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michael-ss0718 · 6 months

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26th and it sucks! 🤬🎉

I finally entered my late 20s.... which is insane and heartbreaking 🤣 I don't even look up to this day anymore cause I feel like it comes just to add a count to my age and inflict more body pains to myself! HAHAHA!

Kidding aside! I realized that my Father is exactly my age when he had me and that made me look back and think on how responsible and hardworking he must have been to be able to raise and support 2 kids at that time. Simply fascinated and amazed by that fact cause I can never! 🤣

I also just want to express how I feel more calm and at peace today compared to my previous birthdays where I feel giddy and very excited to read and reply to a whole bunch of greetings posted on my SNS that awaits me. I am not trying to be so dramatic cause I genuinely feel normal right now—no expectations, no hopes, no wish and no everything! Maybe this is how it feels to be confident and satisfied.

I think I learned to be self-sufficient and attained self-fulfillment this year. Maybe because I land on a good job, is comfortable and happy with my current self that I just don't mind other peoples opinion anymore. I am not saying that I have accomplished it all but more of I'm on the right path, taking toddlers steps that grows bigger each time.

I would say, I'm on the state where I feel more confident and contented about myself. Like I know I'm doing something to finally move or even leap forward for my future. Dang! I honestly feel like I matured a lot this year and is healthier mentally and spiritually unlike my old ragged self (I didn't include my physical state cause I feel terribly old and it keeps on kicking its way in. Lol)

I suddenly can't wait on my succeeding years. I hope I can stay composed and unbothered by next year. I am so looking forward for my growth but not to the point where I wanna rush things. This time, I want to taste every little bits of the moment as much as I can. I want to be free from all the dramas I have been into for such a long time now and would love to enjoy, cherish and savour the rest of my future life to my satisfaction.

To my future children, let's meet in my 30s, hopefully! I wanna enjoy life alone—a little bit more! 🤡😜 and I wanna make sure that you will not suffer and experience what I jave gone through in this lifetime. If ever, I gave birth to you all, I want you, my children, to be comfortable, priced, well fed and loved and I will make sure of that when the right time comes! But for now! Give Daddy a bit more of time to save and plan for your future.

Lastly, Papa! I love you so much! I am very happy that I finally visited you last week. I hope you feel good as well because I really am. Thank you for the comfort and warmth you've always embraced me with. I can feel it, still up until today! I'm very excited and anticipating a lot to see you again but not anytime sooner. Please bear with me this time! 🙇 Cause I seldom feel this great about myself. Let me enjoy it a bit more and as always, I am asking for your everlasting unconditional love and guidance!

Please send my prayers to god as well. I hope he can guide me through it all to achieve my dream and goal to purchase my own Home. I promise to work even harder, to take care of myself and to give it my all. I won't disappoint!

Michael John Angelo Delos Santos Gemina will not disappoint! I will work hard with determination for it! So please guide and look after me Papa! I love you to eternity and beyond! 👨‍👧💕

11.18.2023 - 11:02PM - SATURDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 11 months

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My Greatest 'Regret' in Life 💔

Coming here again after a long while to pour my heart and soul once more.

I'm writing right now to free myself from my disappointments, sorrow and regrets. It is also a way for me to put my thoughts into words that may hopefully serve as a remembrance of all the unexplored pent up feelings I've kept all these years.

This platform has always served as a safe haven for my well hidden thoughts and realization in life; So coming here felt like a declaration that I'm very much ready to be all dramatic and vulnerable again after a long while. Hahaha!

Before I finally start, I just wanna say that this emotions I'm having right now is influenced by the heartbreaking and heartwarming outburst Anri & Beau had in the latest chapter of 'Giving You Wildfire' which is Kabanata 44.

It was like an intesified splash of water directly thrown at me, to awaken my long hidden and almost lost dark emotions, longing and thoughts I never knew I had. It feels like a realization, that I'm not completely oblivious nor did I purposely forgot everything that occured back then...Rather it's more of my defense mechanism working on its own... without my consent... to protect me from the devastation and crying mess I could have been almost 11 years ago if I have known it earlier than now.

Memories of my final conversation and interaction with my father flashes back to me like a high-speed blinding lights coming from an extremely fast vehicle as if wanting me to remember what truly happened before. It was like a glimpse, more so, a vision of my past that's showing me an actual footage of what actually transpired back then.

