Why do i even bother coming around on this blog? All it does is hurt, in a way I can’t explain without betraying myself or my promises. All of the things I did wrong, people I’ve ruined just to test myself and the trust I didn’t have.

Fuck, I shouldn’t miss you for a second. You always wanted me to change in order to be closer. First it was religion, then it was how I coped with a darkness that could only be remedied by something that was out of my hands after I applied at every place I could. Sure, I’m hired somewhere now and doing a lot better than I was then, but that’s after...what, three..four years of healing and struggling. I shouldn’t miss you, you never accepted what I was or was trying to be and couldn’t see a way to it. You left me when I was wide open and vulnerable to begin with. But fuck me- I miss you. Every damn time I try to set a standard for what I’d like, you’re pretty much the minimum of what’s acceptable.

Perhaps this pain is an obnoxious, karmic catharsis to the voices in my head already telling me how worthless I am. Draw a line to where I was and see how I’ve grown. It doesn’t feel like enough, and it never will. I will always feel like I’m behind, that I’ve wasted years I’ll never get back. Even more so now than then, when we still talked...cause I wasted so much time accepting you and changing for you, and all for nothing but a lesson I’ll never forget.

you shunned me at my worst and I shouldn’t even think of letting you see me recover and climb my way to where I’m going. You don’t deserve it for all you’ve done. But I am equally spiteful and masochistic. See me as I am now. I want to show you- make you relive those memories. I don’t care how much it’s going to sting, either. Cause like I said- I deserve it.

A lot of unfollowing just happened over here.

Now for the next steps of repurposing this blog and wiping a lot of these silly memories clean. For anyone curious or paying attention to this grossly inactive blog, I’m making it an outlet for my writing project, and will be following friends and blogs I find that are related to my writing only. No hard feelings, folks. I’ve just got to make this personal blog a lot less painful to visit.

Fresh start? Yeah. Fresh start.

Who knows how long it’ll last. But I’ll be here periodically, mainly as a means to find things that make me feel better and to inspire or promote my own writing. Who knows how long this little burst is even going to last. This blog holds a lot of memories that are hazardous, and I’m already on edge about it. We’ll see how it goes, I guess.

BattleCry revealed: Bethesda’s stylish World War I game without gunpowder

What if war was civilized? What if it was structured, ritualized and — though still brutally violent — maybe even a bit romantic?

Bethesda Softworks and developer BattleCry Studios attempt to answer that thought exercise with BattleCry, a stylish multiplayer combat game that’s less your typical online shooter and more of a melee-focused brawler.

BattleCry is an online multiplayer action game for PC in which up to 32 players battle in team-based combat. It’s heavily stylized, class-based and full of colorful characters. For shorthand, think Team Fortress 2, but instead of rifles, rocket launchers and miniguns, players battle each other with swords, crossbows and beefy metal fists.

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Handmade Swords - Master Sword from Zelda

Maker & Copyright: Brendan Olszowy

Measurements: Overall Length: 1052mm (41.41”). Blade length: 811mm (31.93”). Grip Length: - grippable area 207mm ( 8.15”). Blade Width: Waist 35mm > Flare 52mm > End of Fuller 31mm. Point of Balance: 83mm (3.26”) from blade shoulder. Centre of Percussion: 515mm (20.2”) from shoulder. Hilt node of percussion: is 52mm (2.05”) back from top of the diamond. A fraction forward of the centre of the fore grip. Weight: 1490g 3lb 4.5oz 

Medium: Blade: 9260 High Carbon Steel. Grip/Scabbard: Poplar core with Veg Tanned Leather wrap/ straps. Hilt Furniture: Bronze by Jeffrey J Robinson

Inscriptions: “Sword of the hero of legend” and “Edge that is the bane of evil”

Source: Copyright © 2014 Fable Blades

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