We went out on a little jeep ride this past Sunday and had an absolute blast. Great times. Great people.

We went out on a little jeep ride this past Sunday and had an absolute blast. Great times. Great people.

Also known as your vet getting ready to treat your dog for pancreatitis...

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This man right here is truly amazing. He makes me feel so special and so loved. I've been hesitant about posting about him simply because the last guy I posted about broke my damn heart. He makes me feel so safe and just happy beyond words. He treats me like a damn princess. He's seriously perfect for me, and I'm so glad I have him in my life. He really is wonderful.

I finally reached my breaking point today. I had found or through the grapevine that my (now ex) boyfriend had been cheating on me with some girl I actually thought I was pretty cool with, and the girl knew he was cheating on me with her. Saw her yesterday and basically wanted to immediately strangle her, but I kept my cool. But today the harsh realization of it finally hit me, along with everything else weighing down on me, and I finally broke down and cried. Now, I'm just trying to distract myself with humorous stuff so I don't start crying again. I'm pretending to be fine with the whole ex boyfriend cheating on me. I'm pretending to be fine with the mental, emotional, and verbal abuse that my family just loves to wreak upon me. And I'm pretending to be in complete control of my anxiety and depression (yes,both diagnosed). I just don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to keep pretending that I'm fine when I'm clearly not...

intrusive thoughts be like

brain: open the door n throw urself out of this moving car

me: what no

brain: okay u gotta be paralyzingly afraid of that for the rest of the ride though

me: what the fuck. What the fu

Monsoon season is finally here in the desert. This is after yesterday's rain, usually this wash is bone dry.

This is just the bites on one of my legs. It itches so bad lol

It is day 4 of being in Arkansas and I’m being eaten alive by mosquitos. I have bites all over me and it is horrible. I love it here though, it’s so beautiful and green and there’s actually this stuff called grass! I’m in heaven. I can deal with the humidity, the mosquitos, everything. I don’t want to go back to the desert where everything tries to kill me lol EDIT: I have counted them and I have 25 mosquito bites, not including the ones that have gone away. I'm so damn itchy that it's not even funny...

Guys, I'm going to Arkansas!!! I leave on Thursday and I'm staying for a week!!! Best friend time commences in 45 hours and 23 minutes!!! I'm so excited and I still need to finish packing and everything! Agh! So much to do! My flight leaves Thursday morning at 6am and I won't get there until 5:02pm. I can't wait to be with my best friend again.

So my best friend in the whole wide world, my soul mate, my partner in crime, moved to Arkansas last year. Now she's married and will be 8 months pregnant. Her baby shower is next weekend and I'm still here in Arizona. Well I've decided that I'm going to try to fly out there next weekend because 1. I'm the godmother of that baby boy and 2. I miss my best friend more than words could ever even try to explain. It's more like an early birthday present for myself, and I really hope I can make it out there. I'm half tempted to set up a go fund me account to try and at least cover half of the expenses... I'm so stressed, but also so excited that I might get to go see her.

I need to know the story now...

#1 reason why not to install a cat door in your bedroom

The jello shots were a hit! I wish I had made more though. I had at least 8 of them, and they definitely snuck up on me a little later. They were so good! I'm definitely making more in the future!

So I just made jello shots for the first time ever, and now I'm wondering if they're gonna be any good lol. Now we wait. I'll let y'all know if this was a misadventure or not.

Went off roading with my boyfriend, and we took Aelin with us, last night until 3am. Had the best time ever just spending some time with him. Ended up staying the night, and slept incredibly uncomfortably but it was worth it. He's a roamer in his sleep so he takes up the majority of the bed anyway, then the dog decided to sleep right between us, so I was literally on the very edge of the bed about to fall off all night lol. And those two snore so loudly it's unbelievable. I swear he and the dog have a snoring competition in their sleep and it's just ridiculous. I wake up and my dog has her head on his chest and they're all snuggled up to each other and her legs are pushing into me almost shoving me out of the bed. I was smiling the moment I woke up and took everything in. Honestly, I can't wait to keep waking up to this because I've finally realized that this is what my happiness looks like. Everyone all cuddled up together and peaceful after having so much fun the night before and just feeling at home with the man I love.

I love being awake between 11pm and 3am. I can feel creative and listen to music and just relax and feel basically at peace with myself. I don't have to talk to anyone just yet. I don't have to deal with my mind going 100 miles a minute and reminding me of everything that's been happening lately. It's really nice. However, it's a pain in the neck to try and get up early in the morning haha.

I seriously just spent the past hour looking at the most beautiful bookshops and libraries in the U.S. and around the world and have written every single one I want to go to including their location and all the things that make them unique. I can't wait until I can visit them all one day.