well.

it’s been a long time, hasn’t it.

I wish I had some amazing long story about adventure and meeting a great love and having the most wonderful time but honestly the past couple of years have mostly been me hunched over the sofa on my laptop.

there’s not much I want to say. I’m not here to say that I’m back to be writing stories or that I have anything in the works because I don’t. I’m trying to write my first novel and continue to get through life which let’s be real has kind of gone to the dogs.

All I want to say is thank you. When I think back to when I was happiest it has almost always been those nights I wrote fics about dreamy love and gangsters and guns. Waiting anxiously to hear what you guys thought, screaming over Tommy together, kind and thoughtful and incredible messages inside of my inbox that made me feel whole.

I love you guys so much. I want to come back and one day I will, I promise. Thank you for making me so happy and giving me feedback on the stories that lived inside of my heart. I miss you all very much, all of the familiar faces who always liked and reblogged and left me hilarious gifs and notes. I hope you are all doing well, and I miss fangirling over our favourites together. Life is hard, but tumblr made it that little bit easier.

It’s not goodbye!! Never goodbye!!! Just I’ll see you soon! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Also I haven’t watched the final season of peaky because I genuinely don’t think my heart can handle saying goodbye. Also I’m in love with Eddie from stranger things. That is all.

Miss you and love you and THANK YOU!! You made a very sad girl so much happier over the past few years. Kisses and hugs ❤️❤️

me finally getting inspiration and pulling up my word document after having writers block for an agonizing amount of time:

when peaky first aired i was so instantly enamoured by helen and the way she played pol, like the second she came on screen… man i dont even know what to say. she made aunt polly one of the most enigmatic, gorgeous, inspiring characters on tv and it really has meant so much to have had that sort of role model for so long, especially going from a young girl to adulthood. i really just feel so lucky to have had that and still have that, because that sort of shine doesn’t fade. 

Fucking heartbroken right now

Rest in peace angel ❤️

My heart is utterly broken. One of my favourite actresses of all time, her performance as Polly will live on forever. She was incredible and my thoughts are with her loved ones ❤️

A sample of haunting and troubling gifs of famous paintings. (Via giphy.com) From the artwork Beauty, by Rino Stefano Tagliafierro.

Hi,

I’ve noticed in some of your stories , you would describe the reader with pink blush cheeks or something like that. im a poc and I can’t have that. Blush doesn’t show up on me. so I think when you write reader you are picturing them as a white person when you do have poc readers.

Hey there,

I wanna take this time to genuinely apologise to my POC readers. I’m sorry if I ever made it feel like I was excluding you, it was never my intention, and I hope now I can do better.

I am a white girl. I have blonde hair and blue eyes, and I know that unconsciously when I write, I write my character out as me. When I first started this blog I was just writing a Klaus story I had in my head, and then it expanded and I grew an audience that I am so grateful for and that includes people who don’t look like me.

One thing I notice when I write is that I do make my character have traits that I have, for example: when I get nervous - I blush. When I feel ill, I come out in a fever that flushes on my skin. When I stay out in the sun too long - I get freckles and burn, but I know that that is not true for everyone.

Often, I forget that I’m doing it. I try to write descriptively and that means what the character looks like at that moment, and how they react to things, and I go off how I would react in that moment - and that leads to me adding things like blushing or flushing etc, because thats what I know I would do. I noticed I was doing that a lot in “Bravado”. It was challenging for me to write an illness without using those terms, but as an aspiring writer I should try and find other ways to show things, and be more inclusive, and I really want to thank you for pointing out my mistakes.

There is absolutely no malice in what I write, I want my work to be enjoyed by everyone and anyone, and often I fill up with purple prose that includes things like blushing from embarrassment or lust or nerves, but I am really, really, going to try my best to make my writing suit everyone.

I can’t promise I won’t make mistakes, I’m sure that I’ll slip up and add the wrong things here and there, but I really, genuinely want to try and improve myself and my writing and it means a lot that you would tell me this so I can try and change. I want my blog to be a fun, Tommy loving safe space for everyone, and I know I need to do better.

Thank you so much. And I hope you have a wonderful rest of the day.

No thoughts, head empty.

(Almost🐴)

I just wanna say that I appreciate you so, so much. Your fics take me to a really special place and help me escape🤍 thank you

Thank you so very much for taking the time to send me this 🥰🥰 writing my fics is my way of escaping and it means everything that it helps when you read them. I am so grateful to all of you and I’m smiling so big rn. So much love!!!

hey what’s up guys i’m still trapped in this abandoned grain silo

Tommy | 3.05

if you're a writer i wish u a very plot/story/character epiphany

sometimes i really love my fics. i wrote that because i wanted to read it. i love it. nobody visits my fics more than me. they remind me that i’m a hard worker, that i created something. it’s mine and i cherish it and love it because it’s exactly what i wanted so i made it.

and other days i’m crippled by self criticism and hate everything and can’t bear to look at my own work because i know it’ll never compare to the greats

but i live for the days i love my work. because it’s mine, and i made it. i didn’t wait for somebody else to make what i dream about. i went and did it myself.

so don’t feel like your work is awful

it’s the stuff you dreamed about. it’s the stuff you decided to make a reality. it’s not about quality, or poetry, or how perfectly your sculpt your words or keep it so deeply in character; because it’s what you dreamed and it’s what you wanted to see, so you made it.

keep writing; it’s yours, and you made it. and if you want to continue to sharpen and improve yourself? then do it. it’s all yours and you can make it whatever you want.

keep writing.

It’s good for the soul okay