old vocaloid videos are like a time capsule of weebery. the current expanse of weebery is so slick and polished. it makes you think we have come far since one frame every five seconds.

people keep assuming im autistic.

hmmmm what could this possibly mean? i cant see a single ramification.

this is not to say that people have not and do not mistreat you, but: the way that this set of sentiments is structured automatically undermines your and their efforts to change.

the nebulosity of the word “people” automatically creates an extremely anonymous boogeyman. by using such a general term, the author assumes animosity out of the pool of everyone that isn’t them as default. in other words, the phrasing will make you think “everyone is out to get me,” which no matter how true it is, it’s an ego pulverizing statement that puts your existence at odds in this world. i would find that disheartening personally, and not v true! the majority of people i see are dead neutral on my efforts towards myself. and not giving a shit is….. pretty much what you could expect from like literally most people on this planet, they dont know me! but i believe if i asked someone random to tell me im doing a good job, they would probably do it.

also, the flow of the statements is very much “i did something good for myself and then this is how people totally refute it.” by placing the importance on other peoples actions and making yourself the passive party, you’ve removed yourself from any sort of agency in the narrative arc. this means you are less incentivized to take care of yourself.

identification of the problem is not in fact anything near the solution, it is merely the continuation of the problem. and yes, this problem feels unsurmountable, but i think that since the dilemma is existence itself, its right that all you can do is to thrash against the current.

im sorry people have hurt you. you didn’t deserve to be mistreated, and you’re working so very hard— your hard work towards living well is literally the most beautiful thing you can do for yourself and also is the hardest thing TO do. the only thing you should be doing in this fuck of a world. its sacred and so are you. the pepple who do decry your efforts should be a footnote at best. dont let them lead you by the nose towards the dirt.

people will see you struggling but still pouring your heart and soul, pouring every ounce of energy you have into trying to make things better, doing right by people, to meeting your commitments and taking responsibility and trying to get things done, and say "I wish you actually cared.", because they don't give a shit about relativity. they don't give a shit that it's everything you can do. If it's not enough, if it doesn't meet the target they've set for you in their heads, then it means you just don't care. people will say "self care" and "take care of yourself" and "get some more sleep" and "take your time" and then get pissed when prioritizing your mental health means pushing something else back a week. a day. an hour. people will tell you to be yourself, and then get frustrated when you're not quite who they thought you were, and tell you to get over it and go back to being the you they knew. people get tired of putting up with you when changing and growing means becoming more willing to prioritize yourself for the first time in your life.

i think the people that just pass around suicide hotline numbers are a little silly for it. they are easy ways to make you, a passer arounder, feel good about yourself. in practice this method unduly burdens a small and unprepared subset of the population (often volunteers!) for a widespread problem that i really doubt that hotlines can fully mitigate or even alleviate.

like theres nothing quite like being not quite in crisis and getting patted on the back and “be on your merry way”’d by some overworked volunteer after youve been on hold for 5eva.

the problem of mental health is a community wide epidemic and is best mitigated by your person by reaching out to the people around you. be responsible and present in all facets of your community. try not to stick to your bubbles. the modern world is isolating on purpose, but it doesnt have to be.

can i just say haus of decline knocks it out of the park consistently. congratulations to the recent news (ayyyyy) but also all the work she puts out is appropriately irreverent and appropriately gutting. and with a appropriate, transgender levels of body horror. not just appropriate. brilliant. shocking. exactly what shes going for.

iiiiii don't like the new hades art or designs as much as the old stuff...... it feels genshinified. league of legendsified.

a lot of candy-tropes-- the suits, the ensembles over silhouette. see: chaos. im not expounding on anything new here though people don't like this.

and when they do play with silhouette or some fucking..... element its often very token. hestia's facial proportions are wack, which i would excuse on any other basis except compared with the traditional "hot" characters (ie: characters they want you to take srsly) shes basically caricature?? and hephaestus, he's fat but he's hunched like they didn't want to fucking draw tummy.

and the lineart got less varied, and the poses less dynamic. where is jen zee?????? ???? i can't imagine the painterly background that made bastion would do this brand of cel shading???

