10/21/17 || 3:21

i want to be as close to you as possible

10/11/17

i wanna drive with you under cotton candy skies into neighborhoods we can’t afford

10/02/17 || 23:57

3 hours and 34 minutes

10/01/17 || 22:37

you make me smile

like a kid at a playground

i want to hold your hand

like a mother wants to hold her child

you leave me to think

about feelings i didn’t think i could feel

09/05/17 || 23:19

i'm feeling in my head and startin to get sad again expect some posts soon

07/05/17 || 22:01

time doesn't matter with you

06/27/17 || 00:25

i could invite you to lookout with me to take pictures of the sunset and i could drive us up there while you fight for the aux because you have another weird song you need to show me and we could get there and hike a little bit so i can get my perfect shot and then we can go back to the car with the blanket bed in the trunk and watch high school musical movies because you've never seen them and we could look out at the city lights and things could be perfect

3/29/17 || 00:07

you make me want to write again

3/28/17 || 23:59

let's talk more about the future and moving to new york and living in a shitty apartment together and going on adventures and road trips and being happy

3/11/17 || 23:16

your voice is the most soothing sound

10/14/16 || 22:19

i could take you to a hockey game and you could drive us in your shitty little truck that you’re too attached to to get rid of and i could buy us nachos and you could explain the parts i don’t quite understand yet and you could sit really close to me because it’d be cold and i could cheer at all the right times and you could tell me more about all the ice rinks here and you could teach me how to ice skate one day and things could be good

09/30/16 || 19:45

i’m sorry she doesn’t love you like i could

09/01/16 || 20:04

things were going good but now loneliness has hit me like a wave everyone is gone and everyone who is left is going to leave

08/18/16 || 19:44

everyone is gone

06/12/16 || 17:13

I feel bad for the world and I just want to fall asleep with you

06/10/16 || 23:02

I really just want to keep talking to you and talking about you but I don’t want to be annoying and obvious but I really liked the way you kept touching my hand today and I really like watching you drive your cramped little pick up and I really wanna play with your hair and lay on the grass next to you and retie your shoes so they’re tied but loose enough to slip off bc that’s what I do and I know that’s what you like to do too and I’d also really like to properly hold your hand and I almost did when I helped you up and when we were pretend punching each other and I also really liked the hug you gave me because you give really good hugs and I really liked hugging you because my arms fit around you like that’s what they were meant to do and I’d really like to just drive around with you even though you don’t like driving I’d also really like to go to one of your hockey games or a few of your hockey games and maybe we could go on road trips to see everyone in college, I’d really like that. I’d really like to learn more of your quirks, like how you always reach across the entire backseat with your long arms and like to hold onto things in the car and how you like to fall back into the background when there are a lot of people you don’t know. I’d like to hold hands with you and kiss you lots and make out in your car and try to maneuver around the small cab of your truck and I’d like to see you wear more flannels because you look really good in flannels and I really liked when you told me I was the glue that held you together and I really really liked when you kept saying it and I really like it whenever you say that it’s just you and me because we’re the gears to the clock and it made me feel really special when you told me you were proud of me for passing my drivers ed test and I really like how you listen to me all the time and you catch the little things I say under my breath that nobody else hears or the way that you look right into my soul when I think nobody else is paying attention and I’m gushing again but I think I really like you,,,

05/27/16 || 3:33

I’m reading through everything and I’m reading it and only remembering the sadness I’m not feeling it anymore and I now realize how bad things really got and I’m glad I’m okay now and I hope you’re still okay too