You have become my constant dream,

Gone by morning.

I fear turning into a nightmare.

some people laugh at your misery

some imply you're overreacting

only a few make a call and offer to listen

gusto kong kumalma

kailangan kong kumalma

pero tang ina hindi kaya

It's so fucked up when elders would always shut you up.

Sinungaling ka. TANGINA MO.

What has been need not always be.

-elf

I hoped it's forever and a day. Now, come what may.

You can never really tell what life can bring unto you. But one thing's for sure, you either consume what you've been given or let what you've been given, consume you.

Cry, if it makes you feel good after a while. (?)

Learn, if after all the crying, worst feelings are all you earn.

Relationships should be relationshits. I'm grateful for the learnings though but yet to throw bad feelings.

Sometimes, books do the comforting.

Self-control is a nice thing to have, invest in it.

I had the urge to hurt myself before. But no, I didn't want to take my leave that way. Truth is, it felt to me an escape away from all the negative emotions consuming me. Physical pain was the comfort I thought that is only within my reach.

I was so obsessed with having control over everything that I have missed out on everything else that truly matters to me.

Ignoring red flags is my best trait.

You didn't have to make your shitty attitude so well-known. Now, I am shattered, my trust in pieces scattered in the ground under my feet. Stepping away is helpless, so I stared at it almost lifeless.

Yung taong mahigit limang taon ko nang iniiwasan, nangamusta bigla, ok naman kako, napanaginipan daw niya ako, ayun kinamusta lahat lahat naninigurado.

Hindi ko akalain na sa ilang linggong wala na akong mailuha, biglang bumuhos na lang dahil lang sa isang kamusta.