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Will you promise to love me forever?
"Would you kindly?"
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It's been 34 years already and I wish I wasn't still writing out sad things today.. I wish things could have been more different but I just can't seem to re-wire my thoughts. As often as I felt that I've been misunderstood as a teen.. I still feel that well presently even when I try to explain things so many times in the way that I feel. I feel.. so alone..
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“I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tightly is because we fear something as great won’t happen twice.”
— Unknown
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“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole life fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
— F.Scott Fitzgerald
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I don't like how quiet and lonely it feels in this house.
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When you do things that you never wanted to do in the first place.
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I've been around a chatting site for nearly 16 years. I learned of it when I was playing with friends on runescape and had someone telling me about it when I was 16. Curiously, I approached the chatting site and made an account and poked around to see what it was about.
I met all sorts of people, made friends, had crushes, had relationships, even heart breaks. But then... there came this one person who just enters my life and changes everything. You know, for years I had been depressed and I was never really happy. I never knew how to grasp happiness in my being. If someone were to ask me the definition of happiness.. I wouldn't be able to tell you and I'm sure anybody else would say "well, happiness is something that comes from you alone." I guess I'm just broken in that department.
But when I laid eyes on this person.. I instantly liked them. That may sound silly as in how can you like someone you haven't had the time to talk to? Well.. it doesn't happen very often for me.. call it a type of connection I instantly felt. I didn't pursue this though because there was a road block in the way that made me take the friendship route instead. Over the time that we spoke and got to know each other as friends.. I never had trouble just being myself. I could be me and he would accept that.
When time allowed for love to blossom.. I started falling for him and eventually I let my feelings be known to him. And eventually... the greatest love of my life became the end of me. I stayed around a chatting site for 16 years and the time that I left it for good too. All because of one person. You never really think how anyone can impact your life so heavily but 1 person out of millions can.
I reopened wounds that I shouldn't have to begin with and so now I'm restarting the healing process all over again. From my experiences... it's never a good thing to keep talking to an ex when you still have feelings. Because no matter how much you want things to go with that one person who meant so much to you... they will never want you and it shows. The only thing you're doing to yourself by lingering around is hurting yourself where it hurts the most.
Pain will come back and wrap around you like a fine blanket because it's the only comfort that you know and all these questions as to why will nestle down next to you. "Why was I never good enough for this person?" Which tangles up all the other questions that come in. This is where you start to find where your self worth is and who you are as a person because out of a billion people here on this planet. You are the only one of you and nobody can ever replicate or replace you.
It's never good to beat yourself up in the end but to try and pick yourself up, wipe the tears from your face, and find yourself again. There was never anything wrong with you. You were just loved by the wrong person and we can learn from our own mistakes too.
My experiences... the person I am today is who I am meant to be because of everything I've went through and the people I've encountered through my life. We wouldn't be who we are today if we didn't go through the things we did growing up. It's a learning and growth process.
If you weren't the person you are today, the exact one who's meant for you wouldn't even take notice, they would slip right by you without you ever knowing until the day you are meant to cross paths after everything you've gone through.
Don't let other people's mistakes ice your heart. Trust me... it's never best to stop caring. I've tried that. It got me no where.
But we can't keep holding onto someone that clearly doesn't want us to hold onto them. Just know that you were the best that you could have been and if there were parts where you felt like you could have done more... learn from what you didn't do and apply what you can do into the next person who's meant to be in your life.
Because the one who's meant to be in your life won't ever let go of you and when things get real stormy, they'll still be there time and time again because they won't ever give up on you. When love is meant to be for you it will never leave you, it will always fight for you, because it knows that you are meant to be in their life too.
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“The thing you are most afraid to write. Write that.”
— Nayyirah Waheed
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I am washed over with dread
The hope I held hath left so long ago
When did it leave?
I doth naught know. Hope slipped right through the cracks in front of my eyes.
And it isn't coming back.
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Here goes my thoughts again.. telling me “Maybe it’s better if we just aren’t here anymore.”
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“Some days, I feel everything at once. Other days, I feeling nothing at all. I don’t know what’s worse: drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst.”
— o.m
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I hate being left alone in my thoughts.
The one person I miss, I can't even talk to.
I don't like it here. I don't like this box I'm in. This emptiness that was left..
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