I should say that I feel broken cause my heart hurts, my head is explode and I can feel the ardor in my eyes, but I'm not crying. I can't cry. I can't cause I feel no emotions. And that shows me that I'm not broken, that I'm empty. And being empty is worse, because now I don't care of anything.

It's so hard to pretend you're ok in front of people, when something you've red destroyed you. And you can feel your tears in your eyes fighting to go out, but you can't cry because you try to show yourself like someone strong.