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Nitya (Eternity)
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Cher - You Turn Me On (The Cher Show, 10/12/1975)
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"You Turn Me on," @cher @chershowfans
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Dr. Kazi
Aloha! Did you send in prescriptions yet? I need them at a different pharmacy if you can send this weekend? I'm making friends with Mexicans to get pharmaceuticals! Why does your staff hate me and is discriminating? Jealous? Please fire lady withholding my prescriptions! Need you to approve Ivermectin cream & another pill with IEHP! Thankyou!
Nitya
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4/26/2024
What's The Point
(Hard Core)
What's The Point
What's The Point
You Ask
What's The Point
Ma
Anyway
Well I'm Here
In The Rain
Waitin' For You
Baby
All The Bros
Left
Last Night
Hopin' You'd Fly In
Probably
Did You Just
Want Me To Run
Or Is That What
The Gigolos
Wanted Me To Think
Your Bros
Have Stalked Me
All My Life
Givin' Me Rides In
Tesla
My Geeky Handsome
Bros
And My Best
Mommy Clients
Got A Roadster
For A Week
Was Scared To Drive
It
Was So Prescious
And Dear
Couldn't Go All The
Way To LA
Back Then
Amy Drove From
Ramona
After We Sold Her
Beach Home
How We Cried
There At What Her
Daughter
Had Done
Was It Really
Suicide
We'll Never Know
She Left A Note
One Drunken
Night
In Ramona
Amy Sold The Beach
Home
Maybe She Wished
She'd Been There
That Fatal
Night
After A High Conflict
Divorce
It Was The Best
Double Lot
On Neptune
Mamma Said
Go To Her Meetings
I Think She Wants
To Sell
So I Became
A NVC
Client
And She My Friend
Maybe She Liked
My Empathy
The Best
Maybe I Was
Better Than Her
Non-Violent Communication
Hot-lines
Greenwashing
Marshall Rosenburg
With My Swedish
Friends
In Stockholm
My Old Boyfriend
Anders Hansen Rosenburg
Set Up A School
For His Boys'
Dan Died Of Cancer
Working At H.P.
Alcoholism
They Said Got
The Best Of Him
I Knew Dan
All Through
School
And He Never
Drank A Drop
Around Me
His Mamma
Went To School
With My Ma
At Amherst
And She Was A Classy
Broad Like
Maye Musk
Silver Hair
Tall Grace
No Son Of Hers
Would Die That
Way
He Was A Navy
Seal
Strongest Bro At
School
Made Me Think
Our
Military Had
A Backbone
When Yogi
Dan Was Around
But No
He Married
The Prettiest Nun
From Sweden
And She Said
He Went Home
And Died Of
Cancer
H.P. Worked Him
To Death
Like My Father-In-Law
Step-Dad
Patronizing Starbucks
It's No Life
Of Institutionalism
He Had Three Fine
Boys
Dan Was A Lovely
Man
And Lived On An
Island Riding Horses
His First Son
Had Issues
One With Asbergers
One Caged At
Waldorf School
Institutions
We Sent Up Pizza
When They Visited
Her Son Loved Our
Attic Bedroom
He Hardly Came
Down
But She Promised
That's What He
Liked Best
Just A Convenient
Swedish Pet
He Got Into College
Had Good Business
Sense
He's A Handsome
Gentle Giant
Like Elon
We Got So Many
Kids
They All Came
To Us
One Way Or Another
They're Not Holdin'
Back
'Cuz If You Want
A Father
Like Elon
You Gotta Remember
How Great
The Roadster Was
And Forget About
The Branding
Dramas
Just Like Eternity
And Every Mommy
We Want The Light
Of Divine
For A Moment
We're Grateful
For Friends
Angelic In All
Their Forms
Even Though The
Peter Pans
Will Always
Win Our Hearts
I Know
Right
Peace,
Nitya Nella Davigo Azam Moezzi Huntley Rawal
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Cher - Thank You for Being a Friend (Betty White Tribute) - The Golden G...
