finally got to see my #1 girl!!!!

thoughts: #10 tears vs food

during a phone call with my boyfriend, i had burst into tears primarily over the fact that i wanted to eat and despite the fact that i just had lunch, i wanted more food. nonetheless, he was still very understanding and loving but i’m still perplexed about my emotions. so after having a bowl of vegetables, rice and lots of ice cream, i felt better. and yes, ethan could tell that i was 100% happier. he then asked me a series of serious questions to make sure that i was genuinely okay and i got distracted by the idea of food and it made him laugh so i’m glad. i’m even more grateful that he still calls me his best friend (because, what’s a relationship when your lover is just a lover?) and reminds me that he loves me everyday.

[mar 2017]

tomppabeats // harbor lp jinsang // affection lorde // liability arizona // i was wrong (robin schulz remix) julia michaels // issues rihanna // yeah, i said it frank ocean // chanel  the weeknd & lana del rey // stargirl interlude lana del rey // national anthem

I honestly find brains really interesting

¿study tips?

hello friends!

so a lot of people i know have been asking for study tips in general and so i’ve decided to share them here in hopes to help all of you! i’m not trying to say that i’m smart or anything like that, please don’t get the wrong impression. my intention is to give tips and help all of you who are currently in college/uni and perhaps, in high school :)

1) no cramming - cramming is a big no-no for me and i prefer studying a month beforehand. i am aware that some are incredibly brilliant and can study a week prior to their finals, let alone the night before, but i prefer to study as much as i can and as often as i can so that i’m also prepared for any surprise tests. plus, you’re less likely to stress yourself out when you truly understand your subject!

2) decorate your notes - i’m a kinaesthetic and visual learner so i need plenty of writing and drawing to keep me going. if you are particular about coherency, you may opt for bullet notes instead. if you are fine with abstract notes, go on with a mind map! i prefer having a combination of things so that i don’t get bored with my notes so the format of my notes are rather inconsistent however, i find that it’s a lot easier to relate your notes to any lil’ cartoons. since i’m taking psychology for this semester, i find that it helps a lot to relate them to disney characters for instance! if you’re fond of having “nice” notes but aren’t much of a drawer, there’s no harm with experimenting in colour and playing by a palette. i have a preference for colour coded notes because it does not distract me from studying and helps me to focus.

3) no unhealthy snacks - it’s so easy to opt for sugary treats however, studies have shown that with a poor diet, that would affect your thinking abilities as well as your memory. food can, in fact, be the root cause of brain damage through excessive caffeine or processed food. i’d normally opt for tempeh, vegetables (such as a plate of bitter gourd or carrots) or spinach paste with bread. some may find that utterly disgusting and prefer fruits instead - by all means! i don’t like having fruits when i study because it makes me hungrier (fruits help with metabolism too so i don’t wanna speed mine up anymore ahaha).

4) multitask - this may seem entirely odd however i feel that i focus better and am a lot more productive through multitasking. yes, i prefer doing 4 things at once and that means; listening to music, studying for 1 subject, doing an assignment and maybe studying something miscellaneous. it’s very bizarre to study something else for fun but i honestly love learning and studying in general because i want to keep my mind occupied as much as possible. i hate wasting time and being lazy so this is how i handle my study schedule as well as tackle assignments. there are times when i’d take notes from a documentary as well as do another essay at the same time and often it’s irrelevant to the assignment i’ve got however it keeps me going.

5) take breaks - this is essential in studying and taking a break doesn’t mean to use your phone or watch youtube videos; it means to get up and do something. i prefer exercising because i’d normally study for 3-4 hours straight and then designate 1 hour of working out at the gym. it helps with concentration and if you have a short attention span, multitasking wouldn’t be enough because you’re gonna need to get up and do something too. some people prefer having a 15 minutes study break after intense brain work for an hour but it varies. just remember to give yourself a break so that you don’t burn out.

