Yeah controversial opinion but like I can romantisize health problems of mine sometimes like yeah maybe I am a dainty Victorian child today because I can't move my legs properly and so be it. It helps a little with coping

You know what I am not a complete loser when my looserness is mostly caused by my deteriorating mental and physical health and by people who look down on me because of my weaknesses. I am enough as it is because I'm really doing my best despite everything, if anything I am actually a badass for still not giving up while having no motivation in a form of success.

I HATE that they only make shoes that make your feet seem smaller. My feet are already small enough I want my shoes to be big. I want to look like one of these silly 2000s graffity rap people. I want to walk like stomp stomp stomp stomp

I cannot emphasize enough how much I hate the treatment Casca gets as a character after The Golden Age (I have some problems even with her characterization after she fell for Guts during that same arc, but those are minor complaints compared to the state of current Casca).

The first complaint would absolutely be the treatment of her situation as an SA survivor. I don't think her trauma is ever explored on a deeper note, nor her actual pain for the whole situation she got trapped in. The focus of her rape isn't on her, it's always on Guts' pain and Guts' feelings about it, backed up by actual interviews in which Miura stated he made the rape scene just for the eclipse to be more painful for Guts. The rape itself is drawn in a way that makes it extremely uncomfortable to witness, not for its brutality nor because you feel the pain she's feeling, but because it's drawn as if it was a non-con hentai, something that always disturbed me. How come the same person who put so much heart and genuine care into realistically depict Guts' trauma as a survivor could do something so distasteful ?

That event would curse her character into becoming a complete tool for the story and its male characters to use. During the eclipse her body serves as a mere object for Griffith to project his pain onto Guts, the same Guts that thinks about raping her as a way to get closer to Griffith. The same Guts that on a lot of occasions thinks about abandoning her to chase after Griffith, and that a lot of times treat her as an inconvenience. Even after getting her sanity back, she can do nothing but become a narrative tool to give Guts' a reason to chase after Griffith again.

During the Golden Age she was interesting, but she's always been "a girl in love", always pining for some guys. Griffith didn't want her so she got with Guts instead, to cure their mutual obsession with the man. I hope the manga doesn't end with Casca staying romantically involved with Guts, because to me their relationship never felt genuine. Casca in the narrative is something Guts use to delude himself into thinking he would ever be able to just let go of Griffith and forget all that happened.

In the current arc, after being kidnapped, she's getting dressed in fancy clothes, dreaming and sleeping, while Guts is more concerned about his sword than he is for her. I don't think she would ever recover from this character assassination, but I do hope she gets a bit of autonomy in the end.

So far in 2024 I've got a HIV scare, a delay on a surgery for the second time, a gender enlightenment, around 2k $ in spendings, failed my uni exams miserably, and lost about 5 pound of weight. Shit's happening ig

how r u gonna call them love handles and then try to convince ppl thats a bad thing. insane to me

So sick and tired of arthritis I am going to chop my extremities off them boil them then eat them then take 1kg ibuprofen then fucking die

Killing god isn't enough. I need to fuck him raw

Conservatives brain check failed. They are literally all so stupid what the fuck

If I had a dollar for every favorite character of mine who is a loyal soldier type person and seems stern at the first sight but actually has a very emotional, soft side to them, who found a loved one in their once rival, and whose entire personality was completely stuttered after a very traumatic event, I'd have two dollars, but it's weird that it happened twice.

Watched berserk and I am so insane about Casca. Crying and screaming and banging my head on a wall thinking about her

Guys would anyone be interested in c0mm1ssioning me?

Hiiii I'm alive

All robots are lesbians

they call me doctor worm. good morning how are you i’m doctor worm

I can't wrap my mind around the fact that my aunt, who is in her late 30, not married, has no kids, drives a truck, wears skater shorts and is a professional carpenter is HOMOPHOBIC. Girl that's friendly fire