Hi I say your rahu reblog, can you tell me about Rahu in 1st house ?

Definitely!

Independent thought process

Intelligent and smart

Possibly a fame indicator

Could be obsessed with oneself unless Jupiter aspects it

Placement of a narc

Could hinder marriage as ketu is in 7th unless Jupiter aspects it or forms any association

Besides marriage the independent nature could be a problem for any kind of partnership

Brave and assertive

Outcasts , potential to break the barriers of the society

Do somthing extraordinary

Type to not follow crowds

Very ambitious, want recognition

Self conscious

Indication of obsession with partners

Its aspect on 5th causes too many relationships, could cause fame online

Its aspect on 9th makes one spiritual and religious but not in a common way

Could live in foreign region

Earn money from foreign land

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Venus trine Midheaven description?

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this aspect does make you a person who is very much interested in beauty, arts, crafts, and decoration. you have a natural harmonious nature and diplomatic. you might be a person who usually isn’t jealous or competitive. trines in astrology are the aspects that are part of your personality, the aspects that you put no effort into displaying. no tension ✨🦋

you could be popular at your workplace or you could be very much well-liked by the public. you do have this natural charm so there is no forcing this part of yourself. you could have a career surrounding venus-like topics. like makeup, decoration, food, pleasure, the public (socializing), crafts and other venusian-like things. you could also be very attractive ✨🥭

it’s possible for your career to tie up to your love life or relationships. you might be well-known because of a partner you are with. you could have a career surrounding relationships, or you might have a career with a partner 💕✨

since venus is in the midheaven, and midheaven = 10th house, 10th house = saturn. you could also be a person who is “married to their career”. you are very devoted to your occupation and you find beauty in being successful and respected by others and leaving a legacy that way. you might even be a person who is too devoted to your career to a point where you might not focus on your love life as often ✨🌊

when you do fall in love, you are very much devoted and serious towards the person you are with. you are usually loyal unless there are other aspects disrupting that. you could also have high standards like, you would only probably date a successful and rich person. you might date older people or have older friends too ✨🌞

you could also be a natural manipulator in a way because your charm is natural and you can have others give you whatever you want without trying. you are adored. the downside is you could have jealous, malicious coworkers or rivals, possibly feminine energies. not necessarily females but feminine energies in general. it’s possible to have enemies or rivals too ✨🐝

it’s possible for you to not feel like you’re not well liked at your workplace or for your career and you could just work a career where you don’t enjoy it if not careful and it’s possible for you to be lazy ✨🐞

as much as i loathe myself— i know that i was meant to be an older sister. no one could do this better than me. i am the only one who can handle the deterioration of my mother, the ruination of my parents marriage, the way my childhood slipped through my fingers. i am the glue of my immigrant household, the only one who can take a stand against my father, console my mother while healing from her, and parent my brothers so they can grow ur with a whole heart.

am i actually an aroace or am i just really scared and repulsed by any relationships and/or commitment because of my mommy issues, being the eldest “daughter” and other mental issues related to previous two?: a book by me

I have gone from being the “best sister ever” and the “worst person in the whole wide world” like six times today and let me tell you it is exhausting to be this criminally manipulative

I fought tooth and nail to make my mom the good one in my story, for my dad took the title of villain.

As I aged, the silhouettes of the villain and savior blurred, unable to distinguish the difference anymore. 

One soft and tender in their damage, the other sharp and jagged. 

My father made me bleed out quick and fast, with no time to mourn what wasn’t.

My mother made me bleed out slowly, a trickle, unnoticed until I was on the floor, too late to patch the wound. 

I am the mosaic of my parents, born into anger that wasn’t mine, held in tender loving arms. 

Until I wasn’t. 

I love my parents, forever and always. 

Only my love now carries a first aid kit to patch wounds, mine and theirs.

Sorry for reacting on the spot and speaking my true feelings. That wasn't very empath-therapist-friend of me.

It rly hurt as an eldest daughter realizing at an extremely young age that ur parents can’t rly be parents, and feeling like it’s ur duty to care for ur siblings so that they never feel as shitty as u felt and never get as damaged as u did. it’s rly hard when all u wanna do is just leave and start a whole new life just for urself, but u feel like u can’t just leave ur siblings in the hands of ppl who won’t know how to handle them properly. u feel like u can’t leave those same ppl to their own devices either, bc u realized how hurt and vulnerable they rly are, how they’re just like kids and need someone to talk to(especially ur mother), how they are failed. even if they treated u like shit, u as an eldest daughter took the time to see where all their anger came from, even if they never did the same to understand u as u did for them. as an eldest daughter u feel u owe them the happiness that u think they got depraved of bc of u, even if they never showed u an ounce of that compassion like u do them. so then u realize u will probably always be split between this crushing feeling of duty as an eldest sister/daughter, and wanting to be ur own free person, the way u never got to be. it’s realizing ur too scared to leave, bc u don’t know if u could handle the guilt, the pain of feeling like ur selfish, like u betrayed the ppl who need u most, like u failed at ur job of being there for them, like u broke the family bc u had the burden of holding it together. it sucks when no one ever acknowledges the amount of mental energy, how much of urself u lose, how much pain and damage u sustain of being the one thing holding the family together, the only person who even bothers to be there for everyone, even if ur the one who got the most mistreatment and got failed over and over again. how much pure strength it takes, when ur not even there for urself, when u loathe urself to no end, when ur constantly on the edge of just giving up, when ur barely functioning to keep urself together.