6) prepare, prepare, prepare - it’s really annoying when you’re all prepped up to study however you’ve left your binder in your locker or misplaced your notes so ALWAYS be prepared to study. i’d normally transfer my notes into a smaller notebook so i can always revise when i’m on the go and at a restaurant waiting for food perhaps. i’ve learned this habit as i was studying in singapore and felt that i didn’t have much time to do things that i enjoyed since i was in track, dance and had other responsibilities in high school hence i always had a lil notebook of notes with me so i could have a look when i was on the mrt, bus or perhaps waiting for a meet up.

7) it comes from within - nothing feels worse than beating yourself up over something you’ve worked so hard for. that disappointment is painful and remember that you don’t deserve to feel inadequate over quantitative results that do not determine your willpower and intelligence. what’s done has been done and you can only focus on the present to compensate for your past, to give you a better future. i was indeed never the brightest student growing up however i chose to work on things that i could excel in and it really helps if you’d pick something you truly enjoy. for instance, i love science and so i chose to work closely with it as my career path. i studied science willingly everyday, and still do. it’s really important to be happy with your choices because your love for something can help you strive further beyond imagination. your only obstacle is your mentality and if you believe in yourself, there’s no one else that can say “no”. i’ve learned this through meditation and times spent with god; there will always be people who will doubt you and stay by your best (but spit on you at your lowest) but god is always listening and has seen everything. live for you and live for the almighty. you’ll see yourself excelling with his guidance.

my two besties on snapchat and in reality (excel kazue doesn't really send me snaps how sad) - amirah and ethan xxx (ethan calls me boonie because there are times when I've squealed over bunnies and pronounced their name as 'boonie').

huge hillsong fan right here and would love to have a lil cup of coffee with this!! creds: weheartit

It’s complicated. Perfect.  I love complicated. - I love complicated, Lucien & Allen

feeling inspired (nothing to do with ethan pls don't be petty about this)

extremely unflattering pictures and lighting but this girl is by far one of the most positive influences ever. she's gifted with grace, kindness and strength that never ceases to radiate to others. she's truly inspirational and I love this girl so much!!!! you're the best, estoto!! muah! xxx

been having way too much fun with her lately xx so grateful to have her as my bestie through uni!!!

late night revision in preps for tomorrow's mid term paper! all the best everyone xxx

favourite worship songs

just sharing what’s captured my heart xx

hillsong united // oceans hillsong worship // love so great bethel music // you make me brave elevation worship // here as in heaven united pursuit // since your love

these are my top 5 worship songs as of now, have a blessed sunday everyone!! xxx

i’ve been crazy obsessed with this song ever since it came out even though i am not a swiftie (but i will admit that i was a hardcore directioner in middle school). i haven’t watched or read anything to do with 50 shades of grey (because i don’t feel comfortable with erotic films or books) however i am in love with the first and second soundtrack.

song: zayn malik & taylor swift // i don’t wanna live forever

stills from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7F37r50VUTQ

thoughts: #9 music

there has been controversy towards music produced in this generation on what is deemed acceptable and not; undoubtedly, songs with coarse language has never been encouraged however many are more nonchalant about this, let alone the fact that children are singing along too. i can’t say that i don’t listen to songs with vulgarities however i feel that the same message could be delivered without them and meaningful songs need to be marvelled instead of anything that’s commercialised and catchy. there’s nothing wrong about having something upbeat on the radio but i don’t think it’s music or an art anymore when sexual undertones, substance abuse, and bad habits are glamourised through songs. this is a debatable topic, indeed, as people may disagree claiming that it’s one’s responsibility to ensure that children and youth can differentiate what is right and wrong however i do think that music can influence people and give youngsters the false image of what’s fun, “cool” and etc. everyone is entitled to listen to any song they want, i’m just trying to voice out my concern about the kind of songs that are mercenary and/or derogatory.

ending the day with the lord is my favourite. I hope everyone has had a great week and will enjoy their weekend!! xx

been quite a stressful week but my ethan and marshall made it better. thank you my lovelies xxx