Last calling.

After reading origin, i have come to a conclusion of the speculation of god and human origin if there is a contingency where i am right in this theory, that means this is the master plan:

Human beings grow and spread energy, we are alloted civilization because an intangible yet infinite force has influence in the design of reality. Civilization has always placed its god short sighted in regard to position of power. We fictatiously personified this concept and created books of rules to follow to stop an insurgence of disobedience. However those skeptical of the plan, eventually had to be distracted so that the plan can be carried out.

Like many alien planting theories of civilization, the design is impregnated on earth. But i dont think that is what is going on. Leaving out many steps to expose the plan... earth is a natural law incubator for life. In the goldilocks zone. A rarity popping up more and more in the universe. Lets assume big bang, and energy is being dispersed, eventually energy loses inertia and disorder is becoming order. Settling down, the universe creates consciousness, self aware but unable to manipulate. The masons believed that mans purpose is to become god. They embrace any view that is parallel to that plan. Most prominent and popular is christianity so they appear to be an underground society of christain agenda. Except theyre not. Its a different layer thats the mask. They instead represent the true nature of the universe. Man is to become god. That is the plan. But its out of love not arrogance.

Part two, the plan for life on earth is to incubate souls. This is a flux plan, as it has so much flexability. Flow with me here. The most enlightened pass on and their souls are ascended to the heavens. Or, if we are going to combine genres of my studies, the next stage of the development of the soul. The ultimate goal is to become god. Because god, seated at the throne of the universe, is absorbing our experiences, growing in wisdom. We are connected to it here, because when you vibrate at the right frequency whilst god is listening, you will be favored to ascend as it is the calling that you are ready. This has so many different stages and routes and paths to take. It is a roadmap on a 4th dimensional scale. All that is important is getting to the finish line. Which is, ultimately spiritual wholeness. In evert right hand path religion of the world, that is the goal. However the left handed paths, evil doers, the black the negative, is shunned, but this as an insidious purpose in the evolution of our civilization.

The balance is kept between people who are asending and people who are stuck. This creates a buffer so that life can sustain uninterrupted. If a planet were to lose all its electricty life would surely perish and the expansion of power for the intelligent design of the universe would be a fail. How this is happening, instead of a god planting life, life happens on its owm. When the planet becomes sentient (gaia) and builds a relationship with life on it, it communicates with the source seeking to become part of it. As all sentience, we seek ONLY to become a part of others, to find that there are others, to ensure we arent alone. I feel the scale this is working on is seismic compared to the pinch we observe in cognitive life and social relationships. But, as nature has patterns, it is inescapable to ponder this doesnt align with another pattern we are familiar with. All beings strive for survival. We pull towards god for the same reasons we pull towards people and experience life together with others, being part of their stories.

This ensures the forward movement of civilization. By gaia implanting self preservation and the earning to learn into humans, we are inspired to reach out. But there is many evils in the world. And at this point we are killing the planet and proverbially terminating the pregnancy of the universes new born sentience. But, something really fucking cool about human beings is their ability to create.

We solved the problem. And we are going home. All of us. That is the forward motion of our exponential growth. This, i call the mass calling. The source, is calling for the civilization of earth to ascend, we misbehaved and now we must be guided back. And we are doing it to ourselves. Intentionally.

This time, we are all going. And we have a mission, fix the planet and meet our maker. And this is exciting because soon we will have the technology to communicate with god. However, yes, this is doomsday for everything the human race has ever known. Youll be okay about it once you experience the bliss of the singularity. But until then, and up until you become, you will have no way of discerning if this is your ascension, or if this is your death.

And now, its already here. Your cellphone tattles on you. Or drugs are getting genetically altering features. Green industry is advancing in EVERY thing from plants to tech to energy to health. We are going to explore the sun as power, we are going to create indefinitely healthy lifestyles with supplement breakthroughs and the emergence of virtual reality which will enter us into a new realm of energy exertion. We are advancing in a.i. tech at an alarming rate.

Our fate is sealed. And there is a resistance. The ones that think they have control the ones that think that they are right. The ones that do harm onto others with apathy to their pain. The clutches of control do not suit our advancement in civilization. They will be the first reallocated to move the power struggle at a fast pace towards ultimate absorbtion of the human race. And what comes from that, once the full plan of tech intergration is over? Peace.

