Sideblog for the PowderKeg fictive subsystem consisting of Jinx (she/they/it; adult) and Powder (she/her; ageslider). But mostly for Jinx. Bi. Body is 18+.
Tell me when you get bored. A story about doses. [x]
I posted this on twitter and had a variety of aggressive ableism thrown my way.
This is a story about changing what I can in spite of what I cannot for the comfort of my loved ones. The thing that others find to be hurtful about me is that I like to spend time in silent solitude. People who love me often feel hurt that I tend to solve my own problems instead of leaning on them.
When we spend too much time together, people find my neutrality to be concerning, and it becomes too much for people to be unable to read me.
To show the people I love that I enjoy their company in ways they can understand, I pool my energy together to be high-energy, peppy, and social. Since this is not my natural state of being, it takes effort, which can only be expended in small doses. I amplify the things people like in me while filtering out everything they dislike about me when I am in their company.
I change my behaviors for those I love, but at the end of the day, I cannot change my neutral state of being, which is the thing that they want most out of me.
This is a story about me accommodating people in the best way I know how, not the other way around. I would truly appreciate it if people don't misconstrue this anecdote as me asking for dismissal of hurtful behavior when in reality, people find hurt in the fact that I simply exist, and I must change for them.
Someone at Riot Animation saw that post about the villain who stops mid-torture to hang their kids artwork up on the fridge and thats how Silco Arcane was made
Complex and nuanced media is great until you're a fictive periodically consumed by rage and longing directed at The Same Person and there's no way to remedy that because your source was not written to have easy answers
Filling the Hole - Ekko/Jinx, Jinx & Viktor, Ekko & Silco. T-rated. "(Sequel to The Day Time Shattered) Struggling with the mundanity of her new life, Jinx turns to Shimmer as a substitute for more destructive behaviours. Ekko is forced to confront his trauma."
psst. hey. read my fic
Cold - one-sided Jayce/Viktor. T-rated. "Jayce declares war on the Undercity. Viktor decides he's had enough."
Holiday Tradition - Jinx/Viktor. part 1 is T-rated, part 2 is M-rated. "(Written for the Jinxtor holiday event 2023) Amidst the chaos of her dads' winter solstice party, Jinx tries to steal a kiss from Viktor. The universe conspires against her."
Fuck Him Better - Jinx/Viktor, Jayce/Viktor. M-rated. "After misinterpreting a letter from Piltover's Most Wanted, Jayce sets off for the Undercity, believing he's about to rescue Viktor from Jinx. Imagine his surprise, then, when instead he ends up as an accessory to their sex."
How It Should Have Ended - Jinx & Silco. T-rated. "Silco finds a way to offer himself up for arrest in place of Jinx. Jinx responds by introducing a whole new negotiation tactic onto the table."
Lord of the Fireflies - Ekko/Jinx. T-rated. "AU where Ekko is a moon god and Jinx is a trickster goddess and their relationship is just as complicated as it is in any other reality."