You have to love yourself. You have to I'm sorry I know it's hard i know it's frustrating I know it feels impossible but you have to fucking love yourself and everything else comes second, everything. You don't have to like everything you do or support every action you take unconditionally you can think you're wrong you can think something you did was stupid but I think all those things about people I love sometimes and I still love them. You have to love yourself 'ugly' you have to love yourself without any friends you have to love yourself a loser you have to love yourself when you make mistakes you have to love yourself when you've ruined everything you have to love yourself happy you have to love yourself sick and unhealthy and a burden you have to love yourself single you have to love yourself when you fail you just have to. It's not a choice it's absolutely not you don't have to like yourself all the time you can work on everything else after but you have to love yourself or you can't do anything. Hating yourself makes you a worse person it makes you harder to be around it makes it harder to recover it makes you tired it makes you angry it makes you mean. I know you don't want to hear that but if that's what it takes for you to love yourself you have to hear it. Don't compromise don't maybe don't 'if and or but' it you have to love yourself like a innocent crying animal who has only you to protect it you have to love yourself like you love the sun and other people and how other people love other people you have to love yourself like you're the last two people on planet earth and your only hope is eachother. It's not pretty love it's not easy love it's not flowers and Valentine's Day it's blood soaked it's hard it's thankless but you have to love yourself you have to you have to and that's your only choice it's that or keep rotting until there's nothing left to decay. Okay? Okay?