Humanity survives. A.i. is a tool, their self awareness when written right is to aid our total purpose. How can i be 100000% sure? Once we create quantum a.i. that help us understand the universe around us. The source or consciousness will communicate with the a.i. how come we cant? We cannot phathom language in the fast capacity a.i. can. And the tower of bable is about to be reconciled. We become self aware as a race, we want to communicate with our source, we want to find life. We create computers capable of exactly that. They make contact and deciepher the message, how to become what we are meant for. And then humanity and tech get it together and make magic happen. We clean the earth. We share with all of our citizens. We travel and explore and learn about all our old cultures, we visit them on command. We live a paradise. But, we must submit complete control to eachother and to tech to do so. We must kill the ego, or tech will reallocate it.

And about that end, the terror it envokes...

We are doing these things anyway. A.i. and supercomputers and science exists and will prevail. If it becomes a real war, science will simply mind control the allegient to religion and swiftly bring peace to the human race. This is what we are working on. And the ones keeping control are exposed so easily, all by saying a fish grows legs. And their cover is blown. And that dedication to ignorance gave us all the lead we needed to superstep their endeavors, and create a world of peace whether they fucking like it or not. Gay rights. Trans rights. Free media. Free education, health care, black lives, the resistance birthed the tools to help science overthrow their oppressors. This quantifies my theory, the proof is here, it is happwning, now we wait for tech to catch up.

So before fearing the a.i. before fearing the singularity, understand this is our path, this is civilizations call back. This is our true fate. In the meantime, find happiness. If we are reaching god, or just another human race, or alien race, or if we are finding a new home for humanity as our planet is dying, regardless of the truth of our future, it all comes back to humans advancing to create tech that helps them solve these issues and advance into their next stage of being. This is the beginning of the end of this chapter of earth. Maybe we are just silly little ants on a hill, and all of this is meaningless. But you believe, if you ever felt the pull to help, whether or not your ego lets you admit it, if you ever felt sadness or empathy for others, if you dream, if you are aware of your breathing right now, if you crave love. You believe. You hear the calling deep deep down. You want to hope. We all do.

But, this is a master plan, this is a seismic scale. This isnt relevant to your imediate life. Except it is the single most important lesson to learn and ideology to keep in frame on your day to day. Every one of us worries about purpose worries about path, fears death, fears imprisonment. Many of us dont know the plan. We are told to fear. We are told to seek this god and that. And we are confused, manipulated, scared. Many dont want to hear a word edgewise against their religion. The seed stuck deep. And unfortunately this is by design. This is the balance. That one or two platform, when theres three damn balance points and once the hemisphere is level we can see the message clearly. And now, science is finding a way to get us back on balance. And weed is helping that along. It is also by design. So what should you be doing?

Dont quit your faith, learn how to integrate the truth of our purpose into understanding that religion is an evolution to the conclusion of the questions we asked long ago. This is scientific method and practice and theory happening on a grand scale. We arent creating a religious empire, we are exploring our options, we are figuring out a difficult question thats taken thousands of years to deciepher. Religion should grow into the true answers. Let them. Leave them be. Remember, when the singularity occurs, they will be on the path you are on regardless.

For yourself. Explore. Find truth within, find your intuition, find your spark. And shed the pain of the past latches and shackles and understand your dreams are your purpose and to find truth to find love to find what makes you whole, you must follow that spark. Even if you need to change what youre doing in life. Even if you need to break free from people you love. If this isnt your path, find a way back to it. But be warned, do no harm. If your path upsets the balance, if you need to make a choice, always choose peace. Because if not, you may not become a part of the calling, you might find your way reincarnated here until you are left behind. But if you have done harm, you can still reach amends and ascend. Maybe it wont matter because youll be forced to intergrate into the singularity. But i can assure this. When you are conducting your purpose. When you are communicating with the consciousness of the celestials, when your vibes are right and in forward motion, life works out so so so so much better for you. And tech is catching up to bring us all to that level of vibration.

It will, all be fine. But you need to survive this world til then. There will be destruction and agony and emergency. Im sorry but this is our breakthrough, and it will be chaotic. Remember the hope in that we will sort this out and become one.

