STU-DYING

It's exam season fellas! Not so happy about it. I have a huge load of portions to study. It's stressful of course, but I'm so desperate to move to 12th and complete my school. I would miss the school days for sure, but I seriously want to prove myself to a lot of people.

My dreams are not supported by many people in my relative circle. I don't want to look like a failure in front of them. I am going to make myself so damn successful so they don't question me ever again.

I should go back to study.

All the best to the people who have exams around the corner.

Sun-kissed mornings, Warm breeze tickling, Sleeping in your lap, While I drown in your stories, Those carefree days, And blissful memories, Only if I could relive, Day by day.

GRIEF It does not know the time, A year or a decade, It all feels the same. A drug you never took the pleasure of, More like a habit. You can't stop it once you feel it, You can't move on or forget it, Just sticks to you till death.

SCHOOL

Today was tiring. I am feeling way too out of class like I'm a weird person in the room. My mom says that only I can make myself feel like that, but those were not as helpful for me today. Last year, I loved my class, and I loved going to school just to meet my classmates. I had fun. I know I'm weird but they accepted me and we all got together so well and I thought this year would be the same. But my own expectation killed me. And I miss my old days with my friends, I miss my old classroom with no windows, yes the classroom suffocated me but I still long to be there. I just wish I could pass another 1 and a half years quick so I could move away from this school.

Long time no see

I am not suicidal. I want to live my life to the fullest. Enjoy every day... today tomorrow every moment, I want to cherish the moments.

I have some dreams like every teen have. I want to be the best in the career I am working towards, I want to visit places, take my family places, and take my girlfriends (platonic) on amazing vacations to get our mind off things and enjoy ourselves.

I have big dreams and big goals. I am tiring myself to reach that goal. But when things get too tiring... what do you guys do when you feel so tired to move on but too close to reaching the goal?

I don't want to give up... I am never planning to give up. I remind myself every day that I'm no quitter.

The career I chose to work upon is a career that my relatives feel so off about. They ask my parents why they allowed me to join that career. But my parents are open-minded, they know the consequences, but they believe me too. My relatives talk bad about my choices for my future. Guess that motivates me a lot too, Just like Kim Seokjin said, "People succeed when others say negative things." It gives me a lot of energy to work on my passion.

But this is not what I came here to say, you guys.

Have you ever felt so damn tired, that you need serious relaxation... but you have no time for it? Well, that's the only thing I think about the night before my 4 hours of sleep. I have been fantasizing about how I could get at least a week off if I met with an accident. Yes it would be so painful to feel the pain and seeing others in pain. But... a week off doesn't seems so bad.

When my thoughts were this horrific... I had to remind myself that I can't risk my life. I can't put my family in a position of sorrow. I have so much to do and so many people to worry about me. I can't hurt them. A week off can lead to pending work.

People, mainly teenagers tend to feel like how life is so hard... they tend to question why are they living. Just turn back people, see how far you have come, imagine where you want to be, and move towards your life. We all are on the planet for some reason. Before hurting yourself, just imagine the sorrow you would put others in, imagine the life you would want to make for yourself.

I know what I'm saying is too confusing. Just give yourself a moment, and think about your decisions before jumping to conclusions.

Never get dependent on anyone, you don't know when they would leave you heartbroken.

Episode-1

Hello peeps!

I just got my mark in my school periodic exam and I have 5 subjects for which I got 4 subject's marks... well... I failed in maths... I passed in the others... don't know whether I would pass or fail in physics.

You see students in grade 11 studies for their college entrance exams and school subjects. For JEE and NEET students school would be manageable but I, who wanted to get in fashion designing has a different track. I study maths from 6th syllabus and have to get through my exams on trigonometrical functions...

I did not have enough time for studying and this is my first exam of my grade 11. It was tough of course. But if I had my chance to put my efforts... I would've succeeded.

Anyways, I was called for special classes... and I don't have time for it.

People, understand this one thing, your efforts can only be reflected on your outcome. A great outcome, then you would've put in a lot of efforts. But here, I did not have time to put effort and a day means 24 hrs., which is not enough for me...

See you soon people! Adios!

Me, myself and I

Hello people!

I am a girl from south India who wanted to share my thought my ambitions, and my stuff with this world... Hope you like my blogs.

I'm 15 so bare with my English skills.

Warning: Most of it would be me rambling... so yeah... see you soon!!!