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lorelbunny · 21 days

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Day 1:

- 90kg 162cm

- DIAGNOSED anaroxia/bulimia

- i do not like my height i want to be shorter

Day 3:

Seeing this changed my brain chemistry. This is what i looked like before i recovered and now that I've relapsed this is all that i want. Im obsessed with looking petite again and they way i used to be treated when i was petite. I feel like i was loveable instead of fuckable but now im just fuckable.

Day 4: lose skin because of how much i gained in recovery

Day 5: kinda explaine in day 3

Day 6: no i just tend to purge

Day 7: no i dont live with them anymore but they helped cause my ed so probably not

Day 8: walk around 20k steps

Day 9: yes always family tho

Day 10: eating obviously duh

Day 11: n/a

Day 12:

Day 13: unhealthy obviously this is a disorder not a silly liet diet

Day 14: 40kg probably by jan

Day 15: No.

Day 16: when i first became disordered at 12

Day 17: yes ana/mia

Day 18: fucking chocolate 💫

Day 19: two weeks ago, omad KFC

Day 20: omad 600-800kcals or 3 day diet coke fast + 1k rest of week

Day 21: L because i decided to recover 🔫

Day 22: 41kg, forced and then voluntary recovery

Day 23: no mostly family influence

Day 24: i hate them. I am proana/mia for myself only but i wouldn't wish this on anyone, especially being at a higher weight or relapsing multiple times etc bc its all you think about. The fact that wheter i attempt depends on a NUMBER is sick 😭 even after you recover it never goes away.

Day 25: Yes i dont remember the first time i just remembered last time i almost choked and i haven't purged in like 3 weeks

Day 26: looking like what i used to look like. Exposed collarbones, being fucking tiny, my thigh gap most of all.

Day 27: fasting, diet coke, gum and only omading towards the end of the day otherwise i will binge

Day 28: yes i want my fucking thigh gap back so bad 😭

Day 29: petite, blush.

Day 30: 87.5kg 162 cm

Still dx

I love pink

I wish i could be a bunny

Im genderfluid & use she/her

Im sapphic

I am LITERALLY a princess

I am the embodiment of autism (fr)

I love the sea

There's a bug in my room rn please send help ☠️

Not fat or anything phobic if you are please leave me alone

Idk 😭

#starv1ng #junkorexia #ed relapse #tw ed but not sheeran #bulim14 #bulimima #proan4 #pro miiia #pro recovery

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