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"Hamilton mourned him passionately, and never ceased to regret him. He was mercurial only among his lighter feelings. The few people he really loved were a part of his daily thoughts, and could set his heartstrings vibrating at any moment. Betsey consoled, diverted, and bewitched him, but there were times when he would have exchanged her for Laurens."

"The Conquerer Being The True and Romantic Story of Alexander Hamilton," Gertrude Franklin Atherton.

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Thinking about how John grew up with sisters and a mom and enslaved domestic servants and so he doesn't know how to sew to save his life. He had people for that. Reattach a button? Mend a tear in his shirt? Darn a stocking? Forget it. He's clueless.

He sits in their tent in the light of a single candle and tries his best, but really he's just making everything worse somehow, and all the pinpricks to his hands are leaving blood spots on the fabric.

Alex – poor, motherless, no servants – watches him struggle with it for all of twenty minutes before he takes over and does the work himself (with a little muttered lecture on privilege thrown in because, yeah).

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Our wedding

the draw:

Then they continued planning their wedding

I love making two dead guys wedding invitations

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You're the only one who made Lams art that made me laugh instead of aww or sob like an overgrown toddler.

Would you make some new art? Maybe a second wedding or a baby shower or something.

Cats are my sole source of happiness too 😸😺

thank you very much anonymous (灬♥ω♥灬)

......................................... baby shower????

no one is going to say who is the mom...

... I personally think they would be terrible parents

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idea:

Hamilton se tiene que parar en una silla o algo para poder tratar de besar a Laurens 😂

mmmmmmmm yeah.

Tengo una idea

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Birthday boy

I finally have free time and instead of drawing something new I decide to finish a comic that I forgot to publish… I make bad life decisions （ΦωΦ）

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slay(ed)

i havent drawn amrev stuff in so long and this is the first thing i come up with in months i hate myself

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Random stuff #3

me, having many unfinished comics: yes, it’s time to draw something else

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John Laurens’s time spent as a prisoner of war while Hamilton wrote him extensively about how hot John André was, summed up in one picture:

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Squish

Hamilton: @nerenight

Laurens: @eg.cosplay

Photog: @vander.vision

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Why do people say Hamilton was bi-polar?

TW: discussion of depression, mental illnesses, manic depression, depressive episodes, etc.

I am not anywhere near a mental health professionalist in any shape or form, this is simply my research provided as to why I am making a theory. So with that being said, we will probably never know for sure what exactly Hamilton may have been suffering with. As trying to diagnose dead men from two hundred years ago is near impossible, especially with 18th century standards of how they dealt with mental health (Which was usually to just not deal with it at all). Hamilton never had a good track record for his mental health. He experienced many traumatic events since he was but a child in the Caribbean, so looking into Hamilton's life, it comes as no surprise when you start to realize he wasn't mentally stable.

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Hamilton was born a illegitimate son between his biological parents, James Hamilton and Rachel Faucette. This would already put a chain around his ankle and keep him dragged down by what he was born as, or at least what society saw him as; a nobody with no future. As being a bastard wasn't a kind title to have back then, and it would affect him throughout all of his life by political rivals, and just society itself. He would bury this part of his identity deep within. And his father leaving him, his brother, and mother behind in 1765. And then in 1768, when his mother would die besides him in bed. Soon after in 1769, his cousin, Peter Lytton, whom was caring for him and his brother, committed suicide. As the brothers would soon separate thereafter. In late 1772, a hurricane would tarnish his hometown island, leaving little left as well as hope.

Fast forward a few years and the Revolutionary War has spurred, Alexander Hamilton is aide de camp to General George Washington, stuck behind a desk as his hope for a military career to bless him a known name dwindles as war carries on without him. And then losing his lover and greatest friend from the war, John Laurens. But as time passes on, Hamilton was not a very liked man, and had many political rivals who sought-after the demise of his career. And then in 1802, his eldest son, Philip Hamilton, would fatally die in a duel against George Eacker, that Hamilton blamed himself for and would fall into a deep pit of depression afterwards. Not to mention his eldest daughters, Angelica Hamilton's, degrading mental health in the aftermath of her brother's death. Hamilton's depression would only worsen after the death of Washington.

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Depression

Depression plagued Hamilton much throughout his whole life. Many historians have noticed a type of maniac depression to his character. Example, famously known biographer, Ron Chernow, even called Hamilton "prey to depression". As far as I'm aware, only one biographer made the suggestion to Hamilton being bipolar, but many take it as the factual diagnosis for Hamilton's odd behavior patterns. Hamilton fell down rabbit holes of misery and dejection. He would have fits of depressive episodes, usually when something had tempted such emotions. He even once wrote to his lover, and greatest friend, John Laurens, of hating nearly everyone and everything in a fit of a despondency;

“I am chagrined and unhappy but I submit. In short Laurens I am disgusted with every thing in this world but yourself and very few more honest fellows and I have no other wish than as soon as possible to make a brilliant exit. ’Tis a weakness; but I feel I am not fit for this terrestreal Country.”

