A familiar encounter

We recently went to a mall newly opened in nearby place. we as in my cousin, my younger brother and myself. walking through, looking around those blinding amount of brightness, chitter-bitters of people and their not so casual attires did indeed fascinate us. Those branded products and its sales person seemed like wanting to convey a message of "be in your limits and don't even dare to take just even a look". we were inaudibly convinced and without any mutual discussion we chose not to pity ourselves rather we simply chose to joke around and mock those silly un-explainable prices. Those high rise roofs designer architectures fascinating chimes and uncountable amount of people made that place even more fascinating and explor-able. The one thing I'm always proud of is actually enjoying then taking pics instead of ruining it all just for sake of catching somewhat 1 in like a zillion bad pics. Upon our return we were chasing and catching each other and laughing like fools ignoring all sorts of nuisance eyes observing and judging us. I was just taking out a casual talk when I noticed HIM!!

I guess, I'm still not sure! if it was HIM or not, in the first place!! The more I think about it, more it gets confusing!!! I certainly knew his face even if it had been almost around a year of my break-off with HIM. But the fact that I couldn't seem to recognize that voice!! the face was undoubtedly a familiar looking one but the voice obviously wasn't. I'm sure HIS voice was more on a subtle, softer, a little high pitched effect. Maybe it wasn't HIM, I might have been mistaken. Was there even a big mole on HIS right cheek to start off with? I couldn't seem to take my mind off the thought of a probability of him being HIM. I tried to look as normal as I could but was just impatiently again and again peeking at the same person who was clearly enjoying his friend's company. I vaguely remember making a conversation to my brother without being suspicious, but having no idea what kind of shit I blurted out. HE was walking backwards seeming to be telling something really interesting to his friend. That truth went out with him. I guess online relationships do have a back-fold. Talking online, getting to know each other online, proposing online, hearing their and sharing secrets online, bonding online to loving online just came along those finger typing and eyes reading and phones engaged, the moment it becomes "off" the talks to the secrets all get "off" the "line". Hearing their voices just on phone, looking at them just through photos and just trying to observe every creek and folds through zooming those memorized pics do seem to give a temporary feeling but on long turn are just vague things waiting to be felt in-person with thousand times more effect and feeling. The familiar yet unfamiliar encounter took place almost around half a year into past but still meanders free in my head like an unclogged drain. But I guess I couldn't have had done anything about it other than thinking about HIM. The passive thought of what would have happened if it was really HIM!! if HE would have just tilted to his somewhat around 30 degrees to notice a girl hope-filled impatiently looking at HIM!! what would have been our reaction if we had met in some meet-able circumstances!! I guess I'll be living on hope of us meeting in person in another parallel world.

signing off!!