To all eldest daughters and sisters: I see you. I see you, and I know how fucking hard it is. You were always doing an amazing job, even if this job wasn’t yours to do. I’m sorry u got failed. I’m sorry u feel invisible and like u have to be perfect just to get crumbs of acknowledgment. I acknowledge you. I wish u find happiness, I wish u find urself. I wish u will find ppl that would love u unconditionally, that would acknowledge you, make you feel special. Because you are special. You deserve all the love and happiness in the world.

It's terrible knowing that if I ever show sadness or show anything emotion that's not positive towards anything whether it's my fault or not I'll either get blamed for it or told that my emotions are irrational.

On Being an Eldest Daughter

Surface Pressure, Encanto // Mother, Florence + The Machine // Class of 2013, Mitski // Breathe, In the Heights // Mama Who Bore Me, Spring Awakening // @queeerpride​ // Mirrorball, Taylor Swift // Mommy Issues: Unlearning Inherited Pain, Joan Tierney

The eldest daughter urge to "move away from home and cut off her family"

Peace be upon the daughter who helped her parents grow up. Accepted their cold shoulder, excused their anger, pardoned their mistakes, taught them how to be human. Peace be upon the sister who paid the price of rebellion. Screaming to her fullest, shaking like a leaf but standing tall, never letting the dictatorship go without a fight, paving the path for her siblings to breathe easier. Peace be upon the first child of an immigrant father. Aching to find their own purpose in life, firm in their own beliefs, contradicting generations and generations of cultural values. Peace be upon the girl who shouldered her mother's trauma. Swindled it into her own, morphed herself into an image of the womb she once resided in, immersed herself into troubles that weren't even hers, covered up scars that she couldn't even recognize. Peace be upon the woman who forgot who she was. So determined to be the savior of everyone, to fix her family, to nurture and love everyone around her. So deeply lost that she forgot she's just as worthy of love. Peace be upon you.

Hello Ellie! Loving the unfolding of your series. Can you please give your thoughts on having natal sun in the 4th house? Thank you so much! Take care🌙☀️

Hello love. Thank you so much for the love and support. And sure, I can.

Sun in the 4th house

These natives are introverted and observant in nature, they keep their words only for those they trust and could give the impression of being somewhat shy. They are people who are in close contact with their emotions and know how to express them in a charismatic and nice way. They like the people they love to feel comfortable being themselves and opening their hearts to them in case something has happened to them. They stand out for being very loyal people who seek stability and a sense of security. Ironically, they give that feeling to others very easily. They are very generous people, and one of their love languages ​​can be sharing food and personal memories. They always listen carefully to people and are very perceptive, their intuition is strong and they can sense the true state of mind of other people.

It is very likely that one of the parents has filled the role of the other in the native's perspective, and something that can be very key is that the native's personality was forged by a relationship with one or both of the parents. They are very reserved people, who regardless of whether they were marked positively or negatively by their childhood and past, they prefer to keep it to themselves. It can be difficult for them to feel that they really formed a bond, this because despite providing a lot of comfort and love to others, they very rarely feel that they are reciprocated. They give themselves totally to what they think is worthwhile and will always be willing to protect and help those they love. They love introspection and analyzing themselves, everything that involves getting to know themselves more would be always treasured by them.

They tend to dislike noisy environments and people who raise their voices a lot when they speak, they are people who prefer to have that feeling of inner peace. They tend to feel comfortable with strong, fun but loving people. Leo people may be significant to the native and they may have some Cancer traits. Their home is very special to them, and not necessarily the one they grew up in, rather the one they want to form, they are people looking for a comfortable place to spend a quiet night. Their personality is somewhat melancholy, and they may have trouble putting the past behind. They may experience some emotional swings frequently or be very sensitive to other people's emotions. They are mysterious, discreet and very cautious, so you can ensure that your secrets will be safe.

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naw im reading my placements again. i just realized i have my saturn in 1st house in tropical/whole sign).

Hello! Can you do a post on Saturn in 1st house? Thank you, much appreciated!

Hello, of course I can.

Saturn in the 1st house

With a melancholic and tired gaze, with a tendency to walk stopped and that peculiar way of contemplating their surroundings and the people close to them, these natives seem to be always alert and suspicious of the true intentions of other people. Calm, introspective and introverted in personality, these natives may have had to mature from an early age and consciously or unconsciously give up their childhood. They are very cunning people who you cannot fool easily since there is not an ounce of ingenuity in them. They like to give the impression of being in control of everything in their lives, even of themselves, even in those times when they feel that they are falling apart, they prefer to keep it quiet and not depend on anyone.

With a tendency to never show all sides of their complex personality for fear of being judged for their vulnerability or playful side or simply because the people they are with do not inspire enough confidence. They are somewhat pessimistic people in the eyes of others, but they prefer to call themselves realistic. Always trying to keep your feet on the ground. Being the 1st house the house of appearance and personality, these natives may have problems accepting themselves and being overly critical about themselves, since in their eyes they do not do enough or they can always do something better, for this reason they do not know how to respond to compliments or do not know how to accept them.

It is very likely that they have experienced many difficulties since their early age, from problems of coexistence with their family, economic problems, the absence of the father figure or on the contrary, the excess of their father figure, these natives may feel not only heaviness when remembering their past, but also a certain emptiness in themselves, especially when seeing that inner child that they tend to constantly repress. People are often intimidated by them because of the seriousness with which they interact with their environment, in addition to that, that attitude of being fine on their own and not depending on anyone. Their appeal is something intense and refined.

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“I had two longings and one was fighting the other. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to be always alone.”

~ Jean Rhys