Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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THE MAGICIANS ▸ poached eggs
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Title: until i come back from the dead for you | Chapters: 5/? | Fandom: The Magicians | Pairing: Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh | Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply (see fic for tags and author's notes)
Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
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Hello, lovelies. For those who have been waiting, I'm going to be posting chapter five of until i come back from the dead for you on Saturday! So who wants a little sneak peek of the opening scene? Because that's exactly what I'm here with. 😎
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Quentin sits on the edge of the bed in Eliot’s childhood room. Head hanging down so low it’s practically between his knees. Gazing at his bare feet where they press to the floor. Gulping air, chest and shoulders heaving. Trying—and failing—to convince himself he’s not actually on the brink of death.
He’s pretty sure he’s having a stroke. He’s pretty sure his lungs have collapsed. He’s pretty sure his heart is going to leap from his chest and beat itself bloody and raw between his feet on the floor.
He plays the last few minutes of his life over on a loop in his head. He doesn’t remember even thinking about kissing Eliot before he’d done it. Well—in truth, he’s probably always thinking about kissing Eliot. But he hadn’t actually meant to do it. He doesn’t think so, at least. He doesn’t think he’d been thinking much of anything at all. There’d only been the shining, animal draw of Eliot and his lips, nothing more.
Sour sting of stomach acid scorching the length of his throat. The realization hits Quentin at once, knocking around deep inside him like a shard of glass. Jesus. The Eliot he just kissed hadn’t seen Quentin in nearly a decade before last night. He’s changed, he’s older. He’s married to someone else. So much time has passed for this Eliot, Quentin might as well be a stranger. The Eliot he just kissed isn’t his Eliot at all. Not that any Eliot in this version of their lives has been his before, but—well. Quentin knows it would be different if they were back at Brakebills. If Eliot was unattached and still in his twenties. Back when he was the sort of person who could have placated Quentin with a pity fuck. A little something to take the edge off his feelings until Quentin could get it through his head Eliot was never going to want him. Not really. Not—
Fuck. Quentin hangs his head a little lower, feeling like a goddamn monster. The room pitches nauseatingly as a broken carnival ride. Hurling Quentin’s brain from one end clean to the other. The whole state of Indiana around him spinning and spinning and—
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