ReBlog,pls!

It hurt even more the second time damn.

"he stopped for a little bit and cry for a little bit"

chapter 29 + 36 vs. chapter 116 + 127

these panels are rlly sick bc you can see how naive fushi was, stubbornly clinging onto his past relations. death was still a relatively new concept for him, especially as he saw how his friends would die and he couldn’t; as if to make matters worse, he’s able to take on their forms once they’ve died. after renryrr five hundred years ago, fushi has been more closed off, but he’s still stubborn about his relations. what’s changed is that he’s no longer open about them as he had been when gugu, rynn, and beer gramps were alive. he is more cynical; but that’s not surprising, bc he was friends w someone like kahak, who had questionable morals and came from an even more dubious background. but as i covered in another post, fushi saying “and i think that’s for the best” about kahak’s death and march’s responding “i thought we could be friends” are more complicated matters than either of them will or can admit. 

when it comes to gugu, it’s easy because gugu has only came to fushi w pure intentions and they knew exactly where they stood with each other. they lived and grew up with each other; trust is easy to build up in this situation, especially when they both knew they were different from other people. in chapter 36, black hood says that gugu chose to hasten his death to save fushi, “in a way, suicide.” kahak did the same thing; this is part of what fushi struggles with, because kahak had killed fushi’s friends multiple times and was technically involved in fushi’s murder as well. does this final act of love overwrite the bad, though? fushi wants it to. bestbonnist mentioned this before, but fushi “glosses over the murdery aspects of kahak’s personality.” while it still hurts him, fushi has become familiar enough with death to look the other way for kahak at this point. fushi wants everything defined clearly, but that’s impossible to do with people. 

despite everything, fushi still reaches out for people, bc fushi has humanity (which kahak had wanted to protect). you can see this in how he saves yuuki from a knocker flinging him toward a building, or mizuha from a different knocker in chapters 134.5 and 139. when he brings his friends back to life in the modern era, he’s clinging onto them. when he goes out of his way to appease mizuha, he’s clinging onto kahak. their relationship shows how fushi looks at mizuha in the one-dimensional light he wants to cast kahak in, which is good for none of the involved parties.

I don’t really have any insights other than that moments like these absolutely warm my heart and that they were probably really foundational for how Kahak felt about Fushi. It’s also very sad and very funny that this is how Kahak reacts to basic kindness/someone even remotely believing in his capabilities.

i want kahaku back *BANGS FISTS ON THE TABLE*

I want them to go on a (grocery) shopping date

Anybody remember this?

It’s one of the best musical/music video/albums ever!

Interstellar 5555, Daft Punk, around 2006 (i think)

True love doesn’t mean you have to know each other that well, you just have to connect on a level so deep that only the two of you can understand why it works. If you choose to love someone, love them the Daft Punk way.

Animation Cels for Interstella 5555…fucking gorgeous.

Interstella 5555: The 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ystem

Okay but I really dig the producer from Daft Punk’s Interstella 5555

I MEAN LOOK AT HOW CUTE HE IS

SO EXCITED

SO HAPPY ABOUT HIS JOB

HE DESERVES THIS POSITION

HOW CAN YOU TRY TO SCAM THIS POOR SOUL?

And then when it’s discovered how evil the white haired dude is, he totally helps them out to get back home

AND HE KEEPS A PICTURE OF HIM AND THE CRESCENDOLLS ON HIS DESK

Tbh this is the kindest cutest anime character to have come into existence