one of meri jaan followers deactivated their acc. insta feels so empty without you. you know who you are. i hope everything is fine that you’re doing well. much love <3

oh i get it now i made mistakes that made my life fundamentally more painful so that i could be more devastated by poetry

I am loved! 😊 [white knuckle gripping the sink unable to meet my own bloodshot eyes]

The grief is a planet. A dust ring. A small moon that’s been hidden under my pillow, that’s been changing the way my body moves this whole time.

Camille Rankine, "The Increasing Frequency of Black Swans" from Incorrect Merciful Impulses

“I Have Not Lingered in European Monasteries”, Leonard Cohen

from The Spice-Box of Earth (Toronto: McClelland & Stewart, 1961)

sometimes i think about how i almost killed myself when i was 13. why didn’t i just die then? 13 year old me would hate the current me so much . i cant even tell her things get better cause they dont. it’s only getting worse and i am hanging by a thread.

pms is getting to me

“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”

— Kurt Vonnegut

Need to share this one hit ko i got hit with

sometimes feel like making a X across my face with a blade like a permanent scar or something i hate being perceived

tragic. they found an angel stcuk tangled in the telephone wires outsside your house. sorruy. yeah we dont know how to get it out cus anyone who approached the divine light of their holy aura got obliterated. yeah we forgot their names. it'll probably get free sooner or later. dont go outside

the liquidation of opium, antonin artaud

Ohhhhhj so the childhood self doesn't disappear forever they come back as a ghost when you are struggling to break into adulthood and sit with you during your lunch break so you're not alone. Alright

Remi Kanazi, from Before the Next Bomb Drops: Rising Up from Brooklyn to Palestine; “Lit up”

[Text ID: “not enough space in a poem / to read all the names / of the dead”]

Delete Instagram, downgrade your life to android, start getting not 8 but 11 hours of sleep each night, watch an obscure foreign film, eat a Brazil nut and then do it all again the next day. . .

why is it that every guy i start dating hasnt moved on from his ex yet

Girl you alright?

once a month i go crazy but overall my life is beautiful