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Thank you so much for creating this post! That was very interesting to read <3 Yeah I definetely see some influence on her

Hey! I've just seen your recent repost from LLV tumblr blog about her stage name. In hashtags you're writing that once Luci'fer tried to repeat certain pictures of Bjorn Andresen. Can you show me those pictures please? I'd like to post them in comparision in the blog. Happy new year! Leena

hey! happy new year ^_^ so, the specific post was in the drafts of an old now deactivated blog, and it was mainly about the name bjorn/violenoue rather than her aesthetic, but ive dug around my picture folders and think these are what i used in it. very similar in vibe, expression, hair, etc. especially the eye makeup giving that same slightly glazed over dreamlike look in the 2nd/3rd

'recreating' was probably a bit of a strong word to use though. which is part of why i never did post it..! 'influenced her' is more accurate. he was the original ~pretty boy and super popular in japan around then so it only makes sense lol

Хочу писать здесь и жаловаться. Меня просто заебало быть постоянно в плохом настроении, заебало беситься со своей внешности, заебали постоянные приступы злости, во время которых хочется счесывать с себя кожу, заебало приезжать в дом, который просто филиал помойки, с которой я ничего не могу сделать, заебало, что могу писать только здесь, потому что находятся умные ебланы, которые пишут про позитивный взгляд на мир, заебало, что у меня нет этого позитивного взгляда на мир, заебало желание все бросить и убежать куда-то, заебало быть ссыклом, которое не может этого сделать.  Заебало, что сейчас так плохо, что счесываю с себя кожу, заебало то, что куда ни глянь - кругом разруха, заебали поющие родственники, поющие отвратительно, как меня от всего тошнит.  Я хочу жить счастливо, хочу жить в душевном покое, заебали мужики, которые отшивают меня, заебали мужики, которые спят со мной и делают вид, что ничего не было, заебало, что приходится писать здесь, заебало, что не могу вести письменный дневник, заебало быть старой, заебало мое лицо, заебало, что выгляжу как тетка. Заебало, что все так заебало, что даже сил нет дальше писать все это. Пишу и вроде полегче. Я не хочу быть такой, я не хочу так жить, я не хочу этого чувствовать. Сука никто мне не отвечайте, меня от всех тошнит.

For those ones who might have forgotten the way I looked like.

Talking about LLV’s stage name... It appeared in the end of 80s. On the very first release of Gille’ Loves (actually the band name was Gillés Loves back in 1986) her name was written as Nana (photo 1).  In 1987 during the live year she presented herself as Nana as well. The actual phrase was: “There are no much time, but I’ll present the members. There are  Ryo on bass, Bart (?) on drums, and my younger brother Miki on guitar. And me – the older sister Nana”. So we might state that the band was formed along with her younger brother as his name was written on the first release. Second most famous member, Gardie, joined the band later. In the interview in 1989 she was telling that she remained the only original member of the band (photo 2). And as you might see on photo 2 by 1989 she started to sing under the name Lucifer. The same name is on the first demo-tape “Rose Kingdom” (1991) but with an addition “Luscious”. Luscious means ‘very sexually attractive’, I think adding this is really her thing. She always loved to balance on the verge and add some provocative and sexual notes into her art. But what is Violenoue? There are two possible ways of explanaion. I think it is better to start both explanation with the point that Violenoue is written in Japanese as  ヴィオルヌ (Viorunu). And there was Fiction’s song ヴィオルヌの犯罪 (Viorunu no Hanzai) - The crime of Viorunu.  The first theory is that it is Japanized name Björn. Luci’fer loved the movie “Death in Venice”. The main character was played by Björn Andresen. And Luci’fer herself wrote that he really loved the androgynous way he looked. And on the VHS “Viorunu” is romanized as Björn (photo 3). The point agains this theory is that usually the name Bjorn is tranlating to Japanese as ビョルン, Byorunu, but not Viorunu. But Luci’fer may not have known this fact.  The second theory is also can be explained through the song  ヴィオルヌの犯罪 (Viorunu no Hanzai). There is a novel with the same name (photo 4). And Luci’fer might have chosen the name for the song after the novel. As well as her stage name.  ヴィオルヌの犯罪 is a novel “L'amante anglaise” (English mint) by Marguerite Duras.  Viorne there is the city where the crime was commited.  So there are two points of view: Violenoue means the name “Björn”. Luci’fer romanized it the same way herself. The second one: Violenoue is coming from the name of Viorne - the town from Marguerite Duras’ novel. The name of the Fiction’s song is the same as the name of the novel. And the name Violenoue is Japanized the same as the name of Viorne in the novel. I think both are true. 

Original illustration by Yutaka Hidaka (Fanroad Rapport Deluxe Special, 1994)

Schloss Lichtenstein -  Germany by Benjamin Jaworskyj Photography

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april 2003

Внутренний тремор неостановим. Моя душа, если такие вещи есть, неустанно дрожит. Всегда. Каждую минуту моей жизни, стоит только замереть и прислушаться. 

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