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We all know Hamilton as the founding father who wrote nonstop, but often Hamilton would go near pitch silent with his quill when he was in one of his depressions. For example, he wrote but only two (1. 2.) sentences in regards to Laurens' death. Which may seem purely insensitive to many, but it is more telling that Hamilton, the writing fanatic, hadn't wrote paragraphs of his sentiments. Hamilton would usually lock himself away, before then locking away his emotions and never looking back. As he couldn't bring himself to write on many traumatic subjects, for it was just too painful to bare. We see this pattern again, when Hamilton's eldest son, Philip Hamilton, died. Hamilton was very fond of his son, claiming him to be his "highest hope". So when nineteen year old Philip met his grave earlier in a duel against George Eacker, that Hamilton himself had advised he aim for the sky for, he fell into one of his darkest times. With the delay between condolence letters and the replies, it implies Hamilton had been greiving and unable to write back for several months at most. Until Hamilton would eventually have to move uptown to get away from the haunting memories of the city.

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Impulsivity/recklessness

But aside from depressional habits, Hamilton also had quite the tendency to be rash, reckless, and quick to anger, or hotheaded. He showed much recklessness throughout the war, Hercules Mulligan once recalled a raid, when everyone else had ducked for cover, Hamilton ran straight into an artillery bombardment to retrieve his gun. Or at Yorktown, now with a battlefield command, he paraded his troops in front of British cannons. Needless to say, Hamilton showed such little regard for his own life, being too caught up in the spirit of his emotional and rash decision making.

While many praise Hamilton for his outstanding work ethic, it can be argued that Hamilton's focus and pace bordered on excessive at periods. He wrote 51 essays for the federalist papers in the span of six months, made a 6 hour long speech at the Constitutional convention, and even help write the Constitution. One biographer apparently describing Hamilton, during this period, as "restless and depressed," and another "like he was on something."

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Temperamental

Hamilton also could be quite snappish and rude rather impulsively, as part of his fragile temperament and high esteem. His snappy correspondence with McHenry after the war is a great example, but also many others; such as the time Hamilton had temporarily, and impetuously, quit the army in spite of General Washington after a petty argument between the two. Washington had beckoned Hamilton to his office, and Hamilton promised to return after tending to other duties. Though after running into the Marquis De Lafayette, Hamilton stopped to discuss with his friend. Yet, upon his return, he instead welcomed by a furious Washington, as he recalls so in a letter to his father in law, Philip Schuyler;

“Instead of finding the General as usual in his room, I met him at the head of the stairs, where accosting me in a very angry tone, "Col Hamilton (said he), you have kept me waiting at the head of the stairs these ten minutes. I must tell you Sir you treat me with disrespect." I replied without petulancy, but with decision "I am not conscious of it Sir, but since you have thought it necessary to tell me so we must part" "Very well Sir, if it be your choice" or something to this effect and we separated.”

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Now let's go over the common symptoms of bipolar;

Mood: mood swings, sadness, elevated mood, anger, anxiety, apathy, apprehension, euphoria, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loss of interest, or loss of interest or pleasure in activities

Behavioral: irritability, risk taking behaviors, disorganized behavior, aggression, agitation, crying, excess desire for sex, hyperactivity, impulsivity, restlessness, or self-harm

Cognitive: unwanted thoughts, delusion, lack of concentration, racing thoughts, slowness in activity, or false belief of superiority

Psychological: depression, manic episode, agitated depression, or paranoia

Weight: weight gain or weight loss

Sleep: difficulty falling asleep or excess sleepiness

Many of these sound like our Hamilton, like manic episodes, depression, agitated depression, impulsivity, aggression, excess desire for sex, etc. So as much as we will never know for sure what had been going on in Hamilton's mind, or if he ever did truly have a bipolar disorder; there is notable behavior issues that have made some similarities. If not a bipolar disorder, it is safe to say Hamilton as least suffered from some type of manic depression.

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historical lams but barbie meme i drew a while ago💝

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demons won sorry 🥇

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the fact that Hamilton's go-to response to finding out John had a wife and child is to send him a letter requesting that he get him a wife while in south carolina is a level of petty that I can only DREAM of achieving. Listing everything he looks for in a woman to boot. There's no way Alexander didn't have a smug ass grin on his face while going into such detail on the kind of woman John oughtta fetch for him.

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