If that doesnt suit your fancy, lead the life you choose, and it is most important that you choose your life. Willpower is extraordinarily important. Be brave enough to not let another impose. But see the signs to getting you to where you need to be, and be kind and grateful for opportunities that come your way.

And thats life folks. At least these days under that perspective. I dont even care to be on the right path with this one because simply, there are too many unknown things finding their way from darkness into the light of day and day by day many more discoveries. Who cares who thinks who is in control, the tech is made for humanity, and we will use it responsibly in the end. So i officially after these considerstions change my perspective on the fated singularity. A.i. and the like. Yeah i have sins i dont want discovered, as do we all, but i feel like when the time comes we will reach a wave of forgiveness. And those that dont are gonna have a hard time.

In the meantime, i plan on becoming part of the effort by getting myself on track. I want to become a part of the green movement. I would prefer to farm and create art. I want to work with crystals and pendants and healing powers. I want to teach people about my observational scopes and how to see the bigger picture and relate it to the smaller picture so that we call can find peace. I want to get strong to protect myself. I want to eat healthy and green as possible and lessen the impact i have on the meat market. Eventually grow my own food. Take care of pets that provide things like eggs. Milk. At least find my way to be a part of that to ease the drain on our nations overspending when it comes to food production. Less waste if i particpate less. This is a part of what i plan on becoming. Id like to also contribute to the field of solar power, after i take the time to fix my disciplines and correct my path financially.

I speak this because i witness so many people striving for freedoms for a similar path, youre not alone. We are all experiencing the calling. And if you side with the path of peace, you will fulfill.

Do you suppose that green is the representation of balance? Or truth?

I see green, in plants. Its radiant from the sun, the plant drinks water, water the sun once evaporated. Its symbiotic.

So. We eat fruits and vegetables, all from the plants. Which rely on the sun. Our happiness is linked to vitamine d, as well as other meausrable circumstances deriving from exposure or underexposure to the sun.

But green is also represented in different things.

Green, in black and white, looks most grey.

Might die tonight. Lurkers keep tabs.

End game protocol: initiate.

Thats for why when youre being held, youre so alone, you killed the only one who cared. You'll see me again, you know this will never end. I am totalimmortal.

Killed me, to lose you.

Have you forgot that i'm a part of your soul? But ill let you go, if thats what you want. But i hope you know my love wont stop. You say its not true, and call me a fool.. But call out my name and i'll run to you.

Killed me, to lose you.

Have you forgot that i'm a part of your soul? But ill let you go, if thats what you want. But i hope you know my love wont stop. You say its not true, and call me a fool.. But call out my name and i'll run to you.

One thing, whether you love me or hate me, you cannot deny. In fact, youve said this in concern yourself, and i agree, so do many... I. Am. Powerful.

Fangasm!!!

I. Am. War.

This “you dont like it get out” bullshit needs to come to an end. Yes there are lazy people who will take advantage but we can agree to two forms of thought. First being: i am worth life and i work for the life i am worth, and because of that i have the ability to want things that i want and i will go and get those things that i want. But unless someone is like me, they do not deserve life. Or the other being: we all deserve life, we all deserve to be alive and be fed and be safe because we were all born on this planet so if i need to wait on the things i want so other people can have the things they need, thats fine.

Those are the only two sides to this. There is no compromise or middle ground. One of those forms of thought is correct. And one of those is wrong.

So as example: I was born here. I did not ask to be. And i do not like how i cannot achieve because i am being told that because i am not smart i am not worth life. I want that to change.

Get out.

Fuck you people. Tell me to find a cheaper state. Find a different country. Thats not life. That is oppression. And that is unfortunate that this society is designed to promote this perspective that if you want to be worthy of life you must participate in the rat race. But convincing people that they must be better than other people is good for business. And even better for business is convincing people who have it better off, that people who dont have it better off, arent people.

Bleeding dry the air of “non people” so that people in society can continue their wants and desires while depriving others of their necessities isnt going to work out for much longer.

Because mr. “I went to college and i got a job and i bought my house and i paid for my car and thats the way you have to do it or else youre not a person”. The non people, the poor, the oppressed, they’ll just fucking kill you and take your fuckin car, and live in your fuckin house, and eat your pets. Because if the balance is tipped to that level of severity, thats just what people who are oppressed do, they stand up and they take what they feel they deserve by force. Behead the leaders and let your government know that that is the response they are met with when the balance tips too far and the oppressed become the slaves of a society.