It was a very detailed and highly informative scene of why I ended up only saying "Papa, yung memory card huh. Akin nalang. Wag mo pong kalimutan" instead of going up to him to have better conversation. All these years, I really thought I was just one ungrateful child who only wanted what I eagerly wants that day. Yet, upon having a ran through of my own vision, I realized that I purposely mentioned it like that, like a reminder—quick and suggestive because my father was sleeping that time on our sofa after a long arduous time at work and I refuse to disturb him. I was so afraid to wake him up completely and disrupt his already light sleep for my rubbish so I ended up spouting those words at the door before I left for school.

This mere thought really brought me to tears... Not only because I miss him and felt guilty for my lack of affection and interaction with him that day but because I finally know now that I have chosen to be considerate and caring that morning. IF only I knew that those were my last moments and conversation with him, I would have never leave his side no matter what and will stick to him like a glue until he gets irritated, mad then angry. Deep inside I know my father can't and won't be angry at me for doing such thing and for some reason that idea comforted me so much.

The mere fact of me knowing what my father's reaction's going to be put me at peace. It feels like an assurance that he never blamed me for being a naughty and persistent kid as he knew me so well as his son. And because we shared this invisible and unbreakable bond that connected us together closely... to the point of knowing each other's thoughts without talking about it.

That for him, I was never naughty... maybe too curious and overly inquisitive but not to point where he hated me for it. Even when it seemed like he's irritated and mad at times, it doesn't necessarily meant he despised me for it. Because... I just realized that my father knew me better the way I knew him best. It's the fatherly devotion and love that he's given me since childhood that made him earned and developed those natural instincts when it comes to looking through me. And I can't be more than proud and happy for that. Because I know that I was greatly loved, appreciated and taken cared of as a child. After all, My father has always been my biggest support and ally up to this date.

One last thing. Just incase you're here with me while I'm writing this. I just wanna let you know that I didn't ran up directly to your arms when I saw you outside after you returned from Boracay but instead immediately rushed back to our house becaue I'm so excited to tell our Family that you're finally back! I may have not said all my affectionate and loving words to you before (which I deeply repented) but I want you to know that you're the greatest and the most valuable person in my life. I will love you for eternity and beyond lifetime Papa.

I still have lots of things to say, but I just wanna mention that I would forever love and treasure you Papa for being the greatest father I could ever have. I would never ever ever exchange you for anything and is more than willing to sacrifice everything for you.

Rest in Peace, Papa! Always take care and you don't have to worry about me.

Remember that I'm Roger Murallon Gemina's son. So I'm capable of doing everything! I'm confident because I know you trust me and always have my back =)

Lastly, I love you so much! and I really miss you! I will take care till we finally meet again! ♡

06.09.23 - 07:38AM - FRIDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 2 years

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Our Yesterday's Escape...

Woahh~ what a traumatic ride. Although I was spoiled early on with its ending, I never thought I would go through those heart-wrenching and sorrowful experiences just because I was prepared and long expected them. I guess, I'm totally wrong...

This is one of the most memorable story I have ever read this year. I mean, isn't it obvious? it made me revive my Tumblr account and finally write another piece of my story after almost a year because I was completely swept away by how memorable, inspirational and heartbreaking this is.

I would like to always remember this story as something that marked a change for me; something that extremely influenced and inspired me to move forward with life and continue striving for myself. So as I look back I would know that it once ignited a fire inside of me to be who I will become in the future.

It was both an inspiration and traumatic experience for me. It made me realize all sorts of things, made me reminisce, hope, love, forgive, appreciate and re-evaluate everything in life... and it also provided me so much heartbreaks, pains, guilt, worries, sorrow, agony, disappointments and repentance—I would never thought that this story can make me feel all these in a span of 1 whole day. I was able to finish it in 1 day and I will forever be grateful for spending my day on this, cause it helped me survive whatever i'm going through right now. So, thank you!

I'm probably ending it here because I'm running out of words and ideas to write. Haha. I always love writing but I also knew that I suck with it. Nonetheless, I am very thrilled whenever I got to express myself by writing whatever I have in mind and finally seeing it visible in a context once transcribed using words... It is my forever joy and fulfillment.

Finally, I just wanna tell my future self that... We made it this far with the help of a lot of things, a lot of people and it would never be possible without all of them. So live and enjoy life to the fullest. Do not be afraid of making mistakes, falling and getting all bruised and scarred because that's part of the process of life. Just go with the flow and you shall arrive at the final destination with a genuine smile plastered on your face. Simply because you know you did great and didn't regret a single thing along the way.

