I could not avoid the bewildering discovery that at twenty I was already an anachronism.

Yukio Mishima ֍ Mishima: A Biography (1974) 

Dispersarse a voluntad

antes que cualquiera en el mundo.

Ser el primero en decir:

«la naturaleza de una flor es su caída».

Sopla leve una tormenta en la noche.

Yukio Mishima

- Eikoh Hosoe, "Ordeal By Roses" 1961

Watched Mishima : A life in four chapters.

A fantastic movie about a quite frankly a bizarre man. This movie did a great job at trying to convey the life and ideas of an extremely dedicated man dedicated to insane ideals. It also excellently displays his infatuation with ideas of beauty and how it relates to the human form. The vignettes that are based off his novels act as his own personal anecdotes. We see his own ideals bleed from his inner thoughts onto paper and now on film. We see his feelings of beauty, masculinity and femineity and nationalistic ideals throughout them all.

The cinematography and sets where also insane, like look at this.

I'm definitely gonna continue to ruminate on this movie to try and refine my understanding of the movie. These are just my initial thoughts, I'll have to rewatch it sometime soon and like maybe take notes to really get it get it.

Yukio Mishima with his cats

When a boy…discovers that he is more given into introspection and consciousness of self than other boys his age, he easily falls into the error of believing it is because he is more mature than they. This was certainly a mistake in my case. Rather, it was because the other boys had no such need of understanding themselves as I had: they could be their natural selves, whereas I was to play a part, a fact that would require considerable understanding and study. So it was not my maturity but my sense of uneasiness, my uncertainty that was forcing me to gain control over my consciousness. Because such consciousness was simply a steppingstone to aberration and my present thinking was nothing but uncertain and haphazard guesswork.

yukio mishima, confessions of a mask

Yukio Mishima as Saint Sebastian, 1968, by Kishin Shinoyama.

[...] to encounter reality in some field where words should play no part at all.

— Yukio Mishima, Sun and Steel

Yukio Mishima tribute + + +

The Death of a Gymnast / The Wall.

Yukio Mishima: The Death of a Man Photography by Kishin Shinoyama