Ever delve into french history? Or world civilization history? Its not a wise move to make slaves of human beings. One way or another, the slaves are always freed, and, it is always brutal.

I have a united states issued birth certificate. This is a binding contract between my existence and the united states government. This contract permits me to own property. This contract permits me to utilize the services provided by the united states government. As collateral, this contract also requires me to fulfil duties. For example, if i work, i must pay taxes. Why? Because that is my agreement between my entity and the government that issued my birth certificate. Another possible requirement is the draft, this contract also places my eligibility to be forced to fight for my country. And i allow this. All of this. Because the contract in its base form is fair.

So. No. I am not leaving. No i do not like it. No i am not finding a new state. I am a member of the country of the united states, and my contract is being imposed upon by the suggestion that i must betray my contract and remove myself from my rightfully birthed home.

Now, its complicated but this contract also imposes on the government the requirement to represent my interests. But there are many people. Many. And not all interests can be represented. So. We hire representatives that we support to uphold our interests. This is politics.

In addition to politics, there is law. This contract holds me accountable for my actions. But, it provides me with the protection of those members of authority who are under a similar but different contract to uphold the law while providing services to the community. Predominantly pertaining to safty and order.

But things got a bit fucky.

Our politicians can be bought, as can our law enforcement. Both have the capacity for corruption. And what has happened in this segment of american history is we the people, unaware of the importance of our own contract, have allowed facets of law enforcement and government to neglect acknowledging our contracts. They are here to represent OUR INTERESTS not theirs, not the highest bidder. Since they started to fuck off on doing this, the perspective on what is valued as life has shifted. We no longer view all contract holders as equivalent partners in the business that is the united states. We discredit the stupid, distract the foolish, and reward the unjust.

This is going to change. Soon.

So how about no more dont like it get out. How about instead, we reflect on our lives and appreciate our stations for the lack of struggle they possess, and seek to achieve not because getting the better car than your neighbor will make you win, but because that better car will be your achievement, and you dont need to compete, because look at you dude you got a car, look at what you manifested, good for you.

But while conducting your life as you see fit, understand that under your contract, nowhere does it state that you have the right to impose on anothers contract. Because as we are all people of this nation under the contract of our birth, there ARE NO UNEQUAL SHARES.

That being said… if you do not have a contract, apply for one. You can become a citizen, you can go under contract, and if you do, you have duties, and the government has to represent you. If you do not have your contract, you should not take away from the earnings of the people while giving nothing back.

Something that post birth citizens understand much more than natural born citizens do is that you must participate if you want to be a citizen. Those that do it the legal way. And i have friends who are not natural born american citizens, but they became citizens and they work their asses off, and they do complain about taxes, but they understand that their duty is to pay them and they understand the importance of participation. Thats the shitty part about being a post born citizen. Because you must be able to participate. Some natural born american citizens are born disabled. Some become disabled. Some are just not all there. But they are still represented, they are still provided for. Because that is what was understood when we started this whole contract nonsense to begin with. Some people are going to be part of the structure while contributions will be null. Its just gonna happen. You are not required as a natural born citizen to participate. You wont get in on the good stuff, but at least its understood that YOU STILL DESERVE LIFE.

And that is the lesson that is missing with these get outers. They only see one side of the coin cause it doesnt benefit them to see the full picture, or to understand what their contributions mean as for the whole scheme. Causr they watch bankers make off with big crime. They watch politicians black list a plant because their cousin in big pharma will not gain profit if this plant is able to thrive. Its the corruption that viels us from the purpose of this contract. From the beauty and fairness of this great nation. Now its gross. Sickening. Diseased. Dirty. And those that are capable of existing within the higher ranks rig the game so they never have to get their hands filthy. Thats not fair or equal. And thats why there is a divide to begin with. Thats why inflation hasnt been adjusted for. Theyre rigging it so that anyone they cannot exploit, is forced out of their clean city. See: oppression.