P.S. I'm painfully reminded Papa... I miss you so much and I will love you forever and beyond. I'll remember you through our 'yesterdays' and the day shall come when I will finally meet you to enjoy our 'tomorrows' till then I will make sure to enjoy my 'todays'.

I will always love you, my greatest supporter!

From your beloved Son,

Angelo

09.29.22 - 02:35AM - WEDNESDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 2 years

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I'm halfway there, Twenty² Fourth⁴ ~!!

Coming back to write after a long time made me reminisce to those stressful days I frequently had last year (2020) where I would come here to write my heart out just to release and relieve my agony and pains. It was indeed a priceless and rough journey but I'm glad I went through all that because I wouldn't be the strong and sturdy person I'm now without them.

Anyways, this time it's not about my dramas but some of words of appreciation and a compilation of people who greeted me yesterday that greatly touched and flattered me. 💕

×× Mary Zhane Brillo (The Impact & Effort😭)

My long time SNS Friend I called Kambal who I share my deepest thoughts about trivial and important life matters has created a poem for me (God knows how long did it took her to finish it) and is the very first one to greet me at 11/17/2021 - 11:59PM. I was speechless and flastered upon reading her message first thing in the morning. Words aren't enought to express my gratitude and fondness. It started my day and I can't thank her enough for making it super duper good 🥰

Followed by these friends I haven't met for the past 7 years+ but never missed to stay contact and sent their casual greetings to me. I really miss and appreciate you guys. See you soonest 😁💪🏻

Then this silly and hilarious greetings from my Friends (Batchmates Wave 12-A and Workmates since 2019). They made it extra livelier and got my adrenaline all worked up. I was most entertained and excited because of these people. They provided so much fun and pressed a hard on smile on my face. Thank You guys! 😁💞

Next came from the people who gave me so much help and relief at work on a daily basis. From my Super Hardworking and Understanding Boss who's always there to help me out no matter the situation is and has pampered and tolerated me so much all these years. to my Chismiss-mate who I share all my diss and complaints to & the person who helped me out on a daily basis by checking the endorsements whenever I'm not around or busy to do so. Thank you so much. Y'all has helped me went through the daily shits of my life 🤗💯

Down to this set of people who witnessed the peak of my youth and adulthood. The friends whom I share my ups & downs and all the dramas I had back in the days till now. I appreciate and love you all so much. My life wouldn't be complete if you were not there with me. Y'all has contributed so much in it that an attempt to erase them would damage me greatly. Always take care and remember that I always Love and Treasure all of you 😘💕

×× Ate Raquel (Generous, Loving & Understanding)

×× Elaine Gabutero (Tolerated & Beared me a lot)

×× Clarrize Andrea (1st Niece I Love wholeheartedly)

Finally, to my Family who I have quarelled and fought so much but always chooses to stay, understand, bear and love me, Thank You! Despite of my deep rooted terrible and nasty attitude y'all stayed to understand and pamper me. I always feel the love coming from all of you and I appreciate them so much. Thank you Ninong Danny, Ate Racquel, Ella, Clarizze, Ate Elaine and Mama. Let's all go through this shitty life even further. I love you all always and forever 😘

11.19.21 - 02:13PM - FRIDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 3 years

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×× JUST HOW MUCH CAN A DRAMA IMPACT MY LIFE?

At first, I was just looking for a drama to watch just to casually kill time and to divert my attention from all the things that's going on with my life.

I started this drama with the thought of 'I really don't want to watch it right now but I have no choice, so...' turned out this one's going to be the greatest salvation of my lifetime.

I can't even think where to start, this drama just brought so much influence and inspiration that made me stupidly cry and cry and cry and appreciate. I'm always that emotional type of guy who easily get swayed by almost everything but this drama just came on the right time, moment and situation.

I won't ever be able to explain how this story saved me from total chaos and destruction. I was constanly crumbling apart for the few days but for some magical reason it appeared and mend me little by little. It was like a present from above asking me to hang-in-there and get my inspirations back and fight forward.

Emotional Mess is the best nickname I can come up for myself at this time. Dealing with my worries, concern, complaints and doubts have always been the toughest battle I've been facing on my own for the longest time now and I always managed to keep it ashore by getting inspiration from stories around me. Weird for some but the most effective for me.

