detransition, baby: pt. 2.

dialogue prompts from detransition, baby by torrey peters. (some have been paraphrased for accessibility.)

we might as well talk about it.

everything about being a parent feels like a secret test.

that was a thoughtless thing to blurt out.

can i ask you something directly?

you and i just come from very different places.

maybe i wasn’t that kind to you.

what is it? can’t you tell me now?

i don’t want to get my hopes up.

i want to be a milf, but a subtle milf, you know?

it’s okay to have doubts.

i don’t have doubts. i know what i want.

that sounds very dramatic. very romantic.

signs are meant to be read — be careful what you put on them.

listening to that dickbag is a form of self-harm.

all pain merits care.

depends on whether or not you can find a place for yourself.

i want to figure out how to be something to you. with you.

maybe try recognizing the chances you have.

jealousy’s like a hangover: when you’re in the midst of it you wanna die, but nobody feels sorry for you.

put the phone away. don’t look at it.

don’t go. please.

you’re the one who wasn’t here.

stop debating the philosophy of family and get to work making one.

i’d be glad if you told me everything.

i’m so happy to be here with you.

that much giggling was totally purifying.

i was a little worried how you’d take it.

it’s a dumb affair. people have them.

do you think you could give me some space for a few minutes?

don’t panic. don’t rush to fix everything.

just use a little goddamn discretion and it will be fine.

i’ll change when it’s worth it for me to change.

i can’t say i get you emotionally, but i’m trying to understand intellectually.

sometimes your body knows what your mind doesn’t.

just sleep over, okay?

i drove here. i can give you a ride.

this is humiliating, but i’m glad to see you.

will you please give me a hug?

i wanted the good parts without the hard parts.

i’ve been so afraid to call.

you can always find the politics to justify what you want.

i remember my own bullshit, thank you very much.

i’m much more culturally relevant and funny than you.

putting this here as well: smash that like button and i’ll go through your meme tag and send you something

Jennifer’s Body (2009)

Nick and Amy will be gone. But then, we never really existed. Nick loved a girl I was pretending to be.

Gone Girl 2014, dir. David Fincher — written by Gillian Flynn

Natasha Lyonne as Nadia Vulvokov in Russian Doll (2019)

francis.

the shipment of guns from the greeks proved fruitful. the past several hours had been spent sorting through it, discarding the cargo boxes. by the time he’s finished, a thin layer of sweat and grime covers him, sealing the gunpowder, and he’s got so many splinters in his fingers he can barely feel them. 

the first place he goes is the sink in the kitchen, the only place with running water besides the dingy shower in the repurposed men’s room. the water’s ice cold but feels good on his cut fingers. he doesn’t hear elektra when she enters to presumably look for food, and tries not to let the way he jumps in response to the energy that creeps up his neck like electricity at her presence show. no doubt, she notices. 

“don’t got much in the way of food, if that’s what you’re looking for,” frank says, leaning back against the counter, “tonight was a good night. we work well together, when we do.” his brow furrows, and then, still haphazard but now at least his hands have something to do when they turn on the coffee maker, “y’know, you’ve had - a look on your face, all night. like you’ve been thinking about something you haven’t said. not like you at all, not to say whatever the fuck it is that comes to mind, so - you may as well come out with it.” / @perfectdeaths

“i have a look on my face, do i? —god, you weren’t kidding about the food. are these MREs?” elektra pulls out one of the plastic packages from the cupboard once she’s abandoned the barren fridge, staring at it with disdain. southwest style beef and black beans—she’s lived off worse, certainly, but eating shelf-stable crap that could survive a nuclear bomb is something she’s never felt nostalgic for in the slightest. “well, apparently i’m taking you grocery shopping tomorrow. i’ll domesticate you yet, francis, just you wait.”

she sighs and puts the MRE back into the cupboard with half a dozen more like it, hopping up to sit on the counter opposite frank.