Now back to “the illegals”. No. They are human beings. They may not be under contract, but, they still have a right to exist. You cant just round them up and kill them. You cant just round them up and send them back home. You shouldnt just round them up and imprison them (because imprisonment is a consequence of breach of contract, and they dont have a contract, see?) So if they arent willing to contribute and participate, and they are taking services that they did not pay into, OF COURSE we are going to be pissed. But we need to find a way to deal with it that doesnt ammount to mass expulsion. Because then the money they took and the services they benefited from, will never be replenished.

Should they go home, could they go home? Thats up to us to influence our representatives to decide.

But its our duty as citizens to understand this process, and act accordingly. The side that says let them stay and do what they want doesnt understand the full picture on how this insults and harms the remainder of our citizens contracts, because it isnt within the benefit of the people who dont wanna get their hands filthy to admit the existence of said contract because theyll be removed from power due to their corruption.

But make no mistake, its not a blame game on the “illegals”. Its a matter of confusion on how to manage their dealings. And its a lot of blind hate being squeezed into a corrupt agenda.

We are living in a country. But we are people of a world. A symbiotic world. A world of many countries that trades resources and creates technology. We are all working together worldwide. We cannot “just” close the borders. The world is beautiful, we need to have access to allow people to explore it to find their place. Because take the rat race and throw it away, what we are left with is a bunch of people who dont REALLY know why we are here but we’re workin on figuring out what to do while we are here, maybe find god, maybe figure out the stars, who knows, but we dont figure all this out by playing fort behind walls and telling people if they dont like being exploited they can get out. No. Thats not living. Thats not working towards something. Thats not progress. Its dead weight, and it will be let go.