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"Thank You For being A Friend," @cher @BettyWhiteNoise Tribute @goldengirlsfans @andrewgoldmusic Cover
https://youtu.be/B5rfZ4olWyw?si=Xy-ZTDV6B3rv4ivr #SongOfTheDay1 #SOTD1 #ThankyouForBeingAFriend #Cher #GoldenGirls #BettyWhite #AndrewGold
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Dr. Kazi-
Aloha! Did you send in prescriptions yet? I need them at a different pharmacy if you can send this weekend? I'm making friends with Mexicans to get pharmaceuticals! Why does your staff hate me and is discriminating? Jealous? Please fire lady withholding my prescriptions! Need you to approve Ivermectin cream & another pill with IEHP! Thankyou!
Nitya
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Doja Cat, The Weeknd - You Right (Official Video)
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"You Right," @DojaCat @TheWeekend
https://youtu.be/JXgV1rXUoME?si=StByKZ-QHOfMd1mH #SongOfTheNight2 #SOTN2 #DojaCat #TheWeekend #YouRight
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Dojo Cuts - Rome
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"Rome," @DojoCuts
https://youtu.be/gPp2KBV9zXk?si=73Ne6MlZWCs2_5c8 #SongOfTheNight1 #SOTN1 #Rome #DojoCuts
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Saw a full rainbow and got sprinkled on. San Bernardino mtns were hairy! Roads are packed for high wind shows. Way for mother nature to shit on gauche concerts during war! Lol Mask advisory! Or gay military originated? Pigs are raping our Muses blind. Hiding out w/ no charge & a book for a Coooold weekend! Maintenance light is on but replaced 2 cracked tires in front with slightly less Bald ones!
What vape? I haven't bought one since 1st! Lol
I need my kids if you feel like calling around.
What did Adam say?
Are they raping Nick's kids too on the real estate scam hazing? Oleg was always sick with gigolo grooming- hard to recognize these kinks when you're young. Earl Kaplan came on Telegram. Scared for his twin David? These dudes will all be torn apart like Britney's dad. Boy he inspired me to take my medicine! Took a shower & bug die off didn't make me puke like yesterday! Xo
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4/25/2024
Just A Buck
Morning Songs
Just A Job
Nothing More
You Sold Us Out
On The 'Voice'
And All Those
Shows
Just A Voice
My Angelina
Just A Voice
From Brazil
Not Iran
Just A Voice
Maybe My Son
Just A Voice
Priscilla Presley
Elvis In One
Is She Trans
Just A Job
Anything For The
Buck
Of Her Attorneys
What About Her
Soulful Heart
Don't You Know
I Shower
At Charities
Need To Wash Off
Nix
And Get Antibiotics
Into Me
Just A Buck
For The Gay Jewish
Men
Just A Buck
For What You Had
To Do
Just A Buck
Keeps You Up At Night
Just A Buck
For A Bribe
Just A Buck
You Wish You
Could Record Me
Just A Buck
But Then You'd Sell
Me
Into Slavery
Just A Buck
For A Diva
A Buck For A
Muse
But What Will
You Do
When The Coffers
Run Dry
Oil Raped
Lies
Just A Buck
For A Smart Car
A Utilitarian
Stroller
Tax The Gays
On Double Incomes
Invitro
And Stolen Cars
Just A Buck
From The Gays
And We Might
Forgive You
Just A Buck
From Dr. Alan
Silverman
For All The Children
He Raped
With Errol
Just A Buck
From Oathkeepers
Stephan Miller
Trumpleberry Pedos
But Where Are My Kids
Just A Buck
For Giving Tesla
Away
Just A Buck
From Lexus
For Their Rising
Stock On Cons
Take Their Car-Lots
Charge Daddy Pedo
Managers
On Crimes
Just A Buck
From The President
We Don't Agree
To Ukranian War
Or A Transgender Army
Forcing Air
For Second Jewish
Gentlemen
Fettish
Just A Buck
From Jerrod Cushner
With A Baron Trump
Playdate
Investigate Ivana's
Murder
Just A Buck
From King Charles
Just A Buck
From Every Leader
Who Has
His Wife Obliterated
Just A Buck
Won't Replace Mom
Just A Buck
You Gotta Stand
Up To Your Son
Just A Buck
'Cuz We're Done
With This
Kidnapping
Buckless
Con
Peace,
Nitya Nella Davigo Azam Moezzi Huntley Rawal
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WHAT ARE YOU ASHAMED OF?
Hi! My name is Nitya and I'm obsessed with shame.
