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I was searching for this on my blog and I realized I never posted it 😭

Birthday boy 🎂

they’re so cuuuuuutttteee

till the sun goes up

never ask a woman her age a man his salary your mutual how late it is in her timezone when she starts posting about that bisexual man

ive been thinking a lot about how the pjo universe will continue and truthfully I dont think it can (in a meaningful way) until rr commits to actually taking a stance on tlo and moving forward accordingly. tlo wasn't really a victory, percy didn't reform anything. he managed to get zeus to make a tiny concession that, when you think about it, benefits the gods much more than it does their children. I mean... claiming is a meaningful gesture and all, but thats really all it is. the whole pay your child support joke is funny, but claiming their kids doesn't amount to offering any of the structural support that would actually substantially improve their lives.

what's interesting is how ingrained it is in the culture of chb how they define themselves by who their parents are. depending on how devoted they are, who their godly parent is influences their opinions and perceptions of themselves and others. (see the percabeth poseidon/athena rivalry and how the camp started to split up into its own mini war in tlt). those kids, no matter whether they've even met their parents, clearly shape some aspects of their identity around their parent.

keeping in mind that the gods and their power are derived from worship, and how their kids practice their own form of worship simply by existing, claiming them strengthens them inherently. not to mention that the gods use their kids to do things they couldn't themselves, like percy being poseidons hail mary to stop the war in tlt.

meanwhile gods are forbidden from interfering with human fate, demigods are still in danger from monsters and are trapped by fate and prophecy and even if the gods do break their oaths, they dont even really suffer for it.

tlo is a really bitter victory against a force they cannot defeat and cannot strongarm into changing.

I am convinced that none of the series post pjo have worked because none of them can commit on what the ending of tlo really means.

if the thesis statement is that demigods are just doomed by the narrative, which is what's hinted at, then fucking commit to that and make it a tragedy. rr cant do that however because it doesn't at all fit into how he writes, so right now all the series are stuck in a place where theyre either standalone adventures in the pjouniverse (tsats, cotg) that function more as companion novels to the main series, or series (hoo, toa) whose conclusion is that yeah things do sure suck but theres fuck all I can do about it.

its a tragedy thats not allowed to be a tragedy, which means that even if the books are fun on an individual level, in an overarching aspect they are infested with this depressing resignation, where characters have resigned themselves to be content with how things are. characters arent allowed to be upset because if theyre allowed to be angry that anger has to lead somewhere which its never does.

the universe is standing at a crossroads between 'overthrowing the gods/changing the status quo' and ' commit to the tragedy of what it means to be a hero' and and we haven't moved forward since the last olympian was published.

if u pay attention there are themes and motifs on my blog

The Tawny Man trio

Since the r-slur is making a comeback (you know, the word that starts with R, has six letters, and ends in D), I'm gonna make a little PSA:

Yes, it's an ableist slur.

Terms like "asshat," "head-up-ass," "up their own ass," and "high on their own farts" exist. There's also words like crap, dogshit, half-assed, assclown, and chucklefuck. And on the less vulgar side, there are terms like ridiculous, nonsense, train wreck, pointless, insipid, self-absorbed, pretentious, annoying, boring, contemptible, vile, and disgusting.

Substituting words like restarted, poptarted, brain damaged, smoothbrain, etc. is still ableist, because either 1. you obviously still mean the r-word, or 2. you're still using disability as an insult.

"the coolest fantasy archetype is the normal human guy who's just so good at physical combat that he can keep up with everyone else" wrong, it's actually the wizard who suddenly reveals they can do that

Shapeshifter who gets horribly grotesque and mutilated when flustered

sleeping with a knife beside me in bed, not because i’m afraid but because it is like a lover to me

tea break chil 🍵