A brief moment of rationality from the bird place.

some loser: humans are innately selfish creatures

my psych book:

How many times can the same thing break your heart?

Colin "Don't cry Don't cry, is not happening, I'm blind"

see I want absolute best friend shenanigans I don’t need him directly behind her watching her every move I need him peeking out from the bushes or hiding behind a tree looking through his makeshift hand binoculars trying not to get caught by the men she’s rizzing up and Benedict and Anthony come up behind him and scare the daylights out of him while he’s scheming

Colin: I miss you 😏😊🥰😽😜

Pen: bffr rn

all this talk about colin and penelope hanging out without a chaperone, but i’m pretty sure colin sees himself as the chaperone 😭

The Colin needs to be humbled discourse is wild, like did we not watch the same 2 seasons? That man nearly locked himself into one of the most toxic marriages in the series just because he thought she was the first person to ever take him seriously, had a flop Eat Pray Love trip around Greece where he just got high, stared at grass and avoided making eye contact with women, and then came back to England at 22 years old, with no money and no prospects, already a burden to his parents, and frightened. He’s HUMBLED.

Not to mention he cannot have a conversation with Penelope without revealing his biggest insecurities to her, like that he feels aimless and purposeless, that his self confidence was in the tank after Marina and it changed how he saw himself, that he had to practice the speech he made to cousin Jack because he was nervous, and even in the midst of Penelope being angry at him he couldn’t help but let it slip that his own family barely kept in contact with him when he was abroad. If anything Penelope being mad at him might be what breaks him completely. My guy is a walking cry for help (and I love him for it.)

Colin: I missed you, Pen.

Penelope *angry and disappointed *: You missed me?

Colin 'I do not know how to decipher tone' Bridgerton *Proudly* : Yes.

Penelope:

"Pen: I overheard you at my Mama's ball last season, telling everyone how you would never, ever court Penelope Featherington"

Colin:

No but you don't understand this is his face when Penelope tells him she's the laughingstock of the entire ton and of course she never expected him to court her. This boy just got this heart broken because THAT'S HIS FRIEND. That's his FRIEND, more than anything else, and he does not see her in the way that she sees herself (he's not fully ready to truly see her yet) but he is CERTAIN she is miles above the rest of the entire bloody ton and that she does not see it herself BREAKS HIS HEART.

AND she is clearly in pain now and THERE IS NOTHING HE CAN DO BECAUSE HE WAS A PART OF IT. He had promised to take care of her, to "always look after her" and HE DIDN'T. He loves her (just how much he loves her he is not ready to realise yet) and he has let HER down. She was the only person who truly saw him as a separate person from his million siblings and he was never "another bridgerton" to her, and like we talk about Compass!Colin and how he ALWAYS sees Penelope, but he DIDN'T SEE HER, not when it mattered and HE BROKE HER HEART. That's the face of a man who knows he has become no better than the Fifes or Cressidas of the Ton and the BOY IS DISTRAUGHT.

Now excuse me while I go throw myself off of a cliff.

happy “et tu brute” to all who celebrate

“why does that character have to be queer?”

why not?

“why does that character have to be trans?”

why not?

“why does that character have to be a poc?”

why not?