10:22pm — bilis ng araw. mantakin mo April na agad.

wala namang bago sa life ko. hmm, may times lang na nag-struggle ako but nakayanan ko naman. ang extra sad ko lang today kasi finished na yung contract ko sa AF. ang dami kong natutunan from coaches to gym people, super helpful nila sa fitness journey ko. lol wala e ganon talaga. ang exciting lang rin kasi nung thought na gusto kong i-try naman sa ibang gym like ano kaya yung feeling to be in a new environment, to meet new people, to experience new stuff. yung ganong level & (to pay mas murang membership) lol. i'm just happy with my overall experience & sa progress ko. enough na sa fitness chika ko.

no matter how hard i try, no matter how i keep myself busy yung sadness palagi nalang sya may place dito sakin. sometimes kahit ako napapatanong na sa sarili ko kung saan ba nanggagaling 'to. lately, mas ramdam ko yung pagod, bigat, & lungkot. kaya nga may tendency na i'm choosing to be quiet, to isolate myself.

totoo nga na nakakabingi yung katahimikan, no?

...

it's been a while...

happy birthday to my favorite person! ♡

happy new year!✨

december 1 na agad?

I think the hardest decision, is when you need to choose between what is right and what makes you happy.

this is one of those days na gusto ko nalang mag-disappear...

I woke up at 5:40 a.m. I took my coffee at 6 a.m. I took a shower at 6:15 a.m. I had my morning skincare, and I made my bed. What a productive morning!🙂

11:06pm — november na. ang bilis ng oras, no?

i have so much in my mind rn & pakiramdam ko yung pain bumabalik na naman. (baka naman hindi kasi talaga nawala) eto na siguro yung type of pain na walang exit.

6 years na sana tayo. kung hindi tayo nag break sa tingin mo tayo pa rin kaya? and now, almost everyday magkasama tayo yung love ko for you mas lalo lang nag-ggrow. ang gulo diba. the last time you asked me if pwede natin continue yung tayo, i refused, why? i want you to be sure of how you feel. i don't want you to have any regrets.

if you were gonna ask me, 10 years, mahal ko, ikaw lang yung minahal ko nang ganito.

flex mo pinaghirapan mo yan e

i wanna cry so bad☹️

ahhh, gets

i'm trying to hold back my tears. not worth it.

october na agad??? clean tv 💙

sakit ng ngipin ko ☹️🫠

12:09 — happy birthday to me♡

september na?