american thing happens in america: what are we some sort of asians

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

it was said before but i don't think the majority of usamericans understands that all those billions their government sends to finance foreign wars aren't theirs either. it's looted imperialism money.

about to say something mean but i feel like every "male-specific" issue is something that also happens to women its just that a lot of you dont seem to see women as people

i love the women here who only post when they want to complain about something or spread hate whenever i see their bitter text posts on the dashboard i feel so happy

yeah things are going great on kpop twitter

hey, so i saw this post by @/palipunk [tumblr link] about a gofundme campaign to help someone evacuate gaza right now, with a tweet where the organizers are asking for only 250 people to each donate €100 to help reach the goal. i have almost exactly that and thought to become one of the 250 people, but i realized i could try to help stretch that money even further by matching other people's donations.

so, boost this post and whatever amount of money you have to give--50, 20, 10, 1 or less--donate it to the GFM linked below and then send a screenshot of proof of your donation either in a reblog on this post or in DMs to me, and i'll match it, up to $100 (which is a little less than €100 but it's what i have).

i'm hoping that at the very least we can get another person's worth of donations and double my original donation, maybe more if people keep donating through this post after i've sent all mine, but even if this post gets no traction i'll still be donating the full $100 within the week. there's nothing to lose, please boost to help Walaa Abusamra and her family evacuate gaza right now, and donate anything you can if you have it.

When people get a little too gung-ho about-

wait. cancel post. gung-ho cannot be English. where did that phrase come from? China?

ok, yes. gōnghé, which is…an abbreviation for “industrial cooperative”? Like it was just a term for a worker-run organization? A specific U.S. marine stationed in China interpreted it as a motivational slogan about teamwork, and as a commander he got his whole battalion using it, and other U.S. marines found those guys so exhausting that it migrated into English slang with the meaning “overly enthusiastic”.

That’s…wild. What was I talking about?

coworkers under 35 love me for my cowboy bebop jacket, coworkers over 35 love me for my cd player, management loves me for my mental illness-fueled punctuality. everyone feels vaguely wary of me for my overall poor impression of acting like a human

i've been more antisocial and irritable the past few months but i guess everything's fine :)

The claims of Zionists not to feel safe on campus are by no means new and I do recall years ago when I was going to one of those universities, Zionists would block so much shit, spy on our events, and even try to suspend pro Palestine organisations during a time when we weren't organising protests or sit ins and the most we did was poetry readings, or that one time we built an "apartheid wall" with wood panels in an open area with each panel displaying info about Palestine and the occupation. That was the most we did that year, and the same year we had SO MANY Zionist complaints about feeling unsafe by the org, some of them literally fake crying in front of members of the administration.

Now I know I'm not saying anything new but of course they feel unsafe! Their entire existence has been propagandised by their own community and they have been shielded from any negative blowback by both government and private administrations for decades.

Of course they feel threatened, because why would they want to be faced with this ugly, ugly truth about Israel? They feel threatened by the amount of support and the tides shifting which is a constant reminder that their narrative had failed miserably.

Of course they feel threatened when they feel like they have lost their cozy bubble where they blocked out any mention of Israel being a terrorist state. They don't want to be constantly reminded and confronted by their complicity in this genocide.

Their cozy bubble has been burst and their safe space of genocide and apartheid denial has been burst, and now they are being forced into the reality of what Zionism actually is and what it is viewed as by the rest of the world, so of course they are scared.

farewell

lsf only had like 48 hours of peace FUCK YOUUU MHJ

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