This drama has thought me how to appreciate, regret, love, understand and grateful. It was such a phenomenal story I never thought I would encounter with my current situation. God probably sent it to me as a reminder of how valuable and flexible life is; that no matter what this life is a constant cycle of change so never lose hope. Better days will definitely come.

Thanks to that I was able to keep myself together again... It may be going too far if I say now that it completely fixed me but it surely contributed the biggest portion into keeping me together. I'm hoping that it can be my guide to make myself better once again.

At this point, I completely lost track on how I initially wanted to write this. All I know is that I follow my instict and kept on typing till I was able to construct this lengthy reaction. HAHAHA!

I won't keep this any much longer. I will just paste a copy of what I took down notes as a reminder for myself in the near future.

Always remember that it is never wrong to commit mistakes and feel regrets. It is part of the learning process that we must experience in able to grow and to mature.

×× KEEP IT ALL UP AND FIGHTING MICHAEL!! ××

04.15.21 - 02:44AM - THURSDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 3 years

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18 AGAIN — HOW IT MOTIVATES ME & KEPT MY SANITY IN ONE PIECE

Thinking back, endless happiness was always in our lives. Anyone can find it and enjoy it. It's a common luxury all of us can have.

For that happiness, we decided to love our decisions. We chose people based on love and we are grateful for our decisions. And as for my loved ones and myself who are living diligently as always, I woud like to cheer them on to the end of time.

In life, even if you miss out on happiness, as long as you have that one person who will look for happiness with you, your life will be worth living.

Don't forget that you love each other, be dissapointed that you cannot cherish each other better and promise for a better tomorrow.

Just like that, our lives will continue.

04.15.21 - 01:57AM - THURSDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 3 years

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When I expected things to be chill but turned out to be extra exhausting... 😅

I guess God himself got so fed up with my constant complaints and wanted me to face the battles and responsibilities I have been diligently avoiding all this time.

Just this month, I was offered yet again with the position I have been declining for countless of times now and it felt like the DIVINITIES UP THERE got so frustrated looking at me getting all worried on taking such responsibity that's why they've been gradually placing it my way to make me familiarize and eventually get myself used to all of it.

I have always been the type of person who hate doing extras. I hate extending, doing overtimes and all that stuff that can compromise the alloted time required to finish my work. But, as time passes by I realized that God himself just won't let me get stuck on one particular routine so he kept on pushing and pushing me to the best of my capabilities. I don't know if it's even intentional or coincidence but I'm sure God is lending me a helping hand to move forward. 😅

At this very moment, I still wanted to resign because of the non-stop stress and exhaustion given by my job but I'm still trying to contain all of it inside and will endure a bit more for atleast a week or two until I finally blow up.

I'm just hoping that i'm sane enough to keep all of this. Knowing how impatient and impulsive I can be sometimes... Oh God! Please guide me! 😁🙏🏻

× × × × × A T T I T U D E × × × × ×

GOODLUCK MIKE!!! ALL THE BEST!!!

03.31.21 - 11:11PM - WEDNESDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 3 years

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I'M FEELING TWENTY³

Celebratin– ehhh? my twenty–³ years of existence felt so ordinary. I guess it won't change until I reach the next peak which is my 30th.

Moreso, I'm very happy to receive greetings from variety of people starting with my Family, Friends, Acquantances and Mutuals I have interacted with for the past few years; and i'm also grateful to spend my birthday working like how i used to for the past 3 years.

Looking back at how desperate i was when i first started on this path, it feels so fullfilling and fruitful to finally see where i am standing now. I guess the word "I did it!" is the best expression i can describe my feelings and thoughts right now.

I kept on thinking for the past couple of weeks of what I really wanted and I came up with "I just want to do whatever I can do; to challenge myself and trust myself even further" and so with this thought i've decided to move forward and allow myself to be taken by the flow of fate (with my little silly interventions 😁😂).

My wish for this year goes to my countrymen who have experienced the worst but have chosen to remain standing and motivated. Resiliency it is, but i think it's more of their will to live for possible betterment.

Anyways, I'll end this here. I genuinely wanted to thank everyone who greeted me today specially to my family members, friends and people i'm deeply connected with. Thank you so much for taking time to extend your warm greetings. It's highly appreciated. ^^

PS. My intro was the biggest gag of all this. HAHAHA! Happy 'Birthday Shift' again, Michael 😁 Cheerss ~ 🍻

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11.18.20 - 10:14PM - WEDNESDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 3 years

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I Find My Way Home With You.