Specifically, I have, for the better part of my life, curated a deep, abiding sense of shame for myself and who I am. According to a random website I found, the opposite of shame is empathy, and despite being someone who does not often opt for tumblr to be my soapbox, how else am I going to get some empathy? I am writing this excessive post because I am trying to give myself exposure therapy, and what better exposure than this? (I would post on facebook, but I have a deep mistrust of people who put important personal things on facebook, and I have no basis for this mistrust at all, but I digress)
So specifically, I feel shame because for the past 25 years, I have lived with undiagnosed and untreated ADHD. When you don't know you have ADHD, a developmental disorder and disability, you work 20 times harder to get things done. You stay up until 4 reading the same paragraph again. You make flashcards, review notes, review of the review notes. You write out notes in as many different colors because it keeps you engaged. You try to force your biology coursework in your brain and just think "it's just harder for you". You start to doubt that medicine is something you can actually do. You begin your first year of medical school dreading it, despite overjoyed and proud, because you know it means no sleep, no joy, no fun, no learning.
That's the reality of my first semester of medical school. Every day was brain fog, every day was confusion. Why was this question talking about the contraindications of a drug when the rest of the stem was about these needle aspirations? Why did everyone else have time to go to movie nights? Why wasn't anything working? Why did I keep failing?
A large number of adults diagnosed with ADHD are women, and it makes sense to me that adults with ADHD also suffer from anxiety and depression. The fear of failure, the crushing defeat when you don't meet other people's expectations, the "why can't I do this" on repeat in your head. And when you're a woman in today's society, it's doubled. You have to be good and perfect and the teacher's pet and every time you work incredibly hard, you are rewarded with "a pleasure to have in class" when in reality, being in the class is torture.
So I lived for the better part of 25 years telling myself that the only way to be good and capable was to work so hard that I gave myself carpal tunnel in both hands, and become nauseous at the taste of marathon runner glucose (an excellent substitute for a meal, I used to think), and have self-esteem so far in the dumpster that it's a shock that I only survived ONE toxic/abusive relationship. Everything I did was in service of avoiding being bad, avoiding letting people down, and avoiding anyone see that I could be anything other than perfect.
And when I found out I had ADHD, that every one of my feelings and experiences had a reason was a shock to me. There was a REASON I couldn't put together the different parts of question stems. There was a REASON focusing felt like a pointless task. There was a REASON that planners, note-taking, meditation, schedules, etc didn't work for me. It was because I was WIRED differently. Once I started medication and therapy, my life changed. School became a joy and everything that I was terrified of went away. Even my anxiety and depression decreased too; I was starting to see how working on the actual problem I had made everything else that held be back dissolve away.
Something that a lot of experts will tell you is that adults diagnosed with ADHD experience guilt, anger, grief, and shame. I'm guilty for all of the people who I forced to listen to me cry as I wrung myself out with imposter syndrome. I'm angry at all the adults who saw a ten year old study until 12 in the morning for a quiz that she doesn't even remember. I'm in grief for all of the years, time, money, experiences that I lost. I'm mostly however, ashamed, that deep inside of me, I'm still not good enough for any of it.
And that's what is so interesting to me. I'm someone with a modicum of medical school background. I kNOW that I have a disability and it's nothing to be ashamed of, that if I ever heard a friend tell me what I tell myself I would shut it down immediately because it is factually inaccurate. I can only imagine that this is a combination of capitalist-only daughter excellence syndrome that drives me to feel this way, but in the interest of anyone who's ever wondering:
Yes, I'm repeating a year of medical school.
No, it's not because I'm dumb, it's because I have a disability that I recently learned how to treat it.
And yes, I'm in the process of unlearning how to deal with shame that this disability gave me.
What are you ashamed of?