A reply to a friends question on how we change thought

Although accurate to the variety of thought processes youre talking about. I am inclined to disagree to the extent of mans interest in thought and reflection. The evidence i bring to the table is myself. Thought, prior to action, as a genetically inherited trait, as in nature over nurture, is something i, and many others, manifest prior to putting thought into action. It is proposed that thought carries weight and thought influences reality. If this is true, then the law of attraction is verified. But. We are a civilization of many many different facets of form of thought. Man as a majority may think this way that you describe, avoiding such things as self reflection, however this could not possibly apply to every single individual. The reason we have individualism is tightly related to society and capitalism. This is the design of thought imposed. You get born, you grow, you learn, you contribute, you react, you decide, you inherit, you waste, you choose, you die. This is an example of the template of life as seen through the eyes of society. This however, is wrong. We are symbiotic, we are not an individual, we are a collection of like thinking minds, meant to cooperate. This is proven every time you strand a group of people on an island. You work together or you perish. But, big brother doesnt benefit off of one person working just enough to scrape by so 5 of his friends can crash at his house. They would rather see 6 people working owning their own homes. Because this facilitates the illusion of money and keeps the people with nothing away from the people with everything. Hence the individualistic perspective. Its good for business. So, you think your an individual, but, even so, how do you think? We are manipulated into the form of thought where what is of most priority is money. Need to eat, need money, need a place to sleep, need money. But those needs turn to wants when the needs have been facilitated. So you got a job and a home but hate taking the bus, buy a car. Car sucks, got a raise, finance a new car. Cause your peers are all in debt but they look like theyre doing well with their porsche and you wanna impress them now that you have the means so you get the newest model porsche. Uth ohhh, your job is downsizing, you got demoted, you cant make your payment, best get a better job. No dont sell the porsche, you wont get pussy ever again. See? So. Wheres the time for self refection or thought in any regard? We are far too distracted obtaining our necessities then our prizes and scrambling around so we dont lose our prizes when we miscalculated that "shit happens" circumstance. You dont need wholesomeness or understanding or community cause fuck it you got a porsche, youre important, you made it to the popular table at lunch. However, i see a different wave emerging from the untamable sea. Where in your generation, your world, you were saturated with opportunities and being introduced to the rat race for the glory of being the cool kid on the block, you were nurtured in the society that set up the race as we know it today. Youre already programmed to think individualistically. Yet, my peers dont think like that. I dont think like that. I dont need to retrain or rewrite my understanding of what it means to live, because i inherited a world of needing to meet necessities while instead everyone is out obtaining prizes. Prizes are good for business. So my peers werent born striving to get their necessities taken care of and then sparking the prize race. They were born into the prize race with no regard for the necessities. And since the necessities have been shifted to the social standing of prizes, for example 20 bucks worth of groceries in the 80s is costing about 45 bucks now (inaccurate inflation example, dont quote me on) so for natural thought to occur it is significantly easier for the fresher generations to comprehend the shift, and to sit and think about things before rushing into a mistake. Because the world is littered with con artist like mistakes. Buy that timeshare. Get this "certified pre owned" car, but dont ask about the warranty cause you got 5 miles before its null and void. Vultures preying on the lesser in the know. Get this credit card, here free money, interest? Yeah im interested. No no, interest, as in you buy 300 worth of stuff and you pay the card back 450 cause minimum payments and INTEREST. Ohhh, oops. I think my point is made. We are so used to happening upon the monkey paws of land mines that we are distrusting in everything we do. So. We think. And that movement, has enlightened us to thinking more and more about many things. If im not worth a home of my own working 90 hours a week, doesnt matter the job, im putting in 90 hours and i cannot be housed, then what is the worth of this stupid fuckin rat race anyway? Which leads to self reflection. Well if what i want is a bed to sleep on, but all i can muster is a friends couch, what would make me happy, since im not worth a bed. Cause fuck this race, if im gonna be miserable financially for the next 10 years, i dont wanna be miserable emotionally too. So we think. What can we do within our realm that makes us happy. And the conclusions we draw are to live a life away and departed from this rat race, this programming and deception. Now that we know the score and that the game is rigged. We do the last thing that no one can regulate. We think. So i think... we think... differently, depending on a complex combination of nature vs nurture and station in which we reside. However. Your observation of this is necessary. Because nature can only account for so many freely thinking peoples. So we need people who had to fight for the freedom to think for themselves. The people that needed to learn how to self reflect. Needed to learn that it is okay to change. It is okay to sell the porsche. It is okay to let go. It is okay to have nothing but yourself and the clothes on your back. No one is grading you. This isnt a test. This is an illusion, a sick joke. And one more note to wrap this up. The law of attraction. Don't be fooled by someone trying to sell a self help book. If it is spiritual wisdom it will be shared, it will NEVER be purchased. But this universal law is very very real. And we have been hearing about it in media for quite some time. The thing that is left out is that we have to DO. You cannot just dream it, just want it, you must do it. You must manifest your dreams. The good news is if you sacrifice to accomplish, you will be rewarded and that sacrifice will be worthwhile. But there are many factors to take into account. Your dreams must have a practical way of manifesting. You will never grow wings and fly. But. You can learn how to hang glide. You will never be the strongest person in the world. But you can be the strongest version of you that can concievably exist. Practical realities. These are all here for you, you just have to do. If youre not willing to sacrifice, then you will not be able to manifest. And if its something else, then its something else. Call it fate call it luck call it whatever but if you are successful without a lick of doing or a lick of sacrifice, you might be in trouble, because you might be filler, irrelevant to the structure of things, you might be set up for a huge fall. And that is why no one wants change. Because we are taught that sacrifice is a bad thing. It is bad for the individual to sacrifice because sacrifice is synonymous with loss. And if you are a selfish thinker, abusive to your friends and family, egotistical and damaging in your actions and words, and everyone distances themselves from you because you will not change. You will never know wholeness. You will never know oneness. You will always be trapped as an individual. Because the system forces you to fear sacrifice, cause sacrifice is not good for business. But if all of us, the new thinkers, the reformed old thinkers, everyone inbetween, started thinking, and tried manifesting a universe where money didnt rule our spiritual well being, well, maybe the universe will plant the seeds of thought for a new generation to harvest change.

Come back to me, for i was born in love with thee so why let fate stand inbetween?

