"Because you let me"

Can't decide if being by yourself is better than feeling half trust or wondering if you're actually as important as you think/thought you were to a person or not. Going back and forth on the latter makes the choice clear on paper but life isn't on paper, a lot more shit involved. Definitely feels like shit for me. BUT I still feel like it could be worse being played with due to one being comfortable, if that's the right word.

who knows

Depressing myself

Can I fix it. I'm in a hole

I don't trust anyone and I hate it. I hate myself

Running off of anxiety

and that’s where you lose

wish i could turn back time and deal with life properly as it came. deal with it properly, not change it. but that changes it though so technically i’m contradicting myself. 

right

realization: so before, i would get cheated on and it would make me feel like shit. now that we’re not together anymore, i shouldn’t trip if she’s met another person. it’s as if that’s what was wanted all along. right?

My bank account and I looking at each other after a weekend of treating myself™

Ok, so I was watching Peppa Pig and well……this is one of tHE BEST MOMENTS EVER. I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING 

SHE JUSST HANGS UP ON HER