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4/25/2024
Just A Buck
Morning Songs
Just A Job
Nothing More
You Sold Us Out
On The 'Voice'
And All Those
Shows
Just A Voice
My Angelina
Just A Voice
From Brazil
Not Iran
Just A Voice
Maybe My Son
Just A Voice
Priscilla Presley
Elvis In One
Is She Trans
Just A Job
Anything For The
Buck
Of Her Attorneys
What About Her
Soulful Heart
Don't You Know
I Shower
At Charities
Need To Wash Off
Nix
And Get Antibiotics
Into Me
Just A Buck
For The Gay Jewish
Men
Just A Buck
For What You Had
To Do
Just A Buck
Keeps You Up At Night
Just A Buck
For A Bribe
Just A Buck
You Wish You
Could Record Me
Just A Buck
But Then You'd Sell
Me
Into Slavery
Just A Buck
For A Diva
A Buck For A
Muse
But What Will
You Do
When The Coffers
Run Dry
Oil Raped
Lies
Just A Buck
For A Smart Car
A Utilitarian
Stroller
Tax The Gays
On Double Incomes
Invitro
And Stolen Cars
Just A Buck
From The Gays
And We Might
Forgive You
Just A Buck
From Dr. Alan
Silverman
For All The Children
He Raped
With Errol
Just A Buck
From Oathkeepers
Stephan Miller
Trumpleberry Pedos
But Where Are My Kids
Just A Buck
For Giving Tesla
Away
Just A Buck
From Lexus
For Their Rising
Stock On Cons
Take Their Car-Lots
Charge Daddy Pedo
Managers
On Crimes
Just A Buck
From The President
We Don't Agree
To Ukranian War
Or A Transgender Army
Forcing Air
For Second Jewish
Gentlemen
Fettish
Just A Buck
From Jerrod Cushner
With A Baron Trump
Playdate
Investigate Ivana's
Murder
Just A Buck
From King Charles
Just A Buck
From Every Leader
Who Has
His Wife Obliterated
Just A Buck
Won't Replace Mom
Just A Buck
You Gotta Stand
Up To Your Son
Just A Buck
'Cuz We're Done
With This
Kidnapping
Buckless
Con
Peace,
Nitya Nella Davigo Azam Moezzi Huntley Rawal
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Angelina Jordan - I Have Nothing (Whitney Houston Cover)
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"I Have Nothing," Angelina Jordan @angelinajordana33 @whitneyhoustonblog-blog Cover
https://youtu.be/iX0g99jN26U?si=atlsBMisLXPmc7Qe #SongOfTheDay2 #SOTD2 #IHaveNothing #AngelinaJordan #WhitneyHoustonCover
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Bohemian Rhapsody
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"Bhomenian Rhapsody," Angelina Jordan @angelinajordana33 @QueenWillRock Cover
https://youtu.be/7TtCoKsfMwg?si=0XG_aIrbGPHBvPDH #SongOfTheDay1 #SOTD1 #BhomenianRhapsody #AngelinaJordan
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Taylor Swift - Fortnight (feat. Post Malone) (Official Music Video)
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"Fortnight," @taylorswift13-blog1 feat. @PostMalone "The Tortured Poets Department,"
https://youtu.be/q3zqJs7JUCQ?si=ryDzmXRAfYaPUOgr #SongOfTheNight2 #SOTN2 #Fortnight #TaylorSwift #PostMalone #TheTorturedPoetsDepartment #Whistleblowers #MakeSomeNoise #4BillionMothersStrong #ChoosePeace #Refunds #FreeTaylor
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Britney Spears - Overprotected (Richi Lopez Remix Audio)
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"Overprotected," @britneyspears @richilopez Re-Mix
https://youtu.be/DuKTZfpZf98?si=jlIFQRda4wLzSiIJ #SongOfTheNight1 #SOTN1 #BritneySpears #Overprotected #RichiLopez #Remix #FreeBritney #ForReal #4BillionMothersStrong #Refunds #50ShadesOfGold #Karma #Mom #TheWomanInMe #Reading #BritneyBiography #Library
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Taylor Swift - But Daddy I Love Him (Official Lyric Video)
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"But Daddy I Love Him," @taylorswift13confessions-blog The Tortured Poets Department @RewindAI
https://youtu.be/U2W173hRfyA?si=AtHVe4FGnwPjqb-- #SongOfTheDay2 #SOTD2 #ButDaddyILoveHim #TaylorSwift
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Taylor Swift - So Long, London (Official Lyric Video)
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"So Long, London," @taylorswift13-blog1
https://youtu.be/CCUr2pNJft4?si=Ls_ehvVYoOetZtoT #SongOfTheDay1 #SOTD1 #SoLongLondon #TaylorSwift
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