back then, you were always someone who I pitied. our homeroom teachers told us the gist of your situation , and how we should treat you like anyone else regardless of it. but , rumors overrunned no matter how much your quiet voice denied it. why were you always like that , no matter how hard things were , you'd smile like everything else would work out. that part of you always pissed me off , and yet , I was jealous of you. my brother , mom , dad always scolded me because of my quick temper , I wish I didn't feel that way... but , I can still recall what you told me that day. ' I like that part of you eunji - ah , it's one of your charm points. ' my brother laughed , and so did our surrounding classmates, how could you say something so honestly like that? weren't you ashamed , embarrassed ? but I knew , from that look in your eyes , it was the earnest truth. little by little , I think I begun to understand why Hyungmin liked you so much , he probably would've denied it back then but he fell completely in love with you.

day by day , we'd get to know more & more about you. but , you , you never spoke of the truth about your transfer or even how long it was supposed to be. that's exactly who you are , isn't it ? never wanting to burden others , that you hide away even your true self behind closed bars. why couldn't you just be honest?! did you trust us that little , I'd doubt you would give me a straight answer even if I asked. once you left , things return back to its normal routine , going through school day by day , seasons soon shifting into graduation and my brother & I were finally graduated from middle school then some time in between my first year and my brother's second year , we hear word about you. not from you , no , that you had died in a drowning accident. then for years we were left with so many unanswered questions , was it really accident or did you intend to take your own life? hyungmin was completely destroyed by the news , and so was I. we'd always wonder , if we could do something more , would you still be alive ?

fast forward to present time, I'm working at my dream job and so is my brother , I recieve a call from him. thinking to myself , it was around the time he landed in fukuoka and I hear your name for the first time in years. my brother incapable of keeping his excitement to himself , and you on the other line of the phone. urging him to stop talking to loudly and to calm down , was it really you mi kyong ? did you come back from the dead to laugh at us , to make light of all the pain & agony we've been through. no , I shake my head. that isn't the type of person you are , I know this , I've known this. even so , even despite it all . I really cannot forgive you , no matter how much I've tried. mi kyong , am I horrible person aren't I ? resenting the woman who I thought to be dead all these years , and you come back once again . . . I've missed you so much .

list of npcs so far 

amane kido 

hikaru ito 

jeong-soo kim 

soo-bin park 

unnamed maid who worked for nao’s family 

 hyung-min chae 

eun-ji chae 

hana lee 

unnamed liquor supplier 

unnamed glass supplier 

unnamed masahiro’s old gang partner 

palin & arche’s boss 

numin & helio’s boss 

they say winter melts into spring , spring descends into fall , and so on. how I've watched each season pass by , there wasn't a single moment where I hadn't thought about you. the time we spent together in classes weren't as hopeless as your desolate eyes whispered to me , a myriad of unspoken emotions and words appear on your peach stained cheeks. back then , I wonder , even if I had all of the information and experiences would I been able to make you smile more? or would things simply remain the same.

memories as vivid as the day they happened , I still recall it fondly. your first day , a transfer in the middle of the school term. it was unusual as your circumstances , to think so many days passed us by and once we never saw you smile or chuckle. considering all that you went through , it was no wonder , you'd survived hell but paid for it. kids that age , rumors run rapid , no matter how much you'd tried to fan the flames they always flare up. our first meeting , was a prime example of that. I'll admit , my actions , I wish I could take them back . idiotic adolescent taking ahold of my logic & reason , coming at you like that . that was the last thing I wanted to do , the complete opposite really.

it's funny , I can still remember your surprised face. still , you didn't push me away after that , even if my efforts after that were less than . . . let's say respectable. but , you always seemed to laugh afterwards , you always had such a pretty smile. we'd made memories like most students would , but , the thing is you stayed pretty secretive even until the very end. your final year , it was almost like you regressed into your old ways. holding onto your emotions , there was stop that laid in your throat unable to come forward to say anything at all.

