Oh no, there is cringe here, and you've found it...
Moon, she/her, mid twenties.
Just a blog for my cringe interests in self ship and my fav F/Os, ship aesthetics, etc. Eager to make friends with other self shippers too :3. My most focused on f/o rn is Minthara from Bg3.
Sometimes she'll just casually drop a line that both shows every minute of her 200+ years in the world and her willingness to abandon any or all of that when it's no longer relevant.
As a creative person staring down the latter bits of middle age, picking and choosing what accomplishments and wisdom to keep or toss, I relate to this so much. It's one of the many reasons I find her so compelling.
going on a date with an f/o and your platonic f/o(s) are hiding behind a newspaper/bush in the most gooofiest disguises ever. do you or your f/o notice? do they follow you around and get busted? or do you shake them off eventually and get a memorable moment with that f/o
imagine yearning for your f/o before getting into a relationship with them
normal interactions with them run through your mind. when you put your playlist on shuffle, a song comes up that reminds you of them. you now have that song on repeat for a few days.
when you see your f/o genuinely laugh for the first time, you can’t help the warm feeling in your heart. in that moment, they didn’t have a care in the world. you want to preserve their happiness. and you hope you’ll be the cause of that laughter one day. with them around, there’s one more reason to get out of bed.
and they don’t even know. they don’t know how they’ve enhanced your life. you don’t know how you managed to keep these feelings inside. maybe bits of affection slipped through the cracks. your feelings are all consuming, but confessing is a hurdle too tall. maybe not today, but someday