YES I’ve been chased and hissed at by a Canada goose but it doesn’t make me hate them guess I’m just built different

endless discourse cycle of "not doing drugs is pathetic loser behaviour" -> "making fun of people for not doing drugs is high school bully behaviour" would be resolved instantly if ppl simply recognised that doing drugs is like anorexia in that both are socially encouraged but only until you cross the line into disabled and/or unemployable

Osama bin Laden was a very interesting modern fusion of Agamemnon + Odysseus + Western Cowboy. He was so real that he didn't shave.

"torture the blonde man some more" sounds like House fandom (as for if it's Wilson or Chase -- both is good. )

Group chat with people talking about the eclipse and someone brought up Avatar. I now have ATLA zoomies about it I need to skip work and go rewatch it

a fact about me is that i was an early bloomer who hit puberty in elementary school and was immediately, obnoxiously horny in ways that were uncomfortable for everyone because no one is prepared for an elementary schooler with b cups and a deep fascination with movies where people get tied up. another fact is that because i was considered smart for my age in the ways that mattered, i just accepted all this as a single package, the many ways that i was not really a child the way other children were children but was instead a miniature adult. i was technically a child, but not really, as far as i was concerned. it also did not occur to me until around high school that i was fat, because i instead considered myself to be sturdy, to be buff, to be built like a tank.

so somewhere around middle school i am noticing the ways in which i am Not Like Other Girls, the ways in which i am not what society says a girl is and the ways that things marketed to girls do not appeal to me. i don't know how other girls dealt with this, but i very rationally decided that i was only technically a girl, in the way that i was only technically a child. so i looked at the things that did appeal to me, and that i did enjoy, and reverse engineered my demographic to decide that on a practical and functional level i was a middle-aged man. i had also gotten really hornily into wolverine because of the first x-men movie, and ended up reading a lot of comics, so as you can imagine the comic book version of wolverine who is short and built like a tank and older than he looks despite being for all intents and purposes a middle aged man really had some appeal to me.

there are idiots who say shit about how tomboys would be considered trans these days or whatever, but i can assure you that was not what was happening here. by middle school i already had to special order bras and i was fine with that because of the many weird fetishes i was developing, none of which can be blamed on the internet because i hadn't found that shit yet and also to this day you would have a hard time finding anything similar to the things i wrote in my secret notebook and immediately destroyed. the fact that i was technically a girl was vital to all this. media where there was a big reveal that some cool dude had been a hot chick the whole time was my shit. weird feral beast people who turned out to be hot women once they took a bath? fuck yes. i would never have cut my hair because that would have ruined my chances to take off a helmet and reveal that i had girl hair. at no point did i think i was anything but a girl, it was just that i was functionally a middle-aged man, who was a girl.

what this means is that i still liked all the things i already liked, such as leather jackets and comic books and anime and old stand-up comedy, but i also did extensive research on the other things i felt i should like according to the demographic i had assigned myself. i watched vh1's 'i love the 70s' with the air of someone trying to hide their amnesia, even though my parents were children in the 70s. i got into the beatles. i tried to get into cars for a while before accepting that i only liked the vintage car aesthetic and couldn't be fucked to know actual car facts. i wore nothing but cargo shorts and aloha shirts for a while, which didn't really stand out that much because it was middle school. i bought a fedora and became a libertarian atheist. i made plans to buy a motorcycle (i could not ride a bike).

i gave up on it after a while because quite frankly my titty situation meant there was never really going to be a big reveal that i'd been a girl the whole time. it was pretty obvious even with the cargo shorts. also the older of a teen i was, the more likely it felt that i could maybe get laid, except i could tell that was never going to happen as long as i kept wearing cargo shorts. it took longer to give up the fedora because it was leather and i wore it with my leather jacket and fingerless gloves, which i convinced myself worked a lot better after i'd gone full high school goth. i lived in the desert so you can imagine how well that worked out for me, smell-wise.

anyway that's how my female socialization went, i don't think it was particularly successful tbqh

"careful! thats fetish art!" girl you have no idea

NOT how the phrase goes !!!

I don't need to do this writing but on a spiritual level, I do. Unfortunately, it sucks ass.

i wish i was around to see the discourse over whether or not the hutu-tutsi conflict could even be called a "racial" conflict

Current list of regions surveyed for paper: Congo, Angola, Mozambique, Rhodesia, Chad, Cameroon, Fernando Poo, and Rwanda

I hate this.

I guess pelicans are technically birds....... but deep down i think they are Something Else. something much worse.

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i think women should get into polearms in a big way. not a lot of women in polearms these days. would love to see women doing battle with polearms.

hate when people try talking to me but refuse to speak loud enough for me to understand. like I'd love to hear tf you're on about but I'm not playing a QuicklTime event without the instructions for no reason, I did that enough growing up.

This is unvirtuous of me but "misinterpreting posts is a tool of right-wingers online" is hilarious to me.

transfem is just a gender, if ppl say they're transfem, then I believe them, regardless of what I might believe/know regarding their "ASAB" or "transition history". I assume there's some part of the gender which causes them to verbally identify as such and that I don't need to know why they ID the way they do. If they choose to share their reasons with me, it is a blessing, not an obligation.

Not to bring this up again but I keep seeing it

If you went from being tranamasc back to being a woman, you are not transfem. That's just called being cis. Perhaps you fit more into some kind of nonbinary identity that you wouldn't consider transmasc but wouldn't be just cis woman either. You're still not transfem. That's not what that word means.

I can't believe some people like Rei better than Asuka