do you remember our promise ? that if you'd ever need help or if things were too much for you , you would call my name. I wonder if you even think of me , I've never stopped. even when I saw your name on the news , that you were . . . gone , I'd always hold that to you. you can call it foolish or even stupid , Eun-ji called me so much worse . until then , I'll be waiting for your call . mi kyong

another lifeless day in the studio , you'd just finished your meeting with the producers & the rest of your members. hearing comments about how listless and distracted you'd been , only to dismay such concerns with harsh retorts and atypical behavior. but in reality , you've known for long time why you've been so distant. opening up your instant messenger and seeing your last conversations with her , pink covering the majority of your face and cheeks. a natural smile finding it's rightful place.

they read as such ( mi kyong ) : really ! all sorts of things went wrong today ( mi kyong ) : and they call themselves adults too ! masa and kazu can be soooo childish ( mi kyong ) : but they've known each other forever so that's expected ( you ) : loool ( you ) : I'm sure it'll work out today ( you ) : after all , you always do ( mi kyong ) : hehe you always know how to cheer me up soo-bin ! ( mi kyong ) : I hear your group is getting more popular ( mi kyong ) : lots of our customers talk about you and how attractive you are lol ! ( mi kyong ) : keep working hard , I'll make sure to buy your album (●´ω｀●)

& like that , your heart is set ablaze once more. strange , just simple conversations such as this is enough to set a spark all throughout yourself . for centuries , no one has ever made you feel in such a way , but , you're completely enamored aren't you ? wondering if she at all held any special thoughts of you , while you weren't there ? thinking about the way mi kyong smiled , laughed , and even pouted . truly , you've been charmed .

if you could , fly right to her door and just bask in being WITH her . you'd do it in a heartbeat , most times she seemingly kept you together from the words of encouragement. an angel in disguise , pondering and wondering . as you fall asleep , yearning to meet with her once again , in your dreams.

the gentle strumming of the guitar lets your breathe hitch , recalling all sorts of memories without string nor pattern to them . for a moment , thoughts becoming jumbled as you figure out the unwritten melodies that’ll one day become a ballad . how long had it been since you’ve reflected …? after all , you’ve observed and watch humans throughout the decades and even centuries , never once becoming attached to a single one. using those who were the least irritating as food supply , then suddenly it comes to a halt . a single image of a certain person who you remember from the concert that happened a year after your debut . the shop’s name , meraki & there standing in the doorway was mi kyong . hair & eyes blossomed akin to that of spring , it’d scent tickling your senses as you just stare at her . still recalling what exactly charmed you so much , one comment about how you appeared to be as lost as alice & that your hair at the time was that of a rabbit . it was nothing of note & neither should she had been , cheeks soon turning a crimson as you think more and more about each interactions you two share . leaning back and looking up at your company’s studio , wondering what other things mi kyong had left to tell . excited laughter and smiles cannot help but adorn your expression , 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓶𝓸𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓬𝓴 

there’s certain laughter to him , all of jeong-soo’s experience & existence as a human has always been a game . hands dirtied with the countless others who they’ve harmed & continue to do so , any sort of empathy or sympathy comes off as a jest or even mockery . that is to say , it was . one singular encounter , unexplainable by all means & perhaps this was divine intervention at it’s finest , regardless , someone finally saw jeong-soo for what he’s been all along . 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮, perhaps it was the way she looked at he or even the purity that still swam within those honey-soaked eyes , for countless weeks then into months he’d ponder about why her words & hers alone strike such a fierce fire within his frame . existing for countless years & meeting what seemed to be the same people with every generation . however , here stood a complete & utter disruption to the flow , jeong-soo’s flow . an outlier even. there wasn’t anything unique or even breathtaking about mi kyong , no no , appearance wise she was just that , a typical woman in her twenties . aflutter reached him at long last , that nervousness before you gave a presentation or even meeting someone you’d never seen before . his voice closing up & head dizzied with the thought of even being around she , at long last , you’ve been beaten . however , to you , 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓫𝓮𝓰𝓾𝓷 .