radioloser
aka max
my dumb feelings and poetry. take all of my more srs posts and vents with a grain of salt. take my poetry with a cup of tea. enjoy the shitshow. i'm genderfluid so i use he/they/she and any neos. i'm not really this much of an asshole in person. start a conversation with me, i swear i get better.
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my eyes fail to reflect upon these subterranean feelings which can't be expressed at surface level. the words heave within each breath; how can I tell you? memories drift as white ash, a flake of distant tragedies befallen upon a lunar scale when fear shrouded defiance. I sit and feel too much. so much ache sloughed off in tears. I feel too much to translate why the living hurts. for every human tragedy is resurrected in emblems of silence riddled between seconds, the metronome of a clock, sentinel of our lives' stratosphere. I am nothing but a trailing breath into the contrails of terminal tomorrows. except to say I have inhaled love, exhaled faith, and dreamt the impossible incarnated within our silhouettes, lavender scented, loves-cape, moon-slipped fated beneath the pavement where our footsteps betrayed our passions, and we slept enraptured, naked until dawn
Rhapsodyinblue80//escapade toward human feeling
9/16/21
*sometimes we just write the wrinkles out of our souls til feeling feels normalcy again.
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Beware of destination addiction: The idea that happiness is in the next place, the next job, or even with the next partner. Until you give up the idea that happiness is somewhere else, it will never be where you are.
Unknown (via surqrised)
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Well, we’ve fucked ourselves, boys.
You all know my post about my intrusive thoughts. Well, I’ve shown my girlfriend. She’s yet to say anything. Fuck.
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cont. from “what’s max questioning today?”
I’m not questioning much anymore. Someone just told me I have hypersexual intrusive thoughts; it’s not me. And I’m glad. But, it doesn’t help knowing that they involve harming my friends / loved ones.
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Today was a day where I couldn’t stop breaking in and out of tears, for my own mind is out to get me and I have no safe space when it comes to my peers. I let myself down today, although others say I did great. I hate myself, and want to rip out my own organs, hand by hand, each intestine inch by inch.
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I don't think we can 'lmao' our way out of this one, girls.
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over
never really over
never really tried
heartbreak all over
heartbreak from trying
one step, spilled over
one step, stopped trying
never really over
never really tried
to begin with
to end with
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When you get manic
You pick at yourself
Like flowers
And I still
Love you the same
Alex Delorme
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Try to say the truth
and see what happens.
-the truth series.
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Nothing haunts us like the things we don’t say.
Mitch Albom (via quotemadness)
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The world and I have been traumatized;
Taught to be victimized through illness that left souls to live horrified;
Death and cancer spreading globally infestations & pesticides;
All because a born mind that thought one belief could conquer, force upon & be made systemized.
World wide domination glorified;
Pain and suffer were born from actions of making the human -> dehumanized;
Is that why at just a young age I’ve been living demoralized?
Human beings and their cultures ripped from their veins & blood cells like destroying human difference was not a crime?
Destroyed and recreated, Mother Earths ultimate creations, undignified;
Tell me why my people still live in poorness and pain although the governments have recognized;
Tell me why?
And still no change?
Even their head masters have come forth to give pitty but no change has yet to be internalized?
Tis’ 2021 & I hold the present existence of lives lived colonized.
Blind minds, blind eyes, sought from lead idiocy. Saw only a color & unfamiliar features then granted out homicide;
I, born into millennium whom was created by my ancestors of past human lives.
The color of my skin is white and so my DNA; The blood pumping my very existence is made up of the brownest of browns to ever live on Mother Earth alive;
Your skin color does not identify the very spirit that every living being holds inside.
Realistically. Politics, governments, rulers and so on. Hold no power In the universe, hold no power in the after life. Hold no power in what’s next to come in the future. Mother Earth will not be forever politicized
Although the life of Earth has suffered, suffer can never be forgotten. If that was so then Hell would not be a threat of the Christian, for the so call dammed and chastised;
Peace and reconciliation still rejected and denied;
Because the spirituality of living left kings and their empires terrified.
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i only know heartbreak
time and time again
my soul aches
when i run out of medicine
i think about my mistakes
and listen to lana or adrienne
i get high by myself
anything to help me sleep
chamomile, lavender, purple deep
all pass me by like a haze
drowning in the emptiness of days
i get high by myself
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bitches find a new band or movie or show or book every month and dedicate their entire being to it and love it unconditionally and revolve their thoughts around them only and then get grow out of it and find something new to dedicate themselves to. its me, im bitches
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I want you to remember how she looked when you first laid eyes on her. She was destroyed and another destruction isn’t what she’s aiming for. She seeks your love in all moments. She has stepped over her past and decided to give love another chance. She has entrusted you with her heart. Don’t let her down.
Don’t love her if you only want is to fix her. She doesn’t want to be fixed, she wants to be accepted, with all her broken pieces. She wants to see herself, with you as her reflection on the mirror, wild-free-careless-playful, young lady. And if you can’t embrace her flaws, you destroy her, more than anyone else does.
She was everything you longed for, and there’s something about her you haven’t found in anyone else. Stimulate her thoughts, her emotions, her being. Dive into her soul. Love her as she is. If you love her right, she’ll love you more. If you build her up, she’ll support you all the way. If you show her how beautiful life is, she’ll never forget you.
She doesn’t ask you more than you can give, all she asks is, don’t destroy her.
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