Sadly I’ve lost even more weight since I started this blog. Surely that’s unacceptable to someone right? Surely someone would find this and figure out something to hold over me so I get put on a *new* diet and make all of it come back. Surely someone would take control of my diet and force me to eat everything they desire as punishment for losing so much weight. Right? Nahhhhh no feeder is sadistic enough to do that.

Reblog if it’s cool for people to stuff feedee/feeder comments/questions/messages in your ask box!

These posts that I’ve been making about being blackmailed into getting fatter. They aren’t just some fantasy. I am completely serious about wanting someone to enact that on me and make my weight entirely under their control.

The problem with me having control is that I make good decisions. I stay away from bad foods. I exercise. My common sense is just too strong. I need someone to override that voice in my head, because I won’t do it of my own volition. Really I shouldn’t have control of those things. Will it be you to take that control from me? Who knows. You could always see for yourself!

Thinking again about the idea of someone threatening to expose everything on here to the public unless I do exactly as they ask.

The idea of not technically being forced to eat yet being compelled to anyways just for my safety, as everyone around me starts to take note of my spiral back into obesity, until I’m unable to ignore it further and am just the fatty.

And it happens so quickly, but it’s not like I have a choice. Wouldn’t it be so silly if someone did that?

Gaining weight, getting fatter, stuffing myself. Those are things which only feel good to me if they aren’t my decision. Someone *needs* to take that option away from me. I don’t want to get fat. I want to *be* fattened by any means necessary, and I don’t want the option of escape.

It would be so fun if a feeder met up with me and we did some fun feeding session together but without me realizing it they take pics and videos of my gluttony then threaten to send everyone I know them unless I become their full time feedee with them controlling everything I do

Recently I’ve been absolutely obsessed with the idea of being blackmailed into abandoning weight loss and just returning to my highest weight again and then some, and the fantasy just gets stronger and stronger by the day, to the point where all I need is just one person to “convince” me to go back on my weight loss. I think about getting something like my most embarrassing information handed off to someone and the only way they’ll avoid leaking it is if I eat 8,000 calories today. God… I need it.