kng totoo man ang dios, hiling q nlang siguro s pasko n masaya nlang ung dalwa qng anak bago mag new year

TIME CHECK 11:45 PM

i have short kwento, maangas to promise. i remember na mari and i would always wonder how would know if it’s the right love. pareho pa kaming walang jowa nito kaya yung thoughts namin pure opinions and assumptions lang na wala talagang kapanipaniwalang basis? we brought it up uli nung last day ng intrams, diba naguusap nga kami don sa kiosk. we both came to the realization na it isn’t easy.

madaling magmahal pero hindi madaling panindigan yon.

diba nung first months natin we’d both say na ang galing na sobrang dali lang ng lahat? it seems different na ngayon eh. yung pagdadaanan hindi madali, yung situation nakakahibang, nakakamatay. i’m not making reklamo, what i’m trying to say lang is that even though times and situations get rough. even if there are times that we don’t know what to do. even if my temper and patience gets put the test. at the end of the day, i would still choose to go through and past all that with you.

i’m loving how we’re growing into something that people admire. how i’m continuously learning about you. how our dedication to make our relationship last remains consistent.

i will never get tired of choosing you. staying with you. loving you. happy motmot mahal :)

it had to be just when i was once again starting to enjoy being in a friend group no?

akala ko just this once, mapapatunayan ko nang it’s possible to have a group of friends na matuno lahat ang relationship sa isa’t-isa pero again i was proven wrong. it’s always the ones you least expect talaga.

i can live with anything but pang ttraydor hahahaha, it felt nice to have someone with a mutual understanding pag dating sa relationships. iniisip ko nalang yung countless times simula last year na we talked about personal things and how you let me feel that it was worth it to open up to you. pinanghawakan ko yung mga salita na pinakawalan ni mari tungkol sayo pero miski siya nagulat na you could do something like that. hindi ko na din alam kung ang gullible ko masyado pagdating sa mga ganto pero putangina talaga!

ngayon ko nalang din naiintindihan na it gets harder to form connections with people as you get older and it’s hitting to hard. a part of me believes na this was too good to be true and ayon tama nanaman diba? ang hirap nanamang hindi makinig sa intrusive thoughts kasi napatunayan nanaman na tama.

it’s hard to hang on to the belief that there is good in people and that there’s always a reason behind their actions when life throws this kinds of shit at me. hindi ko na din alam kung anong point ng pagtetest sa mga gantong situation kasi what do you expect me to do naman hahahahha. whenever i disregard the fear and worries of opening up to someone, life always finds a way to say “u should’ve listened to urself” and i go back to wondering and regretting the decisions i make.

fr in my idgaf phase

am not fond of the person i am becoming

ang disappointing na after looking forward to this day for a month, kasi sa wakas makakahinga na, grabe parang wala akong napala. akala ko mas magiging okay ang lahat. akala ko kailangan ko lang makakita ng ibang tao pero puta, kay bianca nalang ata posible yon lahat.

we’ll be alright

we’ll be alright

will never have the guts to fight for myself

antanga tanga sa part na gustong mag sh pero tuwing hahawak magbbreakdown muna tapos pagnagawa na manginginig ng malala

mourning the person i used to be—the one who strived to romanticize life despite its shittiness.

i’m beginning to think that life was better nung nagjjournal pa ko o kaya nung active pa ko sa paglalabas ng sama ng loob and thoughts sa twitter o nung araw-araw pa ko nagsstory at nagppost sa ig dump. i think these helped in making life more bearable, suddenly stopping and being inactive pagdating sa mga ganto because hinayaan kong lamunin ako ng buhay is what’s causing me to drown in misery.

genuine yung pag tataka ko. hindi ko alam kung matigas lang masyado ulo ko para aminin na kailangan ko siya o sadyang hindi ko maintindihan at matanggap na posibleng hindi labag sa loob yung ginagawa niya

LMAO KAILAN PA NAG KAROON NG ASSURANCE KAY ROY IBANG TAO ATA YAN HAHAHHAHAHAHA

got the validation fr dad that i was weirdly craving for

it’s so funny to think na hindi na nga ako nakabalik don, sigurado ako na nung oras na to nasasabi ko lang to lahat dahil sa galit pero if i told her na yun na talaga last year niya sa mbms she would freak

Nakakairita na mga tao dito. The only thing that's holding me back sa paglipat ay yung mga taong maiiwan ko kasi mamimiss ko sila. Tinitiis ko yun kasi ayoko din namang mapahiwalay sa kanila. But if I can't handle those peoples attitudes anymore, you won't be seeing me there next year. Mapa estudyante o teacher may ugali eh.

damn, since when was there a happy birthday o baka ginagaslight lang nito sarili niya

nakakaiyak mga lsm niyoooo. hindi ko na alam kung ano ako kung wala yung mga tao sa paligid ko. sila talaga bumubuo ng araw ko. though i don't my thankfulness that much, i really am.💛

i have posts from way back in 2020 and when u tell me that things will change u expect me to instantly believe that? i want to naman eh, i really do but time and circumstances are just telling me otherwise.

tangina she was so happy

truly one of the best days ever.💛