my life.