How do people even identify if it's home? is it because it feels cozy and warm? or do they feel comfortable being there? or is it as deep as love and understanding without any questions being asked?

So, here I am again in my solemn and treasured sanctuary where i confide almost anything that bothers, triggers and excites my physical and mental being. Hahahaha!

This time i'm here to share one of the most heart-warming and the most relateable series I've ever watched in my entire existence, which is "Gaya Sa Pelikula" I don't even know where to start from here but I'll just make my way through it all with my messy and out of order signature way of writing.

This series is making me feel so much emotions right now, as i've been totally engrossed and invested with this since i binge watch it yesterday night. There are lot of times where i acted like this but this must be the first time ever where i spend my entire available time watching and catching up through the main leads activities and whereabouts to know more of them.

Yes, they're both (Paolo & Ian Pangilinan) attractive but inside me I know for a fact that it's more than that. These inviduals was able to break through and infiltrate the thickest wall i set up within myself, mostly with my Sexual Orientation. They conveyed their characters emotion and words so well that i'm nailed to the ground, crying, knowing that they hit the rightest spot. It was very uplifting and delightful moment for me (GSP Ep.7) the phrases were throwed the way it will hurt you the most to make you realize what was wrong moreso let you admit the real reason why you can't openly let it out in the first place.

When Karl said, "Am i obvious?" and "Does anyone think of me that way?" tore me the most. Cause I know that feeling. I've bee– still there, no matter how much i wanted to let myself out to feel free; I just won't rather can't. Cause I know that people aren't understanding and open-minded enough for such topics. I'm scared of the cosequences i may face once i braved it out and muster up all my courage to spill it all. I'm afraid that after such courageous outbreak the next thing i know is that i'm breaking down.

All this time I toughen myself to be as independent, head-strong, courageous and brave as I could possibly be. Simply because I know that my journey isn't smooth sailing straight one but curvy full of ups and downs, obstacles and hardships that if I feign even the slightest weakness the chances of me failing is 100%.

I won't lie, i know myself. I'm not exactly Gay, more on Bisexual if i'm going to categorized it. Deep inside I still wanted to have a family with kids of my own and a Wife. I still like girls but it's seldom for me to actually get interested to them on a sensual level which is different to how i viewed guys. I'm still stuck whether i wanted to just have kids with woman to make my dreams come true or am I really dedicated to find a woman who can change my perspective and to live my lifetime with. All i know for now is that, i like guys more than girls.

Anyways, I'm hoping to see this memory as i grow up, maybe a year from now would be perfect? to see if anything has changed after that? or am I still stuck!

By the ways, it's my 23rd birthday 10 days from now and what I wish or aspire this time is to always remind myself to take on challenges head on and to always trust my capabilities. As i always say, I'm born and raised a FIGHTER!

P.S. I'm totally addicted to Paolo & Ian right now, WHIPPED it is. HAHAHAHA! #Pancakes

11.08.20 - 01:18AM - SUNDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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Will I be able to convey my feelings?

Feelings is the interpretation of my desire and passion.

Here am I again, writing another passing thoughts in my mind. I was never good with words so I don't understand why I'm trying so hard to write like a professional writer. Hahaha

These days I'm thinking so much of life and the hell am I doing with myself. So I have decided to properly write everything here like a journal with a concept and path in mind. (Although I've been writing it seriously eversince lol)

I started writing this while watching "覚悟はいいかそこの女子" another J-drama yes! Unexpectedly they deliver the reality that best fit my interests (Going back to the topic since I'm drifting too far away again) I was just wondering if the time would come when I'll be able to muster up my courage to confess my feelings to someone I like? cause looking at where I am at right now, I know that I'm still too far from that.

My future self might ask me why so let me enumerate!! ¹The current me right now is too afraid of consequences; not because I'm afraid of failure but because I'm not ready to face such things yet. ²I can't see myself being fully capable of handling a relationship more than myself. I'm selfish for petesake. ³I'm afraid to get misunderstood and judge. My sexual orientation right now is in a complete disarray. I'm at the stage of I'm liking guys more than girls yet is completely aware that M2M relationship won't bring me anything. I'm afraid of the possibilities my future has stored for me. I'm afraid to make decisions that I assume would end up to my devastations. What a big cowardy-scaredy-cat am I right?

