yeah I think i'll keep my life as small as i want

sure i exist but at what cost

Holding on gets harder and harder everyday and I don’t really see myself having a future.

I'm proud of you for making it this far.

i will never leave this house

from my diary

"what do you do in spare time" i yearn and i dream about a life where im loved and nothings ever wrong and it takes up all of my evenings and weekends doing that

Why is existance so hard? I wasn't made to be alive. I was destined to die in my mothers womb, to be delivered cold and blue into the harsh white lights.

I want to reclaim my destiny but I know how my mother would ache for her "miracle" child being taken from her.

So i swallow my own pain to keep her from experiancing more.

But how i crave and welcome death; like a long lost friend who will save me from the horrors of life.

"They both failed at the end-She couldn't hate him and he couldn't love her" ~Anonymous

I’ll worship you in ways that make gods jealous.

When boarding buses, or any sort of public transportation where you have to walk past a driver to board, always smile at and greet the driver as you're boarding.

It doesn't waste anyone's time, yours or the drivers, to smile and greet the driver, as chances are you probably have to pay or scan your pass which is going to take a second or two, about the amount of time it takes to smile and greet the driver.

When we don't look at or acknowledge the driver at all, this can make the driver feel dehumanized to not be acknowledged by other human beings all day. Being a bus driver is a difficult job, they have to do customer service AND deal with traffic all day. Bus drivers also face a lot of burn out because they are often treated poorly. The least you can do is humanize them by smiling at them and greeting them.