Im still alive

I hadn’t felt appreciated or even missed…. but Callie is still around. 

feel free to discord me at randxmsnipcr#3968

Im still alive

I hadn't felt appreciated or even missed.... but Callie is still around. 

feel free to discord me at randxmsnipcr#3968

To the members of #FilmFam..

(Because the length in the Chat is limited.. I wanted this all out on one shot) 

I hope you guys don't mind, but I'm going to be a little....over-talkative with everything on this long post, but its because i feel that i can at least get it all out  and feel a little release on it.   And its because I trust you guys.

Ive never felt good enough to people. Ive always felt that I'm not the most important at all.  But I've gotten a-lot better to a degree... but right now I've had so many stressors on my life and I'm working on trying to find the happy medium  where i need to be again (God 2019 PLEASE Be the damn year this happens..)

A few of you know the issue, but recently a guy i really care about and i thought saw me as his best friend has basically in his own way shunned me(which didn't help me at all because i literally gave him... "everything" if you get my drift (including my purity)  I hadn't even told my parents (Because they don't need to know about my sex life)

But i also have a sick mother who has a bad back, bad neck...basically shouldn't be working but is for the health insurance and is relying on me for taking her around when I'm free and available and a father who has been slowly turning into a selfish egotistical prick 90 percent of the time, and now my brother is slipping back into a drug habit, and trying to drag the rest of us into it.  Just Today he apparently is trying to get 100 dollars out of my mother (For drugs more then likely, and he has a DAUGHTER he should be taking care of) --   so at the moment i just feel like.. a-lot is riding on my shoulders, and i don't talk to anyone locally (Especially at work - workplace drama)  

Im trying so hard to try and get things back in the right perspective.. its just been difficult as hell, but i have to say thanks. When @Jake#0225  brought me in, i was a little worried... worried i wouldn't fit in  at all (its a bad habit of mine) -- but you guys have been such a supportive group (and fun to talk with during the different things and movies... now you guys are wanting me to start watching Achievement Hunter...)  

Im just saying  Thanks, because even though i may still feel a little out of it and may go quiet sometimes, I Want you all to know how thankful i truly am, even when I'm being a paranoid over achiever who sometimes gets broken. trying to pick the pieces back up.

 You guys are just 150 percent just... incredible  ILYGSM <3

*sneaks off the soap box and goes back to her quiet corner chat-watching  :eyes:  *

DISCORD: RANDXMSNIPCR#3968

I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit right now. So if you want to add me on here. It’s discord.

DISCORD: RANDXMSNIPCR#3968

I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit right now. So if you want to add me on here. It’s discord.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit right now. So if you want to add me on here. It’s discord.

DISCORD: RANDXMSNIPCR#3968

I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit right now. So if you want to add me on here. It’s discord.

DISCORD: RANDXMSNIPCR#3968

#random picture of the day. - this was on the back of a truck taking mom to work. I mean .. what the fuck? https://www.instagram.com/p/BpCtyYlBNJV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1c6khdn5xok57

Feel free to add me – my playstation Name is the same too 

This man could ravish me any way he would want.  It’s why when I think of him Callie keeps thinking of @ziminiiyvolk and @drifting-anarchist

I just want to see

Reblog if I could just drop a starter in your ask and you wouldn’t mind

I just want to see

Reblog if I could just drop a starter in your ask and you wouldn’t mind

I miss my favorite Barnes... like @ziminiiyvolk @drifting-anarchist @warwritten and a few others