So fucking sick of this bullshit! Everyone fucking sucks, they don't have the common sense god gave a potato, and they all complain 24/7!! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK GUYS?!? I'm sick of having to be the only one who knows what to do on this fucking team and I'm sick of having to cover other people's asses!! Two more weeks left with these fucking idiots...

Really America?

Really America? Seriously this is what we're gonna do? When is someone gonna say April fools? This shit can not be real! Donald fucking Trump?! He is seriously going to be our next president?! What the actual fuck America?! I can't believe that after all the progress we made with gay marriage and supporting minorities and women we are gonna tear it all away and start for square one! I hope that most Americans see how they fucked up! We have a fucking Vice President that is funding Conversional Therapy to "converts" homosexuality to heterosexuality. Seriously people... seriously... I don't understand how we can let a racist, sexist, narcissist be in office. Oh sorry I'm giving Americans too much credit because I will give it to you guys I can believe that this actually happened. I hoped that America would have been smarter than this but I knew I would be let down. Because Donald Trump actually embodies all that America is: racist, sexist, and a narcissist. "Make America great again" please explain to me when it was great... back when gays couldn't marry? When blacks and women couldn't vote? When the KKK was at large? I'm confused on what point of history where America was "great." America has always had problems and issues, there has been no point in history when America was great. Maybe it was great for rich, white men... but then again that's Trump. A rich, white man. Which is another point that I don't understand: "he cares about the working class." When has he ever cared for the working class?! When he cheated his taxes? When he left thousands of his workers unemployed after his projects would fail? When he refused to pay middle class workers for doing their jobs? I don't understand how he is a "hero" to the working class. If anything he seems like a villain. So to all the Americans who voted to make America racist again and to the man himself, Donald J Trump... GO TO HELL!

I got no sleep because I’ve been too busy thinking about what happened. It hasn’t left my mind, actually

I don’t get why people don’t want to date their best friend. That would make dating so much better. You already share that bond, and not much would change, except for the fact that you can kiss, and cuddle and hold each others hand

I want a cuddle and kiss buddy 

I wish I didn’t overthink things so much

Maybe one day, I’ll fall in love with someone who will actually love me back. Today is not that day and I have a feeling tomorrow won’t be. I have a feeling it won’t happen for a long time, but maybe, just maybe, it’ll happen

At times, I feel like my soul is being torn to bits. And all I can do is sit back and watch it. And it hurts. Bad. 

I destroy everything I touch, and I just want to make things right. 

To My Friends

Just know, that if I ever try to kill myself, please whatever you do:

DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF

It’s not anything you did to make me feel this way or to do it. My mind is so fucking screwed up, and my soul is so dead, and my hear is so broken, that one day, I may decide that enough is enough. Don’t take blame for my problems and my self-hate. It has nothing to do with you. It’s my fault. Not yours. Just thought I’d let you know

I am so fucking TIRED of being second choice like why won’t anyone choose me first? I am always second best and its awful

You say that no one loves you and that you will never get a girl, and I’m literally right here and I want to grab you and shake you and scream “IM RIGHT HERE AND I LOVE YOU” bu I can’t do that can I?

To the boys (and girls) who have broken my heart, 

Thank you. Honestly, thank you so much. Because yes, my heart hurts a lot, but you’ve made me so much stronger. To the boy who made me feel special and loved, then kissed another girl like I didn’t even matter, thank you. Now I’ve learned to steer clear from the boys like you. The easy ones. To the girl who cheated on me, thank you for teaching me that I deserve better. To the boy who gave me one wonderful night of love and affection, then cast me in the dirt, thank you. Now I know not to let my feelings get the best of me. To the boy who took me to our freshman dance only because he thought I would never be loved for being ugly and psychotic, thank you. Now I know that people who degrade people aren’t worth anyone’s time. If I missed you, just know that I thank you too. Now I am so much stronger after all of my heartbreak. My heart may be shattered but my pride will never be. Remember that.  

Accidentally posted this on my other blog...

Fuckboy

This may seem like none of my business but if you hurt my friends then I will fuck you up! You can't be all flirty with someone and make them truest fall for you and then turn around and say oh by the way I don't like you like that. DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING MESSED UP THAT IS?!? IT'S BULLSHIT!! She may seem like one of your pawns in you endless game but she is the queen of someone's who truly deserves her. GO. TO. HELL.

Mr. Liar Liar

Yea I saw you there... Mr. Liar Lair. Holding one girls' hand while wrapping another girl in your arm. It's disrespectful, rude, and completely douchey. Why do you always see yourself as the victim when you are the enemy here! You hurt others and then drag yourself down with them! How about next time instead of dating three girls at a time you concentrate on one, because if you give her a chance then maybe you will find something better than meaningless sex. But if you don't change your ways then.... Go to hell...

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