In my current state right now, my answer to my question would be a 'No' but I'm hoping and counting on my future self to be more courageous and have confidence in yourself!! Fighting you weakling!

I surely still have a long way infront of me, right? I'm cheering you on MICHAEL! I'm hoping that the day to uncover yourself would come and I'm looking forward to see a much happier carefree and prouder version of us.

09.08.20 - 05:12AM - TUESDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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Misconception of LOVE 💞

At this age realization still does happen; Humans life is indeed a never ending learning curve, as each passing day we are all learning something new and sometimes unusual that may left us dumbfounded.

My own view all this time of love is something that i can easily grasp whenever i wanted to since i have been receiving confessions every now and then. It certainly got into my head i know that for a fact. I have gotten so confident and conceited all this time that my view of the word love is something that is very easy to obtain.

I'm that asshole type who pretends like i don't know nothing everytime someone's trying to show their affection to me. I always tend to shrugg it off and most of the time treat it lightly to the point where i just ignore it at all. How inconsiderate isn't it?

All this time i thought that i'm just so confident when it comes to love but sudden realization hits me that it's not my confidence that's keeping from jumping into a romantic relationship but my Defense Mechanism— all this time i'm under this halucination that my First would be my last and that i wll do my best to make things work that way.

Afraid, yes!, i'm afraid and scared ahead of time that if i happen to engage myself in such serious relationship and if things turn out to be a disaster i'm afraid that it might left a big scar on my heart beyond repair.

All this time it's my cowardness that's keeping me from any commitments. It was nothing more than my traumatic and dramatic past that is making me act like this. At this very point of life, I just wish that god can guide me to someone who i can live and love comfortably.

I know that it's such a farfetched wish but I'll work hard for it. To find not the perfect one but my better someone.

05.25.20 - 07:58PM - MONDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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GOOD MORNING CALL (OUR CAMPUS DAYS) ★★★★★

I don't know how to move on after this... This is one of those drama that gave me so much and i will surely get myself addicted to this for the next few days. One of those scenarios where I can't take the actors' off of their respective characters even after it ended. Simply so engrossed to it that I forgot where the exit is and I'll surely be wandering for the next remaining days or months until i find the EXIT (another distraction).

Actually, i contemplated so much whether to post it here or my twitter/IG instead and I have decided to put it here as how I normally do. After all, Tumblr has always been the platform that serves as my companion for keeping memorable memories like this; cause i'm that type of person who loves reminiscing things, feelings and emotions i have had during a specific moment.

I have watched countless of Japanese dramas and this is the BEST of them all. At first, i was just scrolling through dramas and looking thru the feedbacks and got curious as one of the feedback says, "If you like Itazura Na Kiss then you'll probably like it. It's more bearable to watch as the female lead is more realistic" and this particular comment got me all so curious since i'm an enthusiast of such drama genre and i am a big fan of ItaNaKiss. ~ I must say, it didn't disappoint and even went over and exceeded my expectations to the point where it top everything else. Which is super rare for me.

Typing this in at this hour made my thoughts all fuzzy and i don't know what to say anymore. Well i have never been good when it comes to writing essays and commentaries in the first place. So let me cut it with my last congratulatory wordsss! SAIGO-DESU!

Lastly, i'm dissapointed at myself for not watching it during it's PEAK DAYS, considering it was released back in 2016 & 2017. I really should start dumping Korean and Chinese dramas and take time checking out Japanese dramas since there're tremendous amount of great undiscovered pieces right there.

Last of Last (Hahaha), I wanna say congratulations to the actors! I truly love you all!!!! Specially to the main leads Shiraishi Shunya & Furuhara Haruka. They both worked the hardest to make themselves and their characters appeal to its viewers with so much more than the CHEMISTRY itself.

Also, i just really love Sugino Yosuke and Takahashi MaryJun! This 2 actor/actress completed the Season 2! — One last thing, to the other characters such as (Sakurada Dori, Arai Moe, Nagashima Shugo, Nagasawa Koya, Yoshida Madoka, Natori Yukimasa, Nishimoto Ryuki, Nakamura Yuichi, Yajima Maimi, Sagara Itsuki & Tomoko Fujita) they all made the drama (S1 & S2) the best! They're one of pillars that completed it and it wouldn't be as great if it wasn't for them. AND it ends here! Hahahaha!