“let’s see here. i’m following a trail left by my dead adoptive father to try and hunt down the man who actually raised me—who, for the record, also wants me dead—and you’re wondering if i have something on my mind? really.” she crosses one leg across her lap, watches frank fumble with the coffee maker. “—but honestly? i want to know why you’re still helping me. you’re being incredibly trusting for someone who doesn’t have a stake in this beyond putting down the bad guys.”

“—not that i’ve know most men to have particularly complex motivations for doing what i tell them, but if you were in this for sex, you’d have shown your hand by now.”

female awesome meme: [2/5] warrior characters → Elektra Natchios

I am Elektra Natchios. Not even the stars are safe in the sky.

“I am what I am. I know of no others like me; though why should I be the only one? Perhaps there are others, many others: I simply don’t know of them yet. So I live and die and live again, and learn nothing—” the word was bitterly pronounced, “– of myself. Understand? You know what you are because you see others like you. If you were alone on earth, what would you know? What the mirror told you, that’s all. The rest would be myth and conjecture.”

Clive Barker, “Human Remains” The Complete Books of Blood (via bluebeardsbride)

Elodie Yung as Amelia Roussel in The Hitman’s Bodyguard (2017).

Kristi Coulter, Nothing Good Can Come from This

Caroline Dhavernas + favorite looks | Hannibal (2013 — 2015)

Liv & Ingmar (2012) dir. Dheeraj Akolkar

muse survey: battle edition: bold what consistently applies, italicize situational, not always.

( repost, don’t reblog! )

fight honorably  / fight dirty  /  prefer close-quarters / prefer range /  chat during  / go silent / low pain tolerance  /  high pain tolerance / attack in bursts /  attack steadily / go for the kill / aim to disarm / fight defensively / strike first  / provoked easily / provoke their opponent / tease / get visibly frustrated  / shout while attacking  / use strategy  /  focus on their battle / experience conflicting thoughts during battle / rush in recklessly  /  try to read their opponent before fighting /  fight wildly  /  fight calmly and,  or apathetically  /  fight with anger /  fight with excitement / fight because they have to /  fight because they want to  /  fight without regard to wounds  /  run away when wounded  / hide wounds / take a blow to protect another / prefer a blade  / prefer a gun /  prefer to use their ability  /  prefer a bow  /  prefer a shield  /  prefer a pole arm  / prefer a personalized weapon  /  prefer magic or spells  / prefer brawling  /  their greatest weakness is physical  /  their greatest weakness is mental /  their greatest weakness is emotional  /  transform for battle  /  fight as they appear / rely on strength /  rely on speed /  use everything they have  /  hide their full potential /  exhaust quickly  /  high stamina  /  doubt their strength /  proceed with caution  /  behave arrogantly  /  brag after landing a hit  /  belittle their abilities  / use psychological tactics  /  use brute strength  / avoid civilians /  strike down civilians  /  damage surroundings /  avoid damaging surroundings  /  signature fighting style / making it up as they go /  mastered skillset  / learning their skillset  / fancy footwork / sloppy footwork  / messy fighter  /  elegant fighter  /  accept defeat / refuse defeat /  beg for mercy /  compliment their opponent  /  insult their opponent /  use unnecessary movements  ( flips,  twirls )  / move efficiently /  barely move  / prefer to dodge /  prefer to block  / defend their blindside /  has no blindside  /  use all available advantages ( ex :  use a gun but also throw punches,  kick out while blades clash,  etc. ) /  strictly use one main method  / play around / hold back / fight ruthlessly / show mercy  / wait for opponent to be ready  / strike when opponent isn’t ready / fear death / fear pain  / fear killing  / has PTSD /  avoid fighting  / has lost a fight /  has won a fight  / has killed / refuses to kill  / want to die standing / would succumb slowly

tagged by: stole from @behaviorisms​ tagging: anyone who wants it!

“The ache of marriage

thigh and tongue, beloved are heavy with it, it throbs in the teeth

We look for communion and are turned away, beloved, each and each

It is leviathan and we in its belly looking for joy, some joy not to be known outside it

two by two in the ark of the ache of it.”

— Denise Levertov, ‘The Ache of Marriage’, from Poems 1960-1967