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14th - 20th Notes and Tracking Update.

Start of week notes (Sunday Night)

I can only weigh myself once a week when I go to my nanas on a Sunday night. So this week will be a tester and see how I go losing weight and I’ll see how much I can drop. Then starting from next week I can put together some sort of rules and plan on place and see what work when I weigh myself the week after. All about trial and error. I NEED to lose as much as possible before New Years.

14th Monday October

Fasted All Day - 0 Calories

I wanted to eat so bad but I didn’t and I’m proud of myself. I was laying I bed, thinking about eating so tempted to get up and then my crush said to me -“I wish I could hold you” Then my hunger pains went away straight away. Just imagining him holding my body, feeling my bones. Just thinking how beautiful and skinny I am. It motivates me.

15th Tuesday October

Fasted all day

BINGED at night

I was doing so well. So fucking well. I’m such a pathetic fuck. I don’t own a scale either so I can only weigh myself every Sunday night at the family’s house. All I’m thinking about is that scale. Would the number even show up on it? I feel like I gained 100KG. The scale probably wouldn’t even go that high. I only did a very light workout. That will change tomorrow. It has too. I tell you what, only being able to weigh yourself once a week is real fucking pusher. I want to get on that scale and see 75kg AT LEAST.

16th Wednesday October

2 rice cakes - 32 calories

Few slices of capsicum- 13 calories

3 cherry tomatoes - 30 calories

I fasted all day and ate just before bed because I couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed for hours and hours and I had to work 12 hours the next day so I knew I needed sleep. I could’ve pushed through, but work is the last place I want to look tired because I’m banking consultant and I didn’t want people to tell I’m tired. in my job i need to focus and build rapport with clients so next I need to set some sort of routine for when I can eat so I have energy at the right time. I’ll do that after my next weigh in.

17th Thursday October

3 small drumsticks - 244 calories

2 slices of bread - 144 calories

Peanut butter - 31 calories

Got forced to eat dinner tonight. Well not really forced but my Mum wanted to eat as a family and couldn’t get out of it. Usually I take my plate to my room and lock myself away and once everyone is asleep I throw it out. After I ate the drumsticks I said fuck it I broke my fast, once I ate a peanut butter sandwich I almost went back for more and stopped myself. Proud moment there, I ACTUALLY STOPPED MYSELF.

18th Friday October

Fasted all day

Binged at night

Went for a light walk/jog at 5:30am to the park and did some step ups on the workout machines they have there too make up for last nights binge. I’m not going to eat until tomorrow morning, ended up eating more then I wanted to again tonight. But I’m over it. This weekend will be different. I’m cleaning out my wardrobe and restarting my life. Weigh in is on Sunday I need it drop. A full weekend fast sounds good to me.

19 Saturday October

Fasted all day - 0 calories

Didn’t eat a single thing all day and night. Even went out with my friends, and because I have very supportive friends they didn’t care I didn’t buy any food. In fact if I’m completely honest there the ones who gave me the idea to starve myself, there amazing. Also, went and fucked this guy who I’ve been friends with for 3 years and we’ve been FWB for a while. Ended the night talking to my actual crush online. It was a really, really good day.

20th Sunday October

Egg- 70 calories

Toast - 91

McDonald’s - 771

Lol I ate maccas cause I’m a dumb bitch. I weigh myself today and I was .5kg less then my goal weight so Im happy about that. Time to start my plan for next week. Think I’m going to try and eat a low cal breakfast every morning (less then 200) and go for a run each morning and do workouts and see how that works out next week. Monday And Wednesday will be fasting days. I also need to figure out what I’m doing to do from Friday - Monday because I’ll be on holidays with friends for a 4 day festival. So that means heaps of drinking.

Weekly calories

Monday - 0 calories

Tuesday - binged

Wednesday - 65 calories

Thursday - 419 calories

Friday - binged

Saturday - 0 calories

Sunday - 931 calories

Start of week weight - 80kg

Goal for end of week - 77kg

End of week weight -76.5kg

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