#GoodMorningCall #グッドモーニングコール #FukuharaHaruka #ShiraishiShunya #SuginoYosuke #TakahashiMaryjun #SakuradaDori #AraiMoe #NagashimaShugo #NagasawaKoya #YoshidaMadoka #NatoriYukimasa #NishimotoRyuki #NakamuraYuichi #YajimaMaimi #SagaraItsuki #TomokoFujita

05.07.20 - 11:48PM - THURSDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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BESTFRIEND FOR KEEPS!

It was such an exhausting day and I'm very lucky to have this set of people who were free to make me laugh. ↓↓

It started like this; out of boredom i started binge watching lives from some actors i love and was able to encounter this joint IG Live of #SaintSup & #ZeePruk where they tackle this kind of "reaction/condition" where actors tend to carry their characters personality even after work.

It was such an interesting topic that caught my attention as I have some experiences with the said "reaction/condition" before. In my case it's more of I'm having a hard time moving on. It usually occurs whenever i'm getting too in touch to a specific show like "Girls' Generation and the Dangerous Boys, Channel Soshi and some other dramas.

That hollow feeling of "It's all done and I have no where to go" or "I don't know how to move on after this" unfortunately got me big time again.

So, to cut the story short, afrer watching that live I was stuck on my Fanboy character feeling nothing but emptiness and chills the whole day. Being totally aware of it, I guess I was lucky enough how to push through life even with it.

Then the night time comes and I'm already getting so frustrated over this feeling that it's making me super uncomfortable already and out of mere luck doing a video call with my bestfriends dispells that crazy curse out of me.

The main point is that I only post once and tagged all them saying my "I miss you sentiments" and one by one they all showed up leaving some responses that made me want to do a Video Call with them.

Blessing in-disguise it may be but this Quarantine has helped me get through this and i'm grateful for that. Yet, i still can't remove the fact of how unacceptable the damages this pandemic disease has caused us.

This COVID-19 lockdown has given me nothing but anxiety and uneasiness for the past 3 weeks now. It's the 19th day since the lockdown and unfortunately we can't still see any bits of light ray out of it. Not to mention that every single day hundreds of positive individuals are being confirmed to the said disease. It is both disheartening and painful to witness your fellow countrymen begging for help just to get through this alive and it's truly devasting to see how much damaged it has caused us so far.

At this situation, I'm praying to our creator to guide and help us through this and let us be safe from any danger it may cause us.

P.S. My addiction towards this reaction is that, I wanted to buy WhyRU The Series Box Set right away 😂 Weird and ridiculous as it may sound like but that's what i really want.

04.04.20 - 04:40AM - SATURDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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This calls for a Celebration! 🍻

Accepting new role means accepting new challenges! Welcome aboard Quality Apprentice Michael! 🎉

Let me start this with an introduction of how I perceived myself starting on this path.

Honestly, that day I applied on this company I'm in right now; all I have in mind is to do well and get hired. Cause I needed the money and I know that I won't be able to extract another "will" out of myself if I failed it.

My training for this program has been the most wonderful out of every training experience I have had— but right after the smooth, enjoyable and easy path was a rough and rocky one. I was challenged and forced to face numerous failures that made me think of quitting.

Luckily? I matured a bit, I think? Lol. Cause I found myself keep going forward amidst of the challenging situation I was in. Looking back, I must have grown through out the process. Something that 16-20 years old ME would do immediately can't be done by 21 years old ME— "Giving Up" is my expertise, but this time I was able to prove myself wrong. As I faced many challenges, failures and dissapointments that made me head strong and brave enough to continue pushing myself to what i thought is my limitation.

Every single memories is such a wonderful experience I would treasure in this life time. The time spent were so precious and valuable that I'm sure I won't be able to forget it. To the people and friends I met on this journey, I wanna say thank you! as I Iearned so much from all of you. and to myself "Fighting!" cause I'm sure there's more crying, ranting, complaining, sulking and dramas that we're going face directly.

I won't be on this position if it's not from the people around me who keeps me motivated and sane all this time. Be it negatively or positively. You made me realized tons of things and I really wanna say thank you!

and of course! to my #1 supporter My Father, I wanna say Thank You, I Love You and I Miss You SO MUCHHH! I know that you never and will never stop supporting me in this lifetime so I will pay that with hardwork, determination and perseverance.

