So I just fucked my whole home life up permanently it’s all started once my sister (21) flew home for my cousins wedding. My sister has always been my patent favorite even if they don’t want to admit it I can see how they dote on her and give her everything where I’m left witch the leftovers and they get mad when I make something for my amusement. They always call me lazy, selfish, stupid, bitchy, asshole (etc) you name it I’ve been called it. And when my sister was being as a usual annoying sister was I replied in monotone (Bc I’m done w everyone’s shit) what ever she asked Bc it was a dumb question. And my dad tells me to forget ab a ride to school (I’m a junior in hs but I take college classes Bc I’m trying to graduate a year early) so I pack up my bag and leave for school. Then he opens the door telling em to come back in taht I didn’t shit the door even tho I did (but go off king).

And I’m like done w his shit and he’s calling me every name in the book so I thought he was just doing his same old I’m gonna hang this nessecity over your head like you never needed it. Like sir your almost 50 telling a 16 year old calling her every name in the book. So I’m crying and my mom isn’t doing shit but cooking dinner in the background so I walk to my room and he chases after me and threw a baby gate at me and it huu I t my whole arm and I’m just like wow what next gonna hit me again like it won’t be the first or last time he abuses me. So I’m done w him and I’m crying while he’s all up close to my face telling me how horrible I am and when I said I get it you don’t liek me or want me all you want to do is control me he says “ NO I DONT HATE YOU, YOU HATE YOURSELF” and I dead panned you’re right I hate myself and you Bc he caused that he made me hate him when he called me fat and lazy when I was 9 and then lied to my mom while I cried myself to sleep

So I’m just crying and then I hear tell her to call the Uni Bc she can’t make it to class like he didn’t just tell me to go back inside so I leave my room and tell him he can hate me all he wants but he’s not gonna duck up my future just Bc he’s all mad and then says how am I ruining your life and I said I need the classes to graduate early and he said I can take them local at my hs even tho they don’t give them and I tell him that’s impossible and that AP is bullshit and he sia she doesn’t care and then brings up the fact taht taking my door wasn’t enough so he needs to take away my education that he isn’t paying for and so I te him this is why I hate this family all they do is hold shit over me like I’m somehow going to live them so I bring up him accusing my mom out of nowhere of cheating and he’s like well she did and I said she had every right to fuck a man if you’re gonna act like this and then I go yo email my professor that I won’t be able to make it to class Bc I’m having family issues

So I’m having a mental breakdown and I’m crying so I took all my sleeping pills Bc I have anxiety and go to take them and he slams open the door and breaks my wall just to tell me to keep the door open then says are you ready for school so I just show up all red faced frizzy hair and late to my intro to writing thinking ab how I almost killed myself and it’s just so traumatic for me I have no idea what’s to think about and I still need a year to finish school and save up money to move and I’m just so done with this world I need help

I’m about to move the fuck out my parents decided to take my door off the hinges just because my room isn’t spotless even though I have a job that gives me almost 40 hours a week and I bust my ass there and get called to lazy all the fixing time and I fucking hate it here o but my own shut I bought my own phone I pay for my shit that I want but I’m still considered lazy and have yo pay for everything that I want and I hate it here they give me so much I hate the fact that they think I’m being different but I’m really just so depressed that I don’t even care about my own happiness they act like they weren’t the people to give me mental issues and like the depression and anxiety and the whole reason I’m working these hours is to not be in the house and I’m so tired I don’t want to be here anymore

*stands in doorway*

“Get out.”

“No”

“Foods ready dumbass”

*flips them off”

I’m right and I should say it

Yo so I got my first job and shit and I’m loving it there’s some ups and downs to it as always but it’s still fun and I get respected now I work at a local amusement park v small and we have only shit like putt putt rock wall cages go karts and more well I am a very break the misogyny in this world type so when they said only guys and work go karts I was like bet and keep in mind this is my first year and today I worked my whole shift on go karts am i am so proud 

Update: so I just reported my first sexual harassment from my coworker he is a full grown man and I’m 16 and he was saying some nsfw type shit when he has a gf who works with us and made me feel like all helpless and gross