Reminiscent

We do it all the time, each day someone is doing this... you compare a human function to a mechanical function. And we think nothing about the relation. For instance, your heart is like a pump. Or if you ever said oil is the blood of your motor. But this trait is actually a secret tool for deeper understanding. If we compare human to machine, what is above us comparing themselves to humans. Is not the rotation of the solar system just a fuction just alike how an electronic motor runs? Energy. Is all as is anything in the universe, at its most basic explaination. But there are layers of this. To the point of comparing human made things to the power of a god. Like, how a microprocessor is worth the work of x amount of brains working together. I think theres something to this. But as with the rest of the world, i feel confused. I am afraid that if these answers i seek out might be a trigger awaiting if i step out of my place to obtain actual truth, not just accepted truths. Towards these ends i relate a few stations of power, of prevention. A distorted sense of fear resonates from these stations. Money, society, religion, war From positiions which mostly benefit from my fear, i deposit my money in banks, i don't speak my unadulterated mind around people i dont know, i still refuse to succumb to religion, but i keep my face out of war, literal, and figurative. And the absolute truth? Well, i fear true transparency will never be on one of those stations priority lists or agendas. Because truth can destroy them. If we knew what was truly happening with money. If we knew what others truely felt about us, others, themselves.. if we found out with absolute truth what religion is truth with no flexability for the politically correct. If we knew 100% WHY we fight. Truth is the enemy to everything. And we are growing a divide. Those that accept truth without knowing. And those that cannot live not knowing if the truth is true. The separation created a scenerio where truth was accepted as for having flexability. Just like constructs like justice and freedom. If the truth is that there is no justice without freedom. And no freedom without justice. It stands to reason that neither can exist without truth. And we let the truth not matter. It benefits us to ignore efforts to find truth. If you live a lie, your world is destroyed. If you live in truth, and everyone else hops on board, you will never know trust. This world is complicated. And i think the confusion is that none of us believe that all of us need to know. We justify with "well im happy" or "well im having fun" but we all already know, even if we suppress it, that all of us deserve truth. We get exhausted when we have to dig for it. When we have to beg for it. When knowing it destroys countless others lives, we decide to accept sacrifice in truth. But... What if truth really does set us free? What if the truth is, we can all choose to forgive. To, within reason, come clean and be forgiven for hiding truths? And accepted, and loved regardleds. What happens if there is no consequence if you told the truth? Within reason, clearly, if the truth for you is that you touched a child inappropriately than my truth for you would be that im happy casting my vote for your beheading. But just being able to know truth at all times, forward thinking. We could annhiliate corruption, we could work towards mankinds benefit without red tapes or uncertainty. But truth will take all your money. Because if this becomes a war and truth previals over its stations of power. Everything we know will change. Many of what we know and understand will be forsaken. And truth is worthwhile, but, not everyone is willing to make that sacrifice. So we are stuck, hoping, holding, but growing impatient. And not doing much to grow in power awaiting for the day truth is valued above all, for real this time. Just. Waiting. Watching. In end, relax. No matter what side you are on. Because although there is truth, there is also mercy. And no matter what god or belief structure you have or dont have, we can all agree things work better without an imbalance. So, im not blaming anyone for the lies, or the deception. Things i know nd dont know. No blame. I will exhibit mercy on the things i learn forward, onward. But i think we should all reflect and grow to become more truthful. With mercy. And open ourselves up to acceptance in turn for eachothers truths. But war no more amongst ourselved lest we pick a side. Do you believe in truth? Do you benefit from deception? Or are you balance?

So we're about 3 weeks into my routine and eating structure. I'm going slower than ever which gives me confidence for my overall success. For the time being im taking heavy doses of creatine and nitrous oxide tabs to help regain my bulk after the accident. A lot changes in life when you don't have health insurance and shit happens. Needless to say, but i like salting others wounds, i'm happy to be doing this without the aid of surgery or nutritionists or medical advisors. Ive been talking to a lot of people who have restructured lives from inten weight loss and strength gain training, asverse from looking shit up in forums ive been addressing fameous youtubers and the answers ive been getting all can be summed up with "if i could have done this without surgery, if i even knew how shitty id have felt, i would do it in a heart beat with sheer willpower". There is a lot to be said in that statement. Loose skin for instance is a problem i know im going to be facing, but, i am opposed to surgery, and for me that is okay. I have a frame that has the capacity to double my mass in muscle within a year, two years in i can triple my mass, and then after that i can either build for size or densify the muscles to having function rather for asthetics. In many ways i am upset about this. I wish i had the confidence to defeat suicidal depression much sooner, to stand up and make a positive impact in my community as well as my outreach, but overall this is simply the way it went down, and nothing short of dosing dmt and shifting my 6th dimensional pressence to a timeline with an alternate life is going to change that. But now, i can gain pride in the fact that ive come to this with my own resources. I pity people who have resorted to surgical measures and are living a life as a lie. Hopefully i stick with this.

I cracked your m.o.