Also to God himself who keeps on granting me a "DAY" to live. Thank You and I promised to live it preciously and will cherish every passing moment. Please keep on looking after me.

Lastly, to myself. You're the best! You deserve all this so never ever doubt yourself no matter what. You earned each and every single thing you have right now so be proud and keep on reaching new heights. Let's go on steadily from here and moving forward.

I LOVE YOU SELF!

12.09.19 - 11:00AM - MONDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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Supposedly, REST DAY!

It was a fun and comforting day for me. Spending and enjoying time and moment itself at the same time.

Doing it like this left a memorable taste within me, something I haven't done for quite a while and would love to continue doing again if given chance.

Never knew there's this feeling lingering around hiding deep inside myself.— Hmmm... Maybe I know? or I have always known rather? It's just that weighing things and finally getting my desired answer made me decide to just bury it deep inside. Somewhere dark and deep wherein realizing it would be tough unless you let yourself dive and get use to it?

I feel unexpectedly happy and grateful. I'm filled with love and genuine happiness.

I know that I'm real 'mean', 'hard' and 'tough' but that's my representation and my own way of making someone learn. Hoping that they understand. I know they do; and even if not, i know for sure that they will realize it soon enough.

I'm very excited to see the both of you grow up to be such beautiful and wise ladies. Lovelots my girls 😘

P.S. Incase I forget it in time. Just wanna leave it here and give credits for the word "Tough Love" from my beloved and beautiful Coach Grace Ann Lorenzo!

Occured on 12.01.2019 - SUNDAY

12-02-2019 - 02:05PM - SUNDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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Getting another year older! 😅

This is way long over due but I'll still post it! HAHAHAHA! Been busy to work and I'm freaking dying! Helppp ~ 😂

Okay! Let's start! Cue~ 🎬

Every year whenever this specific day comes I always try to be discreet with my emotions as much as possible. Simply because growing up I have experienced and witnessed the devastating situation that will happen every time this day comes.

Thus, making my Birthday such a traumatic and terrifying event for me. I think one thing that will always change my view towards this day is when I'm thinking of how much effort my Father and Grandmother had always given to celebrate it even if I'm insisting that I don't really need it.

It always give me warmth thinking of those memories; being able to feel the raw love and care from those people I cherish the most.

This time, It is the same cycle. It occurs on Monday which happened to be my 1st day of work. I just followed my workday routine by waking up, getting ready to work while trying so hard not to look and respond to the greetings I'm receiving on my SNS. 😂

I must say I'm very happy just by getting words of greetings from my Family, Workmates and Friends! It makes me feel like i deserved being born in this world and inspires me to keep pushing on.

Moving forward It will be the same; seemed to be a normal, ordinary and colorless day. BUT remember that I will always appreciate it! ALWAYS!

11.25.19 - 08:55AM - MONDAY

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michael-ss0718 · 4 years

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A TIGER OUTSIDE TURNED FLUFFY PUPPY INSIDE 🐯 →🐕

Today I tried to sound firm and look stern while voicing out my thoughts and decision of letting go all the responsibility I have no idea why I'm shouldering in the first place.

It's the very first time that I was able to convey my honest opinion to my mother for the situation I'm in and how burdensome it has been to me for the past few months now.

Letting go is not an easy decision to make specially if it involves people who are dearest to you. But I also realized that it's my own way of making them realize how tired and done I am with all the things I have to endure for the past few years.

I feel terribly bad to see my sister getting silent and worried after telling her the things I'm most dissapointed about and how I wanted things to be for her. So I started comforting her and told her that no matter what, don't be scared of me, I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at the situation we're in and told her that even when everyone turn their back against you, I'm always here to support and love you.

At that point I kinda know that I failed miserably. I've always knew that no matter what may happen I'm still that person whose always open on giving love, affection and attention. Primarily because I know on the other hand the feeling of being deprived of those emotions.

This responsibility I'm taking right now is even more than the promised words i pledged to my father years ago. I know for a fact that it's my love which is making me act like this.

Right now with my head in pain with all the worries; with my heavy heart because of the words I said. I'm hoping and wishing for some guidance from god and my father to lead me to the right path and help me with all the decision i have to make from now on.

Nothing but the best for my life!

P.S. This occured yesterday 11/16/19

11.17.19 - 2:50PM - SUNDAY

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