AND they change the gender of the singer. clowned

people dont undeerstand that fast car by tracy chapmans striking point is the way she sings it is so understated and honest in that understated way. the content, the tone, none of that works with the runs that vocalists like to show off wiuiiiith.

people dont undeerstand that fast car by tracy chapmans striking point is the way she sings it is so understated and honest in that understated way. the content, the tone, none of that works with the runs that vocalists like to show off wiuiiiith.

i wish i never had to hear about taylor swift again. i dont have the energy to seethe. her output is as unremarkable as her persona.

same goes for industry plants or shitstirrers du jour. why waste time seething. why make me waste time reading you seethe. unremarkable. show me something you like.

today my opinion is that my best friend i love her. i love her a lot i love her. i love her.

implementing now a hater tax, a controversial positive opinion: some taxes is good actually.

prepperism is a libertarian antisocial fantasy. our ~infrastructure~ is what we sink taxes into to prepare for bad situations. the fact that people want to pull away from this institution belies their deep cynicism regarding the social project of saving everyone. some critique is always merited obviously— the infra serves people disproportionately, leaving people behind in hell, yes its true, but thats not critique of the idea of social safety nets. thats just critique of our implementation.

viva la nws.

this sentiment is somewhat true but its also especially important to note that this point is really only brought up when specifically men are are accused of being not— as if femininity or queerness, more specifically transfeminity, was an insult. if a “cisgender” meaningfully lost any self agency via misdiagnosis by overinvested tweens ill eat my words but last i checked misha collins is doing hunky dory and finnster is testing out genderqueer labels sooooo

I really don't know how to explain to people that supporting gender liberation (liberation for trans people, liberation for gnc people, liberation from all oppressive gender roles) means you have to be able to see someone you think is cis "crossdressing" and be cool about it. You have to be able to see someone presenting in a way that doesn't make sense to you and not interrogate them about their identity. You have to be able to hear someone express a gender identity you don't understand and go "Huh! Neat," and go about your business. If you truly want gender liberation for all then you have to stop trying to exert control over other people's genders, period.

i thought that people were faking like the jewish people sobbing throwingup about being hatecrimed for being jewish thing (in conjunction with the war) but someone just posted a tirade in one of the worst discord servers im in.

oh! i never write one of these because i think theyre obvious but i think the point of this blog is to write obvious things down, so:

terfs are reactionary, prey to cyclical thought processes that have been perpetrated against them. as a transmasc and/or lesbian and/or whatever gets me in traditionally feminist spaces, the fact that many of us dont ally with our transfemme comrades is a disgrace. its also a miserable way to live.

palestine is a genocide and the american people, as with most genocides, are largely complicit (though this statement, while accurate, is not very politically useful).

preface: im asian. im nb. while i will discuss astrology for fun (it is fun!) i dont like the current astrology trend, its a slippery slope.

i respect western astrology as an alternate heuristic for deriving meaning from experience, like suggestion. the human mind is a thing that needs to be taken out of itself in order to make proper sense of itself. ive a costar that i screenshot to my friends to have an excuse to talk to them, and we can use it as an excuse to talk meta about friendship.

and i can hardly disagree that culturally its impact is immense-- the present connection to things that our far ancestors dreamed about, it ties us down culturally. the modern western constellation system can trace back to the fertile crescent (see the babylonian star catalogues), the sumerian fertility goddess inanna overlapping with venus and with pisces, theyre echos of what plagued humans since the dawn of recorded history. even the central conceit encodes a microcosm of human history-- why did early humans look up at the night sky, all over the globe in separate instances, and collectively decide that the stars encoded some meaning in their earthly lives? and when these stars are representative of stories from a culture that you have to struggle against the current to maintain, its even more right that astrology would be a worthwhile ritual to have in your arsenal as well as a tradition to uphold.

BUT in the conceptual harms of western astrology in its current incarnation, it is not a good method of meaningful inquiry or authority. it eschews its own critique-- logic, the processes your brain uses to make meaning out of the senses, is forgone for an authority displaced into a nebulous set of "energies". these energies do not culturally come from nothing-- its as if you replaced the judeochristian god with twelve ambiguous, non-denominational entities. without proper self examination (esp! if youre white!) you'll find yourself echoing the status quo under the guise of magic.

on the topic of efficacy consider the case study that costar has to lean into the barnumness of itself and thereby refuses its position of authority. it spits out generic self help platitudes to make you feel empowered, or sympathetic to yourself (if you're having power or trouble in those random ass fields of your life respectively). if it actually spoke with authority ("leave your wife, mars is in retrograde") nobody would use it. itd be a crapshoot.

a lot of queer people i know in real life are either into or open to talking about astrology but online i think ive noticed a lot more people who dislike astrology and im super curious to see if that holds up.

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the insidious thing about being a whitewashed east asian is you show up to a thing and you have fun but only when you look back you realize that you were like the only asian--nay, poc-- in the room. and OBVIOUSLY when you're doing shit at the thing you get those little pings from being a racialized body but you're so normalized to it that you dont even realise theyre not happening to everyone else in the roooooom

ngl rina sawayamas entire creative output reads to me a lil hazbin hotelley. waft of liberal democrats twitter account. reek of subtle asian traits. still can shake ass to it tho

Rina Sawayama's "This Hell" is a song that pre-show would have been turned into a Hazbin Hotel fan music video with the vocals covered by Angel Dust and I'm right about this