LOVELY RUNNER // EP. 06

Literally every time Sun-Jae sees Im Sol and she does something cute:

[I wanna be dark and mysterious but I can't stop giggling]

My brain is on fire same I can’t sleep and am thinking of this:

The way she writes about marriage/family/commitment through these different situations across the album is soooooooooo interesting.

You have a very intense first experience of it in “The Manuscript,” where it is first dangled in front of her/the narrator’s young, impressionable self as shorthand for real love in a situation that ended up being smoke and mirrors. She’s being told everything she wants to hear by someone who basically thinks it’s just foreplay. In the end, when it’s clear that the other person has no intention of actually making a life with her, it makes her feel used, but she forces herself to recalibrate and become the girl she thinks he and all the other hes want her to be. Easy breezy cool. But there’s a sense of loss in realizing those hopes were merely banter to the other.

You have the “grown up” version of it alluded to in “So Long, London” and “How Did It End?”, the years of putting in work to save a relationship and the “deflation of our dreaming leaving [her] bereft and reeling” leading to them “calling it all off.” The implication is clearly that they built a home together with plans for next steps at a point in time, but the commitment is shattered. (Obviously to me it sounds like marriage.) She’s bitter at spending her “prime” years with someone who ultimately didn’t want to be there, even if he couldn’t or wouldn’t admit it himself.

She felt like she did everything she was supposed to, but they were learning the right steps to different dances at as it were. Those dreams were at one point shared, but in the end they weren’t right for each other and she admits that, though bitterly (“I founded the club she’s heard great things about” eg the years she put in for him to help him grow up will end up benefiting his new lover, “but I’m not the one,” “you’ll find someone,” etc.). Mixed in with all this of her resentment of him wasting her youth (sacrificing herself at the altar), and his resentment of her for reasons less defined, and insinuations of betrayal in the shadows. The fantasy of the whole package disappears into the ether, yet she still has no answers as to how they got there.

Then in comes the wolf in sheep’s clothing in many of the rest of the songs, the one who promises her all those things she’s dreamed of since she was a kid instantly. After years of moulding herself to other men’s desires, someone comes in and tells her exactly what she wants to hear at the most vulnerable time of her life, as though the universe is answering her prayers, like some sort of cosmic payback for all she’s suffered, and it’s the most intoxicating drug of all. She’s gone from her wish for a family life feeling like she’s in a way being used for her body, to it being used as a chain to a relationship gone sour, to having someone put a metaphorical ring on her finger and tell her he wants to have babies with her, fuck those other guys.

In her grief and stupor, it’s too good to be true, which is exactly why she falls for it. But of course, it’s all an illusion, because this wolf is an amalgamation of the worst of all the men who came before him. He tells her everything she wants to hear not to make her dreams come true, but to make his. He takes the worst parts of these scenarios to make his move: he’ll stand by her, he’ll commit, he’ll do it out in the open under the spotlight’s glare (all things desperately lacking in her last relationship), but after he beds her he stabs her in the back in private and leaves her. He got what he wanted at the expense of her losing everything she wanted, this time as her world caved in seemingly for good. She feels like she gave up everything she thought she might have had for a chance that this is where the universe has been point her all along, only to be left broken for good (you represent the loss of my life as I knew it).

Then there are two sort of codas to this. In “But Daddy I Love Him” we get a sassier reimagining of “Love Story,” where the girl with the scarlet letter is mouthy and crass and tells everyone to go fuck themselves for cursing her in the first place, choosing her love above all else. And no, those haters can’t come to her wedding. Her daddy may have come around, but they sure can’t. Finally it seems someone is choosing her and will someday give her these things, and she’ll be able to show all the naysayers. (Also interestingly one of the more fictionally-veiled songs which ends happily vs the diaristic ones that don’t.)

Then of course there’s “So High School,” our first glimpse into what the future holds. Probably the only unabashedly happy (nay… electric?) song on the album, it’s all about reclaiming the buzz of youth (which is a whole other post) with a new lover. “Are you gonna marry, kiss or kill me? It’s just a game but really, I’m betting on all three for us two.” It’s, er, a direct nod to a certain now-infamous interview, but again, she’s staking her claim on her future, if not certain then at least hopeful again. This time the prospect doesn’t come with a “but.” It’s not, we’ll be pushing strollers but actually you’re too young. It’s not, we had these dreams for our future but actually I can’t move forward. It’s not, I’m going to promise you a ring and a baby but only until my needs are met and then I’m out. It’s, I know what I wanted and I’m not leaving, and thanks to that now she stays too.

The album dealt with the theme not at all in the way I expected, but is absolutely fascinating.

me after listening to the most emotionally devastating song I have ever heard because an even more upsetting one is about to start

Lovely Runner 선재 업고 튀어 (2024) Dir. Boo Sung Chul, Yoon Jong Ho, Kim Tae Yeong – Ep. 4

LOVELY RUNNER 선재 업고 튀어 (2024) dir. Boo Sung Chul, Yoon Jong Ho, Kim Tae Yeong

Was it my memories that I lost? Or, was it you?

After episode 4 i am hooked i need more and i need it now !

I am all tears because of the little glimpses we get from his pov! He liked her first! And has been pinning for her since! Her realisation at the end! Ughhhh t's too good it's scratching my brain just the right way !!!!!!

Like all time slip stories you start to ask the question of did she forget about him in the original timeline or is it a loop and this is what has been happening all along ?

(Not to compare shows but it giving me first love(jdrama) mixed with a time called you vibes to it. please please don't ruin it)

Did I perhaps lose my memories... or you?

LOVELY RUNNER 선재 업고 튀어 (2024) dir. Boo Sung Chul, Yoon Jong Ho, Kim Tae Yeong

Lovely Runner 선재 업고 튀어 (2024) Dir. Boo Sung Chul, Yoon Jong Ho, Kim Tae Yeong – Ep. 3

I didn't want it to stop. On the day you first came to me I didn't want you to be the rain that soaks me wet only momentarily. I've prayed so hard. Do you know how I feel? I've dreamt of you every day. -Lyrics from the song Shower sang by Ryu Seon Jae

LOVELY RUNNER (2024) | Ep 2

He liked her first.

LOVELY RUNNER (2024)

LOVELY RUNNER 선재 업고 튀어 (2024) Ep. 1-2

After months of waiting for a kdrama to save me from my slump i feel like lovely runner might just be it!

It's giving me fluff, feels, ACTIIING (kim hye yoon i love you my sweet precious child), healing nostalgic vibes and most importantly the plot is plotting.

And on that note i am literally on my knees begging the writer to not shove a murder plotline down our throats

I low key think this is going to be what a time called you tried to be if done right 🤞🏻

I finally caught up with Welcome to samdalri and i am a puddle.

As a person trying to get over a failed relationship with my childhood best friend this show absolutely wrecked me, it triggered every emotion i've been trying to bury for the last two years... But i can't stop watching because at least it's working out for them

Just pain

There are no obstacles between us.