Love is a burden, Castiel knows this. It is for love that he fell from heaven, shed the faith that wrapped around him for longer than humans have walked the earth, it is for love that he was reborn. He has taken every risk, he has hurt so many people, because love allowed him to think he was strong. Love made him weak. It was beautiful less often than it was painful, but god it was stunning. 

Eyes held him, and he swore the righteous man's soul glowed, right through the body that held it, filling every pore with light. 

It was blinding, and not worth looking away for a second. 

Castiel has loved this man, loved his soul for what feels like forever. His life has been put into the context of loving him. Every moment of his life before him, was just the lead-up to knowing him, a horribly long staircase that he finally reached the top of to find him. 

None of it was easy, but God - or whoever cares to listen - it was a relief, to linger in the light of his soul. To know that he was there, alive, sharing the burden of life together; if not the burden of love. 

Castiel pulled Dean Winchester from the earth, and since then he has never recovered. He knows he never will. He has defied all he knew, just to know the radiance of Dean. to know that he was able to be alive and free. 

He fell in love, and he will have to deal with that love forever.

Ok but the fact that recently theres been a real surge in people who worked on supernatural talking about dean and cas and even openly talking about destiel while theres ALSO been a ton of talk also by people who worked on supernatural about a season 16 actually fucking happening is driving me certifiably insane. Honk honk you fuckers im getting out the clown wig lets fucking do this

straight people just don’t act how dean and cas acted

If Dean and Cas not lovers then why did Lucifer, who always appeared as a dead lover, come to Dean as Cas

the way that dean is like. literally, canonically, HEAVILY implied to be into men but is still not considered canon bi at the same time. they wrote scenes for years knowing what it was implying. they had it in mind while writing the scenes that it was gay. ben edlund said that dean’s reaction to aaron flirting with him in 8x13 implied dean is bi. they wrote in the script that dean and benny broke up. they wrote gay scenes between dean and cas intentionally time and time again throughout the years. misha said that both him and jensen are aware of the gay subtext while filming and have discussions about it all the way back in season 8. they paralleled dean and cas to cain and his WIFE intentionally. they paralleled them with MULTIPLE canon romances time and time again. they wrote in that dean and crowley had an orgy. they wrote dean giving cas a mixtape with the full knowledge that it would come across as gay. in an episode that charlie lost her girlfriend and sam lost his girlfriend, they had it end with dean losing cas. jensen has said that dean’s feelings for cas are up to our interpretation so he’s literally just schrodinger’s bi character right now. it’s insane that they could get away with writing all of this into the show and yet we still can’t say he’s “canonically” into men and people will still call us delusional for thinking dean isn’t straight. it’s insane. it’s fucking insane.

We could have had balls deep Destiel

the fucking sniper is dead and misha is free and im afraid

i hope anyone who still thinks dean was straight knows that looking at your homie like this is in fact NOT a straight thing to do!! 😁😁👍

How I sleep knowing whatever happens Misha Collins' got my back:

If there’s one thing about Destiel is it will become canon again (threat)

I ASKED WHETHER A KISS COULD HAVE HAPPENED BETWEEN DEAN AND CAS LIKE WITH BUCK AND TOMMY IF THEY MOVED NETWORKS BUT HE SAID IF THEY WEREN’T ON THE CW THEY’D BE BALLS DEEP IN EACH OTHER????!?!?!?!??!?!?!???!???

making a gofundme for when misha collins inevitably violates his nda so we can pay for his legal fees and he can keep doing it

dean *gulp* winchester

i could talk about deans reaction to this forever. like, he clearly wasn’t shocked, THE MAN DIDNT EVEN BAT AN EYE AT THIS BECAUSE HE ALREADY KNEW. HE KNEW CAS FELT THIS WAY, LOOK AT HIS FACE, THAT IS NOT A “what?? omg??? since when???” FACE THAT IS A “i love you too but i’m gonna act like i don’t because i know i don’t deserve you and i’m a horrible human” FACE!!!!!! that gulp too don’t get me started like dean it’s OKAY!!!!! YOU CAN SAY IT BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!;!:?:?:):)$:$:$:$:

It’s been 5 minutes misha 😭😭

sometimes i watch a scene of this stupid show and i’m like jesus christ will cas actually just die if he doesn’t have some sort of physical contact w dean?? leave room for jesus, gayboy

THE CROWSTIEL IS REAL EVERYONE WAKE THE FUCK UP IM GOING INSANE

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dean loooooves to hold castiel’s face in his hands but he’s only allowed to do that in the most dire of situations like when castiel has been stabbed to death or possibly turned into a rabid dog by a witch