i shouldnt have responded when koki sent that screenshot of the crush anon

kya ha ha back come the feelings of bitterness and wanting to be w koki

being their friend would be good enough if they werent dating someone else

hgahjhg its been over two weeks since ive needed to vent abt something i dont want ver to see but here i am!!! here i am on the verge of tears bc koki and komi wont sotp sending cute messages to each other and im realizing how little i mean to koki compared to komi idk why id be one of kokis fp bc im an annoying monster with no redeemable qualities but?? id hoped bc theyre one of my fp... but they clearly komi more!! they never tagged me in anything saying i was na angel or sent me several messages a day reminding me that they loved me and they never called me “cute” as much as theyve said komi not nearly as much  and i just wanted to be the fp of one of my fp but!!! everywhere i go someone likes someone better!! theres also a first choice theres always so many things i dont understand bc it happened between just the two and theres always always walways someone better than me

why am i good at literally nothing. i have no redeemable qualities, im an asshole, i have no talent,

i want to die i want to die i want to die

nyahaha remember when i made this vent blog bc i didnt want people to see some of the things i ven tabt but then i liveblog an entire anxiety attack on twitter for my 29 followers to see

nyahahahahahah

i cAN NEVER SHARE THIS ACCOUNT EVER IF THEY FOUND THIS I WOULD DIE

hhh what if i have a crush    on ovma   

hhh what if i have a crush    on ovma   

boi i die

when u listen to mother mother and gET THOSE KIN FEELS AND WANNA DIE

idk if these are actual kin memories or just??? things i read or wrote ages ago before i knew i was kin with k@no????? all this dark shit and suffering and just,,, augh

body by mother mother gives me some Kano Feels

so im gonna make this my vent blog i guess?

i crave that validation on any kind of post i make but i also? dont like people i know irl seeing my venting posts bc i have to,, look at them and know they know something i hate sharing about myself and would never tell someone one on one because im just? afraid

i crave that validation on any kind of post i make but i also? dont like people i know irl seeing my venting posts bc i have to,, look at them and know they know something i hate sharing about myself and would never